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I have always hated Mondays and Coach Sylvester doesn't make them any better; we have intense Cheerios practice at six o' clock in the morning. This Monday is worse because it interrupts the best weekend I have had in years. After the drama that occurred in the early afternoon on Saturday Marley and I had so much fun. And no we didn't just make out all day (just putting your guys' dirty minds at ease) we actually just hung out like best friends and we were company for each other.

We are alike in that way because we never had a lot of friends in our childhood and we were both not used to having someone to spend our weekends with. Of course it wasn't like normal friends hanging out because a few stolen kisses led to make out sessions throughout the afternoon. I walked her home so she could get showered and changed and then we decided it would be best to stay in my house because it is a lot bigger and there is no one to interrupt us.

Cheerios practice is easy enough for a Cheerios practice lead by Coach Sylvester but I have been working really hard to try and get in her good books. I need Cheerios or else I am just one of those Glee losers. The benefit of having the two extracurricular programmes is that I can find out about the two different parts of the school. In the Cheerios locker room I can find out all the latest gossip about the losers and from all the Glee kids I can talk about all the bitchy cheer leaders without them finding out. Most importantly I know how both sides view me.

Today in the locker room everyone is talking about the footballer's party on Friday. Apparently one of the senior boys broke his arm after falling down the stairs because he was drunk, what an idiot; my dad would kill me if he knew I went to parties like that. Of course I don't get invited because I am so much of a bitch. Some of the girls that have lockers beside me are talking about a secret scandal that one of the girls slept with Chloe's boyfriend. I inwardly laugh because I know all hell will break loose if she finds out. She would be a bigger bitch than me sometimes if that was possible.

"So Kitty what did you do this weekend? I didn't see you at the party." A decent junior cheerleader called Rebecca asked me because she was already ready for school. I was about to say that I hung out with Marley but then I realised that would make me sound like such a loser.

"Oh well my dad never allows me to go to parties when he is out of town. I would have snuck out but he sent the maid to watch me all weekend. He is so boring but I guess I have to stick with him for another two years." I smile too sweetly at the end so she gets that I really don't want to talk to her. Even though she is nice I would never be known to be nice back to just anyone.

"Aww that sounds shit; well I have to go get my books from my car, bye!" Thank God that she caught on because my fake smile is hurting my cheeks. I turn my attention back to the conversations going on around the locker rooms. One conversation catches my attention; one of the other girls is talking about how Jake took her out on Saturday because 'Dead Dog' left him after going out on Friday.

"I can't believe he actually went out with her!"

"I know right! I bet that she was just in it for free food. Her mother probably eats all the food in her neighbourhood so she is left to her own resources." The other laugh at this but I just sit and scowl.

"Did you see what she was wearing on Friday? She looked like someone dragged her clothes through the cafeteria's dumpster. That is probably were her mom found it anyway." I laugh because the insults are not even that good; could they not come up with anything better? Are they that stupid or something? It couldn't be that hard to put words together to make an insulting comment. It is when it comes to Marley; she is perfect. Not in these guys eyes anyway.

Thinking about all these girls' reactions I know that I have to focus a lot more on Cheerios if I want to come across like a leader to them. A head cheerleader does not hang around with the enemy especially not date them. I don't even know what Marley and I are; we are more than friends but we haven't talked about it. I know that we cannot be anything more than at most secret friends because if I was found out I would never get enough respect to be Head Cheerio. But I can't just leave Marley thinking that we are friends because I would have to talk to her in school; that won't happen.

Maybe that is the answer; just don't talk to her and I will avoid any confrontation with her in school. If I just avoid her until Glee after school today then I can keep up my reputation and not hurt her feelings. When did coming to school on a Monday morning get so complicated and messed up? I don't think I have a lot of classes with her so my plan could work. No scratch that, it will work; a plan will never fail if it is planned by a Wilde. We never lose focus because we are so driven Kitty. If you fail then you are worth nothing to me; you must earn your respect by always succeeding in life.

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The plan seems to have worked pretty well thanks to a busy schedule on a Monday. I would normally be so unenthusiastic on a Monday but today I can't let myself lose focus. If I allow myself to talk to Marley then it could all explode here in school and my reputation would be torn to shreds. Even if I talked to her I would have to turn her down and humiliate her; I would do that to anyone else but I couldn't do it to Marley. I would become an even bigger bitch in the school (if that is possible) and I would never be liked enough to have actual friends.

