A/N: Sorry it took longer than it should have for me to update. Family emergency came up last week.
Disclaimer: I own nothing other than Addy and Liz.
Previously:
My father on the other hand, is fair headed and just. He will not compare his children with each other and knows not to treat one with higher standards than the other, to him his all of his children are equals to each other and he proceeds to treat us as such.
"Well, are you going to answer the question or not?" Lily asked impatiently.
I looked her in the eye and said, "It was not my intention to be the 'bitch' as you put it. I needed space to think about how I was going to talk to you again. And to be honest, I'm not sure if I should forgive you at least not right away. You really hurt me Lily you might not think so but you did. Dont' you think that protecting your youngest sister is worth your time? Or that I am even worth your time? You have let mom's favoritism go so far up your ass that you think yourself better than others! You have neglected me, you have let the Marauders' way of thinking get to you, and what I have come to realize is that you don't care about anyone but yourself. You just don't care! And what this is causing is for you to turn into the very thing you swore you'd never be, a bully," I said holding back the tears that were threatening to fall.
Lily stood there speechless (for once).
I pushed my way out of the classroom and continued my trek up to the library.
As soon as I was behind the door I closed it and leaned back against it. What was I going to do? Lily may hate me now that I have voiced my real feelings of her, my mother may never look at me again for upsetting her 'Golden Child' and the Marauders may never leave Severus and Remus alone again. Who could've known that Griffyndors could be so cruel to others outside their house as well as someone from their own house? I guess that's what happens when you go against the Marauders. I took a deep breath and looked over the tables to see if Severus and Remus were there. A hand waving in the air caught my attention. Tonks? What was she doing here?
Tonks seems to be allergic to the library, I don't know how but I think it may involve her being lazy, not to mention clumzy. And now she has dared to come here? Oh...Remus is an avid reader no wonder she's here. Wherever Remus goes she goes and the same can be said for Tonks.
I laughed quietly and walked to the table.
"Hey there you are, where have you been?" Liz asked as I sat down on the empty seat between her and Severus.
I looked up and saw them look at me expectantly. I sighed and answered, "I was dragged into an empty classroom by Lily and her guard dogs."
Their looks of shock and anger would have been worth millions.
Questions came at me from all sides, "What did she want? Did they hurt you? Did they..."
"Shhhh! Keep your voices down we don't want Madame Pince to go all haywire on us for speaking loudly in the library," Remus said, "Let Addy tell us what they wanted and then we can ask our questions one at a time!"
"Thank you Remus. Well, I was on my way here when I felt someone pull me into an empty and seemingly abandoned classroom. When my eyes got used to the dark in the room I noticed that Lily was there with Sirius and James at either side. She demanded to know why I was being a "bitch" to her and to stop playing whatever game I was or am playing with her," I said heaving another sigh.
"Game? How are you playing a game with her?" Liz asked scooting closer to me.
"I think by game she means the avoidance and the distance you have placed between her and you," Severus said quietly.
I nodded in agreement and went to grab his hand only to have him pull away.
I looked around and in the best leveled voice I could muster said, "Let's not worry about Lily at the moment. We have a lot of work to catch up on before the exams next week."
Everyone nodded in agreement and set to work. They were so deep in their own mind and work to notice that Severus had stood up and left.
Questions like, 'Did I do something wrong?' or 'Was he falling back into his obsession for Lily?' and 'Am I not what he said I am to him?' Are running through my mind's eye at the moment.
Next week Yule break will start, it was my hope that Severus would be going home too apparently I was wrong.
Yule break started yesterday.
The trip back to King's Cross Station was quiet and tension filled, Lily forced me to sit with her. And I still don't understand what she is trying to get out of me! Is she waiting for me to apologize for what I said in the abandoned classroom last week? Is she trying to make amends? Wait! Or is she trying to turn mother against me!? To be honest, whether or not she was trying that was of no surprise to me due to the fact that Lily already has mother rapped and tied (tightly) around her drive home was a tensional one mother couldn't look at me, dad gave me that warmest hug anyone could ever ask for (especially when you have been alienated by your own mother) and Tuney...well Tuney was being her jealous self. Dad insisted that he would sit in the back. Lily didn't seem fazed by this and gladly sat in the passenger seat. Dad tried to get at least a pleasant conversation going between all of us, that got bithchy retorts from Lily on how I'm not being a "good" sister (mother's nod to second that), and Tuney humphed turning to look out the window. Dad gave up but whispered to me that he would be sitting down with me and have a chat about what happened in Hogwarts that has Lily so angry.
To top everything else off, I have yet to see hair or hide of Severus Snape.
Now I am sitting in my room, alone, staring out the window and the blanket of white that lay atop the backyard of my house. Tonks and Liz promised that they would come and stay a week before school started again, that way they have time to meet my parents and get acquainted with the muggle world.
There was a knock outside my door.
"Come in," is my quiet reply, Merlin forbid it was either Lily or mother.
"Hey my little kitten," my dad said as he walked in and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Hi," I said then going back to look out the window.
"Alright, I know you well enough to know when you are not feeling alright. Now, I won't force you to talk about it but if you do need to let it out just come to me you know I'm always here for you when you need me," Dad said with a kind and knowing smile.
Before he left the room I jump off of the window seat and wrapped my arms around his middle. The truth is that I do want to talk, just not here where the walls have hears and the doors have eyes.
"Oh kitten, I know it's been hard for you especially since Lily is so competitive...But I think that you putting some space between the two of you was a brave move for you and a good one in my opinion. Because that way you set your own print on the world, now all will know that Addyson Evans is a right trooper and is a fighter," dad said as he pulled me in for a one-armed hug.
I looked up at him and nodded in understanding. He is right, the line set between Lily and I is something that can help me develop my independence from her more.
"Now, how about we try and sneak past your mother and sister and get us some ice cream?" he seemed as eager to be out the house as I did at the moment.
I nodded eagerly and went to change my shirt.
After changing I tip toed my way down the stairs in an effort to not get anyone's attention. I kept my guard up and my mind running in case I needed to tell a solid though on the spot. I am used to lying to my mom about most of the stuff I do just so she can't send Lily to spy on me and get me into trouble for no particular reason at all. And that's my mom being herself...not to mention Lily is taking after her.
I was relieved to her Lily and mom both working in the kitchen.
I went and stood outside waiting for dad. I knew we had to take our bicycles in order to make a clean getaway so I sat on the step being careful to avoid the door and the surrounding windows. As I was waiting, I noticed Severus coming up the sidewalk towards my house.
He was probably going to ask if Lily was here.
"Hey," he said as he sat down next to me.
"I thought you were staying at Hogwarts this Yule," I said without returning his greeting.
"What?" he asked with a confusion marring his features.
"I said that I thought you were staying at Hogwarts this Christmas," I said my tone getting colder with each passing minute.
"What are you talking about?" He asked more than just a little confused.
"I'm talking about the week before Yule started. You stormed out of the library after I put my hand on yours," I said feeling the tears gathering.
His brow furrowed and his lips pursed, "I had something to do," he answered as he stared at the snow clad walkway.
"Is it me?" I asked quietly.
A/N: I Know that it's not what you guys are asking for but please bear with me a little bit longer.
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