A/N: IMPORTANT: I will apologize since this week's episode came out a little late. I can only say one thing as an excuse: finals week. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Attack On Titan


Laying on my bed while petting Meadow, I sighed. Memories of what had happened just a few minutes ago carved their path into my mind. It was impossible. Having the ability to control titans was something I couldn't believe. Erwin had analysed the information we had given him. Apparently they had read about titans speaking. Hence, the reason as to why Levi hadn't been that surprised.

But controlling titans was something that had never been written, much less spoken of.


Levi, Erwin and Hanji were staring directly at me. The room was silent. The silence would have probably driven me mad if it hadn't been for the sound of rain in the background. They had asked me if I was completely sure that I had controlled the titan. I actually considered telling them that I hadn't. But I would've been lying. I knew it. I had somehow managed to control that thing. I could still feel it. The power rushing through my veins, the adrenaline, the pain.

-Yes. –I answered lifting my head to look at Erwin in the eye. His gaze softened and he sighed. I couldn't help but to notice that he sighed an awful lot. He carried a big burden on his shoulders.

He looked at Hanji and nodded. Her eyes widened, disappointment filling her expression. Turning around to face me, she whispered. I wasn't able to hear what she said.

-What? – I asked.

-You must keep this a secret, Merethe. No one can find out about this. No one. –She said.

-I understand. –I replied, trying not to sound scared. On the inside, I was terrified. What would happen to me? I knew it was selfish to think that way, but I couldn't help it. I was aware of the fact that I could put my comrades in a dangerous situation should I lose control on the battlefield.

I wondered why. Why did I possess such an ability? Of all people, why me? The questions were endless. There were a million questions and none of them had an answer. Levi placed his hand on my shoulder for reassurance, but I was far too submerged in my own thoughts to pay attention. Branislav had been taken to the hospital because of my stupidity. I had been too slow, too weak. I didn't know whether he was going to die or live. The image of his leg being eaten by the titan haunted me.

-Can you tell us how you did it? –She asked, pulling out a small notebook from her jacket.

I didn't know that. It just happened. Something triggered it. Something made me lose control over my body, over my mind. I had slipped into an unconscious state in which I had no control over my actions. Darkness filled my mind, my vision. I couldn't remember anything but Levi screaming at me to wake up.

-I don't know. I thought about it, and it happened. –I answered truthfully.

Erwin remained silent, but Hanji grinned. Her change of demeanour was so sudden that I barely had time to register it. She wrote furiously on her notebook and stared at me expectantly, as if I was going to tell her about all the things that I could do. It was Levi who broke the silence.

-Are you certain? –He asked, placing his hand on my back. He somehow managed to comfort me and make me uncomfortable at the same time.

-Yes, I am. –I said hesitantly. I wasn't so sure, but I faked confidence.

Erwin, my adoptive father, the one man who I could entrust my life, stood up and pulled me into a hug.

-You mustn't speak of this to anyone. This could endanger your life. There's not much known about this kind of abilities. The elders will probably take some extreme means to keep this away from people. I trust what has been said will not leave this room. –He whispered into my ear. He was trying to protect me.

He dismissed all of us, since it was already late by the time we arrived at HQ. Levi accompanied me to my room and left as soon as I entered. I knew that this somehow bothered him. I would be uncomfortable if I was in his place. But, one of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood. The way he felt at my newly found abilities was understandable, indeed.

I took off all of my clothes and filled the tub with hot water. Cleaning my skin from all the blood and dirt in which had been covered, made me notice a scar. One that I had never seen until now. It circled my entire wrist, in a snake-like way. Upon closer inspection, it looked like a bracelet. It was red, still extremely sensitive. I gently placed my finger on it, trying to remove the mark, but it felt as if someone had just stabbed my wrist. I gasped in pain and frowned. That was not normal.

I decided that it was wiser not to touch it again, and kept on bathing. When the water turned cold, I got out and wrapped a towel around my body. Making my way to my bed, I stopped dead in my tracks and stared out the window. My window's view was the training grounds, which were normally solitary around this time. It was almost midnight and there was someone training outside. I wouldn't be able to make out who it was if I didn't change. Changing into a pair of sweatpants and a long-sleeved shirt, I opened the window and tried to identify the person that was punching the hell out of that log. The log had a rope tied around it, so I didn't know what they expected would happen. It would be almost impossible for someone with average strength to make that bloody rope snap.

So, when I heard the sound of the rope snapping, my mouth opened in shock. That was instant respect. I remembered the amount of time and blood on my knuckles that it took for me to do that. If you can't be in awe of Mother Nature, there's something wrong with you. The person turned around and I was finally able to see his face. Levi, shirtless, sweating and breathing hard. That had been enough to turn me on. I needed a cold shower, yes. I closed the window quickly and pulled the drapes. Luckily, he hadn't been able to see me. I blushed profusely and giggled like a teenage girl. He was…so hot. I had almost drooled at the sight of his abdominals and the muscles on his back.

Picking myself up from the floor, where I ended up after seeing Levi, I smiled. My nervousness had made my legs weak and they finally failed me when I saw him. Meadow was asleep on top of my bed, breathing softly. The kitten slept a lot. Every time I entered my room, she was napping. Only when Levi was with me, she reacted and playfully waved her tail back and forth. It was not fair.

I laid down on the bed and sighed.


It had been over an hour and Levi was still training. I had been checking up on him through the window every few minutes. Yawning, I closed my eyes. During the week, before the mission, our friendship had developed. I trusted him more than anyone. His smile appeared on rare occasions, but when it did, I made sure to carve every detail into my mind. I didn't knew what would happen to me. The words the titan had said haunted me. The look on my comrade's face when he lost a leg haunted me. The scared look on Levi's face haunted me. Everything seemed to find a way to haunt the deepest parts of my mind. Torturing me. But knowing that Erwin, Levi and Hanji had faith in me, comforted me. They had my back. I fell asleep thinking of what the future held for us.

But, above all, I fell asleep thinking of Levi sweating and shirtless. After all, I was still a human being. And he had a god-like body.

Bless him and his perfect body.


"Destiny has two ways of crushing us – by refusing our wishes and by fulfilling them." – Henri Frederic Amiel


A/N: I apologize. I hope you enjoyed.