AUTHERS NOTE: hello guys, sorry for the late update. I have decided to update less but make the chapters longer. I have been writing this one for a while but I put of updating it so I could update it on the day Braking Dawn Part 2 comes out in the UK (Friday 16th of November) If anyone wants quicker updates but smaller chapters send me a PM or tell me in a review. And thank you and a shout out to Speedyraider for their review. And who else is watching Braking Dawn Part 2!I just got back from watching it. In fact I went to the cinema for a Twilight marathon it ended about 2.30 in the morning.
Now on with the story; I got over 2000 words for this chapter.
Chapter 7:
EPOV:
Then she started to rummage around in her bag until she pulled out a rather large leather wallet with a triumphant smile on her face. Then I realised what she said earlier "what do you mean by this would be a hard subject for me?" "Why don't you look" she said will handing me her wallet, I open it and gasped at what I saw...
There was pictures; lines of pictures, of Bella with two little babies. It shows them growing up, living as they should like any normal life, they aged and turning into the kids I imaged me and Bella having, a little Bella and a little me, they were perfect.
Simply perfect.
And they were mine.
My mate and my children the way it was meant to be. I was then saddened. How much of their life had I missed the most important parts that what I missed. I missed Bella giving birth to them, their first steps, there first words, weather they say mummy or daddy first. But I know for sermon they would both would had said mummy first because i wasn't there, they didn't have a daddy they just had me, a sole less monster. A monster that abandoned there mum, who abandoned them? WHAT HAVE I DONE!? I started to feel sick and a sharp burning pain go through me and settled in my throat and heart. Why did I leave her? Why did I leave them?
I looked back at the pictures shocked, the children in one picture it said at the bottom "aged 5", but I have been gone only for 5 years so how was that possible? I kept looking though the pictures, searching for answers, for anything but the little girl... My little girl disappeared from the pictures. There were still ones of her brother and belle but she was not in sight from the picture that said at the bottom "aged 5" there were others saying "aged 6" and "aged 7" but none of her. Why?
I looked up at Marry "where is my little girl? Why isn't she in the pictures anymore? And why does this say aged 7? They should not even be 5?" I asked getting more and more hysterical towards the end, almost shouting at her. "well..." marry said dragging it out to annoy me "no" she said "what?" I replied getting really angry standing up and staking towards her, she won't tell me.
SHE WILL TELL ME!
I though outraged, I will make her tell me! "That is not what I meant, I meant no, there meant to be older than 5. There age is meant to be approximately a year and a half times how long since there were born and it tells us there approximate physical age, mind you they should be teenagers by now but we was able to slow down how quickly they aged. But it was a slow procedure so there should have slowed their rapid aging by now making them physically about 6 or 7 but really 5. I will help them to not to age for about a year and a half and then I will help them age normally so they can be there real age. There mental age though is a whole different story."
I sat there stunned from what she rushed to say, can vampires get an information overload? If so I think I have got it. I sat there looking at the pictures in my hands, I could have missed allot of their life, I have missed so much of their life but I still had some time left. "Thank you for helping their aging getting back to normal, I still have time" but would they assept me as their dad. I asked Mary this and she giggled "oh you and Bella are simply are so much alike, so much self doubt of course they always wanted a father figure and Bella might not let you back into her arms so quickly" "why?" I asked. "You really hurt her Edward and even though you didn't know it at the time but you abandoned all of them and I know Bella would want nothing to welcome you back let you be the puzzle peace that will complete her soul mate she wouldn't put her children on the line for hurt. She will need evidence that you will always be there for her and your children"
And that is what I would do.
