Chapter 8
Sanzo was exhausted. Since they had left the damn mind controlling yokai's nest he can't have one minute of silence. The voice of the saru don't let him, and the worst is the Sanzo began to fell Goku's feelings. It was like if the bond they have shared since the day Sanzo had freed Goku from his prison had become unbreakable and Sanzo had no other choice but accept it. And if there is one thing who despised the monk, it was to have no choice in the matter important to him. As much as he wanted to deny it Goku was an important matter to him, almost the most important matter in his whole life.
It would be no help to stay away from his saru, Sanzo had found it. Because unlike the voice in his head will fade with the distance, it grow stronger instead. And he found no longer any relief at hitting the saru with his fan because he now feel the hurt of the hit too. Life is so unfair ! He had never asked to share a bond with Goku. Maybe his life would have been better if he had never searched the owner of this damn voice, but he doubted it. Goku was like a fresh air who had changed his life for the best. Without him he would have had only his work to prevent him to take his life. But there is no use to think about it because Goku was part of his life for so long that sometime Sanzo thought that they have known each other all their life.
this night the ikkou was fortunate enough to have a room for each of them and they all planed to enjoy it in their own way. Gojyo had gone to the local bar and he had planed to return with a nice woman to warm his bed. Hakkai had chose to spend his evening at reading a book he don't have time to read before. Goku, for himself had planed to continue his own training. And Sanzo had gone to bed early because he lacked sleep.
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Sanzo was aware he was dreaming. It was again this dreadful dream where Goku take the place of his beloved master. Again sanzo can't do anything but look at his most important person to be killed in front of him. And the fact that his master stay alive in the dream don't make things better for Sanzo. He looked at the crushed body of his saru with a pain tenth time worst than the one he had felt when his master was killed. And komyou was like a father to him, the only father he had known. So, does it means that Goku is more important to him than his master once was ? He can't accept it !
" Koryu !" Said the voice of his master. "You don't have to be ashamed of your feelings."
" Master ? What are you talking about ?"
" You're in love with him, aren't you Koryu ? Don't let the believes of the others make choice for you. I'm so proud of you koryu. You have become stronger."
" I'm not strong!" Exclaimed Sanzo.
" You are right. You are not strong all by yourself. But you are strong with your friend, and especially with your lover. There is no point of denying that. I'm sorry that I had to left you alone when you were so young. But you are not alone now. You have to found your own mutchimotsu."
" Like always you made no sens master." Said Sanzo with resignation. " For once can't you be more clear ?"
" I can't and you know why. You have to find your own enlightenment. I can just show you the way. It's up to you to follow this path or not."
After that the body of his master began to fade away and Sanzo tried to stop it. But like the time when Ukoku had began to erase his memories he can't do anything but yell for it to stop. Suddenly he found himself alone with the dead body of Goku, and the only thought who come to his mind was that he wanted to die too. He can't keep to live without Goku by his side, like his saru can't live without him. Maybe before they could have but not now and never again. Sanzo don't wanted to stay alone again so he searched in his mind where is bond connected him with Goku and he used this bond to call his baka saru.
The dream shifted and Sanzo found himself in his bed with a concerned Goku looking at him. Sanzo indulged himself, after all it was just a dream. His hand found his way to Goku's neck and he pulled the stunned saru toward him. Then he kissed him with all of the love he felt for his baka saru, and most to his joy Goku returned his kisses with an equal fervor. Soon Sanzo fall into a peaceful sleep with his beloved saru in his arm.
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This night Goku was happy. Finally Seiten teisen and himself had become one fully. It was like if the great sage had never be apart of him, and the only side effect was that his hair had begun to grow at an alarming rate. Soon he would have again long hair, but it don't bothered him. He sort of liked himself with long hair. It was Sanzo's idea to cut it and Goku had not dared to say no, but now things were different. He no longer was the kid he once was. He is more than capable to decide if he wanted to have his hair long or not, and no matter how much Sanzo would be furious, there is no way that Hakkai cut his hair again !
" GOKU !"
The scream hurt Goku's mind. Never before Goku had heard Sanzo calling him like this. There was despair behind the call and Goku can't do anything but answer this call. He left his room and go to Sanzo's. He found the monk trashing to his bed. Goku come to his side and he tried to calm his lover. Finally, after some time it looked like if Sanzo was finally waking up. Goku wanted to ask him what had happen but before he can do anything Sanzo was kissing him like a starved man. And Goku can't do anything but answer with his own passion. He was well aware that the monk thought it was a dream, but the feeling was too good for Goku to push Sanzo away.
After a long time of kissing, Sanzo finally return to the real sleep. He had take Goku in his arm and the saru don't minded it. But he know that he must to return to his room or the next morning would be his last one. Sanzo was not ready to acknowledge what his heart knows all along, That Goku and himself were lover in everything except for the sexual way. So, Goku freed himself in a so gentle way that he don't woke up the monk and he left the room. But not before he said.
" Good night my love and sweet dream. I will always be there for you, just call me."
In his sleep Sanzo heard him and a smile found his way to his sleeping face.
" I know." He answered. " Like I would be there for you. I lo..."
Goku, who had froze when he heard the monk talking, can't push the red who had shown to his cheek, nor he can fight the bright smile to found its way. Sanzo don't have finished his sentence but there was no need for Goku. He had felt Sanzo's feeling and he had no doubt about what the monk wanted to say. He send a wave of love to the monk before he left the room. And it was only when he was alone in his room that he let a sigh escape him. He wished for their next kiss to be with the two of them fully conscious, but for now he know that he will sleep very good tonight. He fall asleep with the feeling of love sending by Sanzo to him.
To be continued.
Next chapter : Nataku woke up.
