A/N- Hey people, I have exams this week and next week so I might not be able to update on the weekend! I will try though :D Oh and I am changing the story from M to T. I changed the plot which I was going to go with, so now only one upcoming chapter will be M!

Chapter 8

Nick POV

I knew what Selena had told me was a lie, but I couldn't start a fight. I didn't want to loose her, nor did I want to loose Miley or my family. I sighed sitting in the car tapping my fingers against the dashboard, what was I supposed to do now? Selena said I was never to go near Miley again or she'd break up with me, yet here I was sitting outside Miley's house wanting so badly to go and see her.

"Come on just go in there…" I stated to myself,

I pushed my hand through my hair and nodded, okay I had to do this. I pushed the car door open and slammed it, locking the car and walking towards the house.

I opened the front gate and quickly walked in along a stoned pathway and got to the door. I stood for a moment...to barge in or just knock and stand here? Hell she was my friend I was allowed to barge in. I went to open the door but it opened from the other side before I could touch the door knob. I gazed to see no one facing me and looked down, only to come face to face with Miah staring up at me.

"Hi Uncle Nick, mommy's on the phone shhh" She said with a smile,

"Hey Miah," I whispered and she smiled at me, "How are you?" I stepped inside as she closed the door.

"Good! I'm always good, want to watch a movie with me Nick?"

I stared at her, thinking of how many times I'd heard the same question from her mom while we were dating.

"No I'm sorry Miah, maybe later. I need to talk to you're mommy" I whispered and she nodded,

"Okay, another time then" She stated as I couldn't help but give a laugh,

"Yeah another time, where's mommy?"

Miah pointed at the kitchen and I headed that way, as she went back to watching her movie. I slowly moved up to the door and leaned forward listening carefully.

"Hmm yeah but is there anything earlier, like tomorrow?" Miley asked,

Her voice sounded like she was trying to hide it from Miah, I peeked around the corner to see her sitting on the bench a glass of some sort of alcohol in her hand…wait she drank alcohol?

"No just one way, yeah can I go straight to Melbourne or not?" She asked as I froze wait, what?

She was leaving already? Oh god this was stupid, she'd only just got back and because of one fight she was going back there?

"Thanks, yeah thank you, I'll think about it" She stated and hung the phone up,

I watched as she let out a groan, sculling the rest of the glass and grabbed a bottle from next to her filling another glass. Okay maybe this was worse then we all thought...

"Knock knock" I stated tapping on the door,

Her eyes instantly shot up looking at me in shock, she quickly tried to hide the bottle behind her only to knock it over and roll off the bench smashing against the tiled floor.

"How did you get in here? What are you doing?" She hissed at me,

"Well.."

She climbed off the bench grabbing some paper towel, and began to pick up the glass as I sighed walking over and leaning down...

"Miah let me in, since when do you drink Miley? You never drink" I stated grabbing some of the glass as she looked at me angry, snatching the pieces off the ground.

"Since when do you care?" She asked harshly,

My eyes widened, was she drunk? I sighed grabbing more bits of glass as she grabbed my arm and pointed to the door,

"I don't want you here Nick just leave, I can deal with this myself" She stated snatching a piece up and then letting out a wince as I quickly looked down the see blood seeping for her finger.

"Okay come on let me fix that for you, how much have you drunk?" I asked grabbing her arm as she pulled away and walked over to the kitchen sink turning the tap on."Not enough for you to even consider, I'm drunk Nick…just leave, I was doing fine until you arrived" She stated as I heard the hurt in her voice as she quickly washed her hands.

"Until I arrived now here…" I whispered, "Or when I arrived at 12 years old?" I asked

She turned staring at me, and shook her head pointing towards the door as Miah walked in gazing confused at the glass on the floor.

"What happened?" She asked,

Miah looked up at us confused and I leaned down grabbing the rest of the glass and throwing it into the trash as Miley sighed picking her up.

"Nothing baby girl, Nick was just leaving weren't you Nick?" She asked as I shook my head smiling at Miah, who grinned back at me as Miley shot me a killer look. "No, I'm not…We're going to talk, your mommy and me about what she was talking about on the phone" I stated as Miley instantly shrunk down a little and placed Miah on the floor.

"Didn't your mother ever tell you it was impolite to listen into other people's conversations?" She hissed at me as Miah smiled walking over to me and I gazed at the dripping blood on Miley's finger.

"Yeah she did, but sometimes it's better to listen then to ignore. Miah you go watch TV for a minute mommy and me are just going to talk for a bit" I stated and she nodded walking out.

"Let's get you a band aid for a start" I muttered,

"I'm fine"

"Miley tell me how much have you drunk?" I asked heading towards the cupboard and opened it gazing around before heading onto the next shelf finding the band-aids.

"Half a bottle, Nick I'm not drunk. I drink all the time, I'm old enough to make my own decisions" She stated flicking her hand at me as I sighed nodding okay she was old enough but still, "Miley why are you going back there? You said you would never go back and now you're booking a ticket what changed? I asked as she looked at me like I was the stupidest person in the world.

"Nick I hurt people, that's why I left to start with. I screw with people's minds until they all think I'm the controller of all evil. I'm going back their because my laid back personality fits in there while here…it just doesn't" She stated seriously and turned walking out of the room.

