CHAPTER 8

I knock on Adrian's door with a lot of force. Adrian looks sleepy and frightened at the same time when he opens the door.

"Oh Rose, it's only you. I thought a bunch of guardians wanted to skin me alive when I heard the slamming on my door." I ignore his joke and push past him to get into his room. I walk over to his fridge and take out a small bottle of vodka. Adrian hands me a glass with ice and watches me throw the vodka in. I down my glass in two big gulps and refill it.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Adrian asks as I sit down on his bed. I pull my wedges from my feet and throw it to the door.

"You look stunning by the way. Did you dress up for me?" I glare at him and take another sip of the vodka. It burns as it travels down my throat, but it feels good now.

"He is cheating on me." I gulp down the last of the glass and hold it out to Adrian to refill it. He does as I want and hands me back the glass.

"Who? Dimitri?" Adrian sits down next to me. I glare at him.

"Who else?" I bring the glass to my mouth again, but Adrian takes it out of my hands.

"Rose, I don't think he would do that. His aura lights up with gold and pink when he sees you. Gold is love and pink is admiration." I grab the glass back from Adrian and guzzle it all down.

"I saw him with Tasha. We were supposed to have a date tonight in that old cabin. When I got there, he pretended that I shouldn't be there, and he and Tasha looked like they had a rough make out session." Adrian put his hand around my shoulder. I look at him and for the first time, I admire his handsome face. His emerald eyes shine with love as he looks back at me. Why couldn't I just love him?

Maybe you can!

Lissa's voice appears in my head again. I lean in and place my lips on his. His lips are soft and moist. Adrian is hesitant at first but after a few seconds he kisses me back. His hand tangles in my hair and when I reach up to do the same, I freeze. He doesn't have long hair like Dimitri. Because he is not Dimitri. I pull away from him and jump off the bed.

"I'm sorry Adrian. That was wrong of me." I grab my shoes from the door and run out of his room. I use my stealth mode to sneak past guardians until I reach my room. I find Dimitri standing in front of my door with a dozen black pearl amaryllises. My favourite flowers. It looks like the roles have been reversed. Now Dimitri is taking in my appearance. Smeared lipstick and messy hair.

"Rose, wait. The kiss…" I didn't even notice that Adrian followed me until he spoke, but he stopped when he saw Dimitri. I look at Adrian to see that he looks like me. My lipstick is on his mouth and his hair is messier than normal. Dimitri has murder written all over his face. He drops the flowers on the floor and turns away from us.

"I will talk to you tomorrow." I leave Adrian standing in the hall as I run after Dimitri. He is heading straight for the gym and he is ignoring me when I call his name.

"Please, it's not…"

"Do not say that it is not what I think it is." Dimitri still has his back to me when we enter the gym. I put my hand on his shoulder, but he just shrugs it off. I walk around to face him. His eyes show his hurt and betrayal. He doesn't even bother to put up his guardian mask.

"Why Roza?" He asks me. I can even hear the hurt in his voice. I look down to the floor.

"I guess I wanted to get back at you for doing it to me first. I saw you with Tasha."

"Nothing happened with Tasha. Do you really think I would do anything with her when I'm so obviously in love with you." His words pull on my heart. I look up into his eyes.

"But, I saw how you looked. Your hair is a mess and your shirt, it's wrinkled, and the top button is open. And Tasha looks like she had a heavy make out session." My voice sounds small even to my own ears. Dimitri looks at me like I'm a naughty child. I hate it when he looks at me like this. It just shows me that he thinks I'm immature. Maybe I am sometimes. Maybe we are to different to be together.

No.

We fit together like puzzle pieces. We were made for each other. I'm sure of it.

"I went to the cabin to set it up for our date, but there were two bats in the cabin. One of the windows was open. I tried to get them out, but they kept flying towards me and in my hair. Then Tasha came into the cabin." Dimitri rubs the back of his neck and closes his eyes.

"I don't know what she was doing before that. She helped me to get the bats out. I send you a text message, telling you to stay in your room because Tasha was in the cabin. But then you showed up. You really think I would betray you like that. Like you did to me." I should have never doubted him. Of course, he wouldn't cheat on me.

"I didn't mean for it to…"

"Save it Rose. You smell of alcohol. Go to your room and sleep it off. We can maybe talk tomorrow." I start to protest, But Dimitri holds up his hand.

"That was a command from your mentor and you will not disobey it." Dimitri slams on his guardian mask and his mentor voice. No matter what I do, he will not budge now. I walk to my room with my tail between my legs. I pick up the flowers from the floor and enter my room. everything is dark, as dark as my heart feels.

He is never going to forgive you. This hurt your feeling can go away, with just one cut. I used to do it, it made me feel better.

Lissa is encouraging me to cut myself. She wouldn't do that. Not unless she thinks it would really help. Maybe it will help. I take one of my razor blades and leave my room to go to the bathroom. Everyone should be asleep by now. The bathroom is empty, like I knew it would be. I stand in front of the mirror. The girl I see staring back at me doesn't look familiar. I look like a ghost of the girl I used to be. I pull the blade vertically over my wrist. A line of crimson blood flows out of the cut. Somehow it does make me feel better. I make another cut. And another. And another. Blood is gushing out of my wrist. The blood falls into the basin and flows down the drain. If only my problems could flow down the drain as well.

"Rose, what the hell!" I jump at the sudden voice in the room. it's Alberta. She grabs a hand full of toilet paper and puts pressure on my cuts. I try to shove her away, but she is stronger that I am. She pulls me out of the bathroom and I follow her all the way to the infirmary.

"Dr Olendzki, I need your help."

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