Lena woke up, and reached to wrap her arm around Callie. She felt an empty bed next to her, she sat up quickly looking around.

"Stef, wake up."

"What babe?"

"Where is Callie?"

"I don't know." Stef said looking around the room confused.

"Well let's go find her."

They checked all of the rooms, looking for Callie, and checking on the other kids. They went downstairs, Callie was sitting at the kitchen table with a glass of water in her hands.

"Callie, love, why are you up so early?"

"I didn't want to sleep, I just needed some water."

Lena and Stef sat down next to Callie. "Will you talk to us about what happened last night?"

"It's not important."

"Yes baby it's important, what exactly was your nightmare about last night?"

"I don't want you guys to leave me, I don't want to be sent away."

"Callie, love, we told you we are not going to send you away."

"But maybe after today, after my test, then maybe you will change your mind and decide to get rid of me."

"Baby, we love you, you are our daughter. No matter what, we love you. DNA doesn't make a family love does."

"I had a family tell me they were going to keep me, I let my guard down, I got close to them, and I started to trust them. But then they had a baby and they decided they didn't want Jude and me. So, just like that they kicked us out. After all I went through to let them in, they destroyed the trust that had taken so long for me to have."

"I promise you, we are not like any other family you have ever had, you can trust us, and you can get close with us. You can love us, because we love you and nothing changes that. You have a very special place in our hearts, we would feel empty without you in this house."

"Can I take a shower?"

"yeah baby, go ahead."

"I don't think we should let her take that sleeping pill any more, she was having a pretty bad nightmare, and I felt so helpless not being able to wake her up."

"I will call the doctor about it later; I think it's too strong."

After getting ready Callie sat outside playing her guitar, trying to pass time. Music always calmed her down, and made her anxiety a little better. She started strumming the guitar and singing, softly.

You may think I'm just fine

How could anything ever be out of line?

I take my time to set the stage

Make sure everything is all in place

Even though I've got the lines rehearsed

A picture only paints a thousand words

Things aren't always what they seem

You're only seeing part of me

There's more than you could ever know

Behind the scenes

I'm incomplete and I'm undone

But I suppose like everyone

There's so much more that's going on

Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can't see anything

Through the dark surrounding me

And at times I'm unsure about the ground

Beneath my feet, if it's safe and sound

When it's hard to find hope in the unseen

I have peace in knowing it will find me, yeah

Things aren't always what they seem

You're only seeing part of me

There's more than you could ever know

Behind the scenes

I'm incomplete and I'm undone

But I suppose like everyone

There's so much more that's going on

Behind the scenes

Things aren't always what they seem

You're only seeing part of me

There's more than you could ever know

Behind the scenes

I'm incomplete and I'm undone

But I suppose like everyone

There's so much more that's going on

Behind the scenes

You may think I'm just fine

How could anything ever be out of line?

"That was beautiful baby." Callie looked up to see Stef standing next to her, she hadn't realized she had an audience.

"Umm… Thanks."

"It's time to go kiddo."

"Ok, Callie, you can change into this gown now."

"Well this is fashionable."

"You sound like Mariana now, it's only for a few minutes Cal, and then you can take it off."

"Ugh, fine."

The doctor walked back in the room, a few minutes later. "Ok Callie, I'm going to have you lay down on the table and,"

"I know what to do, you don't have to remind me."

"Would you like me to explain what's going on as I go?"

"No, please don't tell me."

Stef and Lena sat on either side of Callie, holding her hands. The doctor fixed Callie's gown into the right position.

"Mama!"

"Shh.. Hey it's ok."

"Please don't make me do this!"

"Bug, you need to baby."

"Mommy, please don't let them do this…"

"I won't let them hurt you love, it's ok try to relax."

They were sure Callie was going to break down, and have a full blown panic attack, but instead she stared at the ceiling not moving, almost in a comatose state. But as soon as she felt the speculum, she jerked trying to get away.

"No, Liam. No, please stop."

Stef held Callie's face and her hand, using her free hand to hold her arms down. She continued moving around, trying to get away. Lena held her leg loosely, so she would move and injure herself.

"Baby, look at me. Callie girl, you're safe."

"Mom, make him stop!"

"Baby, it's not Liam. He's not here your safe baby."

"No, make him stop. Help me mommy!"

Stef's heart broke for her little girl, she knew she couldn't really help her or make Liam go away because he wasn't actually there. So she just held her in her arms, whispering in her ear, until they were done.

"Where done Callie. You can get dressed and we will be back to discuss your results."

"I want to go home."

"We will baby, let's get you dressed."

"Lena, I'm going to be sick."

Lena grabbed the trash can sitting next to them, and placed it under Callie's mouth, rubbing her back soothingly. "It's ok sweetheart, where going home."

"The tests are negative for Endometriosis; she is perfectly healthy in this department."

Stef and Lena helped Callie get dressed. She had calmed down a little, but was still shaking.

Callie didn't say a word, when they got home she went and lay down on the couch.

"You know what I think Callie girl needs?" Stef said walking into the living room with Lena

"Mama cuddles?"

"Of course" They snuggled up on the couch with Callie, sitting in silence until Callie spoke up.

"I'm sorry I freaked out so bad."

"It's not your fault sweets."

"Yes, it is."

"It's a normal reaction, a lot of people who have had traumatic experiences have panic attacks."

"It makes me feel like a freak."

"Well it shouldn't. Lots of people have anxiety disorders, and panic attacks. It's nothing to be embarrassed about; it's not in your control. It doesn't change you, you're still the amazing girl I knew yesterday. You have just had to go through a lot of things that some people don't. It's not your fault sweetie, you didn't choose this, you didn't ask for this life."

"I don't know anyone who has had a panic attack."

"Mariana used to have them when she first came here, because just like you, she had been through traumatic experiences."

"Wait, she used to have them? It's not something that lasts forever?"

"I don't know love, it's different for everyone. It's a long term illness, but you can learn how to control it, it will take a lot of hard work at therapy, but over time your panic attacks could happen less and less."

"I hate them, they make me feel so bad, and it hurts my chest."

"I know kiddo, we will work extra hard in therapy to help you with them."

"So I don't have Endometriosis?"

"Well your one test came back negative, we still have to wait for the ultrasound result to be positive."

"I don't think I have it."

"And why is that?"

"Because nothing is ever that easy for me, I don't just have two tests and get answers. It just doesn't work that way with me."

"I promise you, we are going to get answers, one way or another."

"It's so hard, not knowing what is going on inside your body."

"Yeah, it is kind of scary. So is the pain, vomiting, and nausea, the only symptoms you have?"

"Well, this morning I had a little heartburn, but I don't think it' related or anything. And sometimes I just get achy all over."

"Ok, well that might be something we should tell the doctor."

Right before dinner Lena got a call from the doctor.

"Hello?"

"Yes, is this Ms. Lena, Adams-Foster?"

"Yes, this is she."

"We got Callie results, sooner than expected, and we have some good news. There is no evidence of Endometriosis."

"Ok, thank you, have a nice night."

She decided to tell Stef when the kids went to bed, and tell Callie in the morning. It was great news that she didn't have the horribly painful disease, but now they were stuck, and didn't know what was going on with their baby.

The rest of the night was spent with Mama cuddles, school work, and movies.

They decided to have a family movie night, after the movie they decided they would all just sleep in the living room since the kids had all fallen asleep.


Name of song: Behind the Scenes by Francesca Battistelli. Within the next few chapters, Callie should have a diagnosis.