Miley POV

"Miley you are not the controller of all evil,"

"Yes I am!" I stated annoyed,

"I can't believe you even think you are evil! You are no where near evil, you just are always in the wrong place at the wrong time, that's all." Nick stated following me,

Miah looked up from the TV, why wouldn't he just leave so I could go back to getting drunk?

"Nick I am, I make people hate me! I made you hate me, Demi, Joe, Kevin, Selena…even Liam" I yelled at him,

He looked at me confused and I stormed up the staircase towards my bedroom, hoping he'd just get the message already."Miley, I don't hate you I never hated you! Nor did Joe or Kevin. Demi didn't either…well I don't think she did" Nick said to me, I opened my bedroom door and slammed it close in his face locking the door.

"Real mature Miley" He stated annoyed, "Come on…I drove all the way over here to talk to you! To see if you were okay stop blocking us all out!" He continued as I walked over to my draw opening it to find a bottle of whiskey, why not?

"Miley let me in, come on what about Miah? And why would Liam have hated you I don't understand Miley!" Nick said banging his hand on the door as I opened the lid and went for my bed taking a mouthful of the bitter taste instantly calming me. I smiled hearing Nick walking away, I took another mouthful swallowing the cool liquid as it burned my throat making me forget all the memories I was trying to hide from myself. I closed my eyes taking another one, Miah would be fine she was three it's not like I hadn't passed out back at home…

"Miley what the hell!" Nick suddenly yelled,

The bottle was pulled from my grasp as I looked at him confused, then saw the balcony door open. It adjoined Miah and my room, I let out a groan as he moved towards the bathroom.

"Don't you dare Nick that's mine…" I yelled,

I followed him as I got to the bathroom to see him tipping it down the sink, I looked at him disgusted…he couldn't control me anymore! "No more drinking…it's not the cure Miley!" Nick stated harshly as I walked away heading towards my other hidden bottle, now I just had to make him leave.

I wanted to get drunk why couldn't he just let me?

"Right are there any other disclosed bottles I need to tip out? Because Miley you have a three year old daughter downstairs and I don't think mommy laying unconscious on the floor would be a good thing." He stated as I gave him a look sitting on my bed "It's not like it hasn't happened before…" I stated seriously,

He instantly looked at me confused and I looked away. Boxing day was the day after Christmas, I got drunk really badly and I passed out, Miah found me and rang Chris…

"Miley, you need to stop! You know this is only making it worse" He whispered pleadingly sitting down next to me, I shook my head gazing back at him "Nick I don't want you here, I don't even want to be here so if you don't leave I'm ringing the police this is my house…" I stated annoyed and he just looked at me shaking his head.

"No…" He hissed, "I'm not leaving not until you tell me what is on your mind?" He stated as I looked at him, was he really that oblivious? Did he really not see what the huge problem was here?

"No, get lost Nick!"

"Miley tell me,

"No"

"MILEY"

"I killed my husband and now I'm going to have to live with that for the rest of my life" I stated desperately flopping back on the bed my eyes filling with tears, he wasn't even supposed to be in Iraq!

"Miley…" Nick whispered, "Liam died serving his country, you had nothing to with that" I sat up staring at him tears in my eyes, why was no one blaming me? This was my fault!

"Nick I told him to come home! I told him to come home for me, so he did in June last year. Liam came home he'd been there for only five months and if he came home he have to go back for another 7 months. If I hadn't told him to come home in June he would have only done another three months of service…HE WOULD NEVER HAVE EVEN BEEN THERE IN DECEMBER IF I HADN'T WANTED HIM FOR THOSE TWO FUCKING WEEKS…he would have been here, with me…not dead" I yelled tears falling down my cheeks, Nick stared at me unsure what to say as I broke down turning away from him.

"Miley…"

"Don't say you're sorry, or it's not my fault, because it is!"

"You didn't know that was going to happen you had no idea, he loved you and that's why he came back. What happened...that was not your fault Miley, no way" He whispered wrapping his arm around me as I kept sobbing keeping away from him. "Miley when was the last time you felt like this?" He questioned me,

"I don't know," I whispered knowing exactly the last time I felt like this,

"Yes you do,"

"When we broke up,"

"And did that get better, eventually?" He questioned,

"No,it didn't!"

"Miley-"

"I want him back I want him here with me, because without him I feel like my life is over!" I whispered and he sighed pulling me into a hug as I buried my head into his shoulder.

"Your life is not over…"

"Yes it is!"

"You have your whole life in front of you Miley! You are only 22! Liam loved you so much, but Miley he wouldn't want you doing this…getting drunk, not watching your daughter. Miley you need to stop you're self destructing yourself" Nick whispered stroking my hair as I just shook my head.

"I did try Nick I did. I tried so hard, but there's only so much trying you can do before you have to give up" I whispered and he let go of me as I tried to stop myself crying. "Miley this is not you! You would never give up! Never! Don't give up yet, not yet just keep trying don't listen to anyone who puts you down…" He whispered, staring at me as I gazed into his gorgeous eyes…

"Even Selena?" I whispered as I saw him look down for a moment, and then looking back up giving a nod…

"Even Selena Miley, even her…" He whispered as I nodded and he gave a sigh wrapping his arm around me again as I leaned my head on his shoulder…

"I will always love you no matter what" He whispered as I sighed, "Everyone does Miley"

"I know, and I love you too."