Hi everyone! First of all I want to thank you for your wonderful reviews.
Some of you thought that I was going too fast so I slowed down Dimitri's and Rose's relationship.
And, sadly, I don't own Vampire Academy!
Shadow Kissed
I didn't speak privately with Dimitri after what happened. I wanted desperately to see him, but I knew that I shouldn't. I couldn't risk being alone with him because I didn't know if I could control myself.
It's been a week since our hot moment and we were back at the academy. I was feeling worse and worse as the days went on. I could feel the darkness inside me, but I never said anything.
Now, I was at the cafeteria with Lissa, Christian, and Adrian. Lissa and Christian were something like a couple, even though they would never tell us. Christian didn't speak to me after he saw me with Dimitri. He was avoiding me, and I left him alone. Since he didn't say anything, I was fine.
"What is happening to you, little girl?" Adrian said, "I'm losing you. Your aura is really dark. You have black and gray colors. And lots of yellow"
I gave him a dark look. "Shut up" I said calmly. "I mean it"
"Okay" he said. "I'll shut up"
"Yeah, Rose has lots of secrets lately" Christian said. "I don't know where my favorite sister have gone"
"Just leave me alone," I said really tired. "I don't have the energy to fight with you"
Christian was about to say something, but Adrian stopped him. "Stop it" he said. "She feels like shit. I can see it"
At that moment, a Moroi girl with the name Mia came to us and smiled. She was a year younger than me, but she looked like a twelve-year-old girl with blond hair.
"Hi, do you remember me?" she asked to sweet.
"Yes" I said. "You are Mia, right?"
"Yeah" she said still standing beside my chair. "So, I wanted to invite you to our party"
"Really?" I asked. "When is it?"
"It's tonight," she said. "Right after the lessons."
"I don't know…" I said, torn "Dimitri wouldn't approve of that"
"Belikov?" she asked shocked. "Why do you even care? He is just a dhampir"
"What do you mean?" I asked a little angry.
"Why do you care about a dhampir's opinion?" she asked confused. "Dhampirs are useful only to protect us. They can't have an opinion to anything"
The way she told it, it was as if she thought Dimitri and the other dhampirs were idiots.
"Go away" I said. "Now"
"What?" she asked socked.
"I said go away" I screamed.
I was ready to punch her but Adrian cached my hand. "Go away Mia" he said and then looked at me. "What happened to you? I can't even recognize you anymore!"
"I am fine," I said, standing up, "I'm going for a walk. And I don't need any company"
As I was walking out of the cafeteria, a tear escaped from my eye. I couldn't believe it. I was becoming an Emo girl. Shit, I didn't want this. I used to be a happy girl. I used to laugh. Laughter... I forgot what even that was.
I went out past the school and into the woods. I needed to be alone, and I knew that nobody was going to come out here. So, I sat down, not even caring about my skinny jeans, and I sat there, thinking, until I heard someone approaching.
"Hathaway!" a boy shouted. "Do you remember me? I'm Jesse. We made out at the library"
I looked at him and I saw that he was with another Moroi boy. They seemed really weird today.
"Are you drunk?' I asked, though I knew they were, they smelled like alcohol.
"No, sweetheart" he said. "I just wanted to show my friend your powers"
"What do you mean?" I asked scared.
"You know," he said. "The whole spirit and fire thing?"
"I don't understand," I said.
"Oh, come on!" he said, "I know your little secret. I have a cut on my arm, and your gonna heal it"
"Go away!" I shouted trying not to sound too scared.
"No, little Princess" he said. "We can always make you do it"
"What..."
I didn't finish my question. Suddenly I felt a pressure. It was hurting so much that I thought I would explode. What was it? I couldn't breathe. I couldn't find the air to breathe. How did they do that?
"Do it, Hathaway!" Jesse screamed. "Heal me or I will torture you even more!"
Now, tears were running down my cheeks and I screamed. I felt the darkest feeling I ever had, and suddenly I was furious. The pain didn't stop, but I didn't care anymore. He wanted magic? Well, I would give him some.
I opened my mind and let the magic run through my veins. I thought of spiders, and suddenly the pain stopped. Jesse screamed in agony and started fighting something.
I laughed. I knew what he was seeing. I used the spirit to make him see that spiders were attacking him. As I was seeing this asshole screaming, I felt content. I was satisfied.
"Hooy na ny" I heard someone saying. I recognized the voice indtantly. I could always recognize him. Though, this was the first time I actually had ever heard him speaking Russian.
"Roza, stop!" he said.
"No, Dimitri, he deserves it!" I screamed.
"Roza, please, stop!" he begged.
His agony made me want to stop. Suddenly, I knew that this was wrong but I couldn't let go of the magic. I was trapped in a box with it, and I couldn't escape.
"Give it to me" he said. "Give the magic to me"
At first I didn't know what to do. How would I give him the magic? So, I did the only thing I could. I focused on him. Every thought was on him now and I tried to let the magic go. I didn't understand how it happened but I felt the darkness disappear.
I closed my eyes and gasped for air. I was so tired. I have never used the spirit like this. It was scary. It scared me more than any Strigoi ever would.
"Are you okay?" I heard Dimitri asking.
At first, I thought that he was asking me, but then I saw that he was looking at Jesse. He didn't even look at me. I don't know why, but I was so hurt by this.
"I suggest you to go to your room," he said and Jesse stood up.
"You'll pay for this, Hathaway!" he shouted, and he and his friend were gone.
Now I was all alone with Dimitri. It was the first time since... I couldn't even think about it. If I did, he would feel it through our bound.
"What was that Rose?" he asked angrily. "What is the matter with you"?
"You know what is wrong with me," I said. "I told you so many times, I'm going crazy"
"No, I won't let you" he said, it was the same thing he said to me at the hotel room.
"How?" I asked letting out all the anger I had. "How will you do that? I'm feeling more and more alone every day. I feel empty. The things that used to make me happy don't matter anymore. I'm losing it Dimitri!"
"Stop it!" he said really angry. "You can't talk about yourself like that. I believe in you Roza. I know you."
"How the hell do you know me?" I shouted. "You've known me about a month or so. How the hell do you think you know who I really am?"
"I don't know," he said. "It's like I've known you forever. We are so alike in so many ways. You are fighting to keep control and I'm fighting for my control too"
I was speechless. Did he really just say those things?
"I hate seeing you like this, Rose," he said. "Please, let me help you. I'm the only one who can"
"How do you know that, Dimitri?" I asked.
"Because I'm shadow kissed," he said.
"What the heck is that?" I asked confused.
"At the car accident, I technically died," he said. "I was dead, and you brought me back. You brought me back from the dead. That's why we are bound together"
"How do you know that?" I asked shocked.
"I did a little research with Adrian," he said. "We found out that it happened to St. Vladimir and his guardian, Anna. Only spirit users can bring a dead person back to life"
"Okay…" I said. I didn't think of this that much. I would think about it later, when I had the time.
"The fact that we can't be together doesn't mean that I don't care about you," he said. "I still worry about you. I need you to be happy"
"Be happy?" I asked. "I don't know if I can be happy anymore"
"You'll find a way," he said. "Now let's go inside, you must be freezing!"
"Hooy na ny" means "No fucking way". I know it's a little weird for Dimitri to talk like that but remember, he is only 24.
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