I walked past her in the halls once all day and I nearly let my walls down there and then with just one confused look from her. I was quickly reminded where we were though when a red Slushee was thrown all over her. I giggled at the look on her face because it was priceless but then went back to my bitchy expression once she opened her eyes again. I wanted to help her but then I would have to leave all the cheerleaders and go follow her; doesn't look suspicious or anything. I didn't come across her again until the final bell sounded it was time for Glee Club.

I walked into Glee a few minutes late with my head held away because none of these guys think I am any different from the bitch I portray. Finn still hadn't arrived so I just sat down in the back row away from most people. Sam was the only person in the same row as me because he was in a conversation with Jake and Ryder but there were no seats beside them. I didn't mind him sitting near me; he is a good guy except for all the impressions. After a few moments Finn walked in everyone actually turned to listen to what he was going to say. Sectionals are in a week and we are not ready.

Everyone argues over what we are doing and people are saying that the duets are too cliché and we need something different. That is the New Directions edge and I am behind anything that stops me from singing in front of everyone with Marley; I don't think I could trust myself. Marley is weirdly quiet during one of these discussions; she would normally put in a lot of ideas, really good ones at that. Finn just looks overwhelmed and confused; Coach Sylvester was right about him. Blaine tries to tell him that a solo performance and a big group performance will win over the judges but Finn just seems in his own world.

After a while he comes back to earth and tells everyone to be quiet for a minute. He wants everyone to leave early so that he can spend some time thinking about it and he will tell us what he has planned tomorrow. I am glad because this lesson was just confusing and I had no participation it at all. I just want to perform and be on stage; and of course try and destroy the club because Coach Sylvester told me so. I think Finn is doing a pretty good job himself so I can just sit in the back listening to them arguing.

I turn to walk out the door and I catch a hurt look on Marley's face and I leave quickly because I can't stand to see her like this. I will text her later because I can't do it to her face. I know I am such a weakling but I don't want to hurt her but it has to be this way. Last weekend never happened and will never happen again if anyone ever asks; my dad would kill me if I brought shame on the family name. I run out the door and into the nearest bathroom to try and escape her.

The bathroom is empty because we are like the only ones left in school except for some teachers. I stand up against the sinks and try to recollect myself. I can't go back out there for a while but I can't let myself break down in a school bathroom; that is just too degrading. If anyone ever found out about it I would be over; stuff like that only ever happens when I am alone in the house and the door to my room is locked. It never gets out because people might have a fit if they knew that Kitty had feelings. I am a bitch and always will be to everyone else.

I sit down on the ground because I can feel my knees about to give in under all the pressure that comes with my life. One day I am just going to collapse because I have so much going on and everyone is going to find out what I really am. I am just a scared girl who wants to make it through High school as unharmed as possible. It seems like that is out of the window because enough has happened in just three months at McKinley. The door slams open and I jump up from the floor in shock; either someone really has to go or someone is looking for me.

It is confirmed as the latter as a somewhat angry looking Marley stands in the doorway. I almost shrink back down to the ground because she looks so intimidating; the height difference doesn't help at all but that is more my fault.

"Why did you run from me in Glee? Never mind Glee, how about the whole day? I never heard one word from you since you left me at my house on Saturday night. You wouldn't enlighten me as to why?" Okay she doesn't seem pleased at all; and I am stuck in a corner of bathrooms, that helps.

"I-I don't know what you are talking about Marley." I try to sound as fierce and confident as possible but she always gets to me.

"I know you do Kitty; you have that look on your face. What happened to us sticking together?" Damn she knows when you are lying; she is good. Maybe she paid as much to you as you did her, if that was possible. This is so not the time.

"I wasn't lying to you but could we just not be so public about our friendship. I mean the girls on the Cheerios would probably leave me altogether. You should have heard what they were saying about you and your mom in the locker rooms; it wasn't nice in any way." I try and emphasise that point rather than the part where I tell her we can't be friends, never mind anything more.

"But they are just mean bitches; you are so much more than that Kitty. I would know; the person I spent all Saturday with was the real Kitty not this girl standing in front of me. She isn't the girl that stole my heart from me." I really want to say that she is right but I can't. She is a girl and this thing between us shouldn't be happening yet I still let it. I am just being stupid; we live in Lima, Ohio we shouldn't be friends because we are from two different parts of town.

"Well you gotta face the facts Marley that we can't be friends in this town so anything more is just a dream. I am sorry that you feel this way but you better get over it because we have to move on a pretend this weekend never happened because it didn't. This is the real Kitty so you better get used to it; the girl you were with on Saturday doesn't exist; they never did."