As I sat with Mary in the back of her car as 'D' drove the car I realised most of my questions did not get answered and I had many more. Like what was "D's" real name and what is Mary's real name and most important why my daughter wasn't in the pictures after "age 5"? So I decided to ask them "no there not our real names it depends were we are living and who knows us D just likes calling me angel because when we lived in Italy D was called by the locals D'Angelo - From the angel, and I was called Aletta - little angel. That was back when it was only me and him. Others soon joined by others of our kind some more surprising to see than others. I remember long time ago in England when D was called Daelan" she said reminiscing with a smile across her face "he mostly got D names so we call him D around people we don't know or trust then if he trusts you or feel conftertabal round you he will give you the name he has used for the last century or so or even his real name, same with me my real name isn't Mary, I actually don't know what my real name is or if I was ether given one" her voice started cracking, but even through that I could hear the longing in her voice. I then felt sympathetic towards her, how could she not know what her real name is, how could she not know who she is, even Alice who lost all her memory knew who she was. "How do you not know what your name is?" I asked curiosity burning within me. I don't know I grew up alone for a long time as long as I could remember it was just me. I then meat 2 others of my kind, and they became my first family they never gave me a name" I sat there then asked "where are they now? You said it was just you and D for years" "they left me, they were the first of many" was all he said as she stared out the window, sun glasses still in place. "So..." I started awkwardly after the last conversation "what happened to my daughter?" I then saw D look at Mary in the mirror and Mary reply by shaking her head no to whatever he was asking her. D then pulled onto the side of the road by a forest "I would get out the car if I was you Edward" then she opened her door and hobbled out. I got out and followed, as we walked well I walked Mary hobbled (I don't know why she didn't bring her crutches) I remembered when I last did this, when I was walking with Bella to our meadow then I thought about when I left her. I just left her a letter on her night stand; I remembered exactly what I wrote as I left her and unknown to me our children. I left the night of her birthday after her birthday party incident we went back to her house I was distracted and upset, and for a good reason. My brother and possibly my family were going to snack on Bella, kill her for the sweet blood pumping through her veins. And Bella tried to distract me and make me feel better through the night she reminded me that it didn't matter that it was just an acedent and unkown to her it was making me feel worse. I left thinking it was best for her, all I was thinking was if she was with a human she could be safe, never in fear of getting a paper cut by her boyfriend and his family. I then kissed her and were we would usually stop, were ever me more Balla would pull away we didn't, the kiss got more heated and I could feel the fire burn within me a fire to make her mine and only mine and that's what I did. After woods I was so ashamed I couldn't face her and then say I didn't want her. After what we did I never wanted to let her go but I thought it was for the best. And like always when it involves Bella I was wrong, I ended up leaving her and my son and daughter defenceless, so defenceless they had to trust themselves in a complete stranger to protect them were I should of. I remember righting the letter and placing it on her bed side table, then I laid next to her as she slept taking in everything, putting it all to memory, the shape of the face, her nose and her body. The unique colour of her hair, and most presose of all, her heart beat. I laid next to her until the sun started to rise and Bella staring the stir, I heard her say in her sleep "Edward I love you" one last time realising that was all I needed to hear before I left I wanted that to be my last memory of her. Her smiling in her sleep wile professing her love for me. She smiled and snuggled into the pillow that I placed were I was, she then inhaled, properly smelling me on the pillow, with that picture berried into my memory I took that one last look at her as I whispered "I love you to Bella and, I... I am sorry". I was shocked out of my thoughts when I bumped into Mary were she had stopped suddenly in front of me. Images starts flashing in front of me, blurs as if someone was running high speed (even faster than me) and I couldn't catch up with what I was seeing. When I staggered away from Mary on the rebound from the collide the images stopped. I grab onto Marys arm to turn her to face me when I was saluted by other visions, the blurring occurred agene but then it suddenly stopped on a young man stumberling down a street then the blurring happened agene and suddenly I was focused on Mary, I was looking over someone's shoulder, but as I stared at her I realised she looked different. I don't know how but she looked different. She was wearing all black and was nearing in front of someone, all I could tell was there was a mail I could see the look of pure terror on her face. Suddenly the man brings is arm back and hits her across the face. I watched helplessly as she got flung across the floor by this un-known man. She landed by an old stone wall, she was begging for him to let the others go. But who was the others? Then another image of Mary. She was lying alone in a house on fire then blurred into a image of a little laying alone in a forest and then one where there is another little girl in a ally. All of them were lying in the same way in the same place in the image. All of them blurred into one as they all spoke at once saying "And she dies as she lived, she dies alone. She dies unloved"The image blurred agene and I was the centre of it, I was holding someone up by the neck you could hear them chocking but I couldn't focus on what I was saying, all I could get from it was "you killed my daughter, why ... you" it was obviously a fret towards whoever I was strangling, but all I could see was a blur were the body should be. Wait! What! THEY KILLED MY DAUGHTER! WHO KILLED MY DAUTER!
In a blur of movements and sounds I was brought out the vision and onto the forest ground, sprawled on my back I herd a muffled sob as I looked up into the anger eyes of D. Crap.