Hello I am right here. You are such a lying bitch; you love her and you know it. Love may be hard but it is worth it for that special someone; in this case they are standing right in front of you. I don't care about love; I need to succeed in life to make my parents proud, especially my mother. I don't need someone else in my life to make it better; I am used to being alone, it doesn't bother me anymore.

"But I don't want to Kitty; we don't have to! What we have is real and you can't deny it; it isn't just some dream. You can't make up things like this and I definitely can't forget about it all. You don't need to think like this Kitty; you don't have to go through it alone, we will stick together. I am just as scared as you because I never knew I could talk to a girl like you, never mind make out with one." She sighs and it is like she has been debating whether or not to tell me all this over the weekend; I guess it is too late now.

"What I am trying to say Kitty is that, you are not the only one terrified of the people outside of the little world we created. I know how cruel people can be and the slushee stain on this shirt is evidence. We can't just write whatever we have off because we don't even know what it is. I know that if you didn't like me like that then you would never have kissed me on Saturday morning; you would have just acted normally and got on with life. You didn't do that Kitty so what am I supposed to believe?"

"But I have nothing to fall back on; no one cares about the high school bitch. You are the only one that actually called me in the last two weeks; you had plans on Friday night, and I sat in the house alone watching musicals. I have nothing but my reputation Marley; that is why it means so much to me." I half shout the last bit because she just won't believe me; this is all for the best.

"You have your family Kitty; they have to love you no matter what. And most importantly you will always have me; even if you don't want me I will be there just in case. I don't care about everyone else when I get to see the real you." She takes a step closer to me but I step back and press against the sinks.

"I don't have a family Marley! My mom is dead; has been for six years. My dad is nonexistent since her death and I only ever see his money. And if he was there for me he would disown me anyway because he is a devout Christian. It would benefit him anyway because then he wouldn't have to pretend to love me anymore." I can't take it anymore; I just confessed my biggest secrets to Marley and I haven't one ounce of strength left in me. Today has been such a struggle and now I just want to go home and cry myself to sleep before Cheerio practice tomorrow. I haven't enough strength to sob; it is just tears streaming down my face. I could never let myself think about any of this but now Marley has opened me up and let it all drain out.

Speaking of Marley she hasn't spoken in about two minutes; I wouldn't be surprised if she left because she saw the real me. I am not the happy girl that comes out when it is only me and her that she likes; I am a broken little girl who has nothing left to fall back on. Marley has a loving mother and they have the best relationship; I have my dad's credit card and a big empty house. I hear a small sob coming from above me but I can't look up because I probably look like a mess; so much for not crying on the bathroom floor. Slender arms find their way around my front and back and I am being held tightly.

"Sshh...Don't cry Kitty; it is okay. I am here for you; I will never leave you. Even if your dad did through you out I will always be a shoulder to cry on. I never knew that you had been through so much; I would never have said anything like that if I had known."

"I-I know you wouldn't have; y-you are too nice to offend anyone purposefully. I have never told anyone so thank you for being here. I am sorry." I whisper out but I know she can hear me because she is holding me so tightly. I think that if someone walked in now I would be dead but I don't really care in this moment.

"Why are you apologising Kitty? It is good to let things out." She wipes a few of my tears away while trying to lift my head yup to look at her, but I can't.

"I don't want you to have my stuff to carry along; that isn't fair. And for all the stuff I said before; I didn't mean it personally. I am just scared and confused about almost everything; there are only two things I know for sure." I apologise because I am sorry; I just wanted to take the easy the way out but I can't anymore. I have everything to lose now so I can't give up on this.

"But that is what I want to do Kitty; I have never felt like this with anyone. And I knew you were lying. I am confused about a lot of things as well but I know that we could work this out together." She takes my hands and wipes the last tears from my face.

"Well I know that now; I always believed in you but I never thought I was strong enough. I also know that you are the best person to come to when I want a friend but I also want to do this." I kiss her lightly on the lips because I need some kind of reassurance. I know the bathroom floor isn't the most romantic place but Marley makes anywhere seem perfect. "I could have gone to Brittany because she would be all for it but I know she has dance lessons on a Monday." She laughs at me and reattaches our lips; I smile into it because I finally feel happy and more importantly safe with Marley.

"Firstly before this gets any better, you have to promise that you will never tell anyone what I told you about my family; I don't like to talk about it. And you have to promise that you won't leave me even when I am being a bitch; it may be a lot to ask but I am sure you are the one to live up to it." I look up at her and smile properly this time. Her blue eyes have tears in them but it only enhances their power over me.

"I promise Kitty; Scout's honour." She smiles at me and holds up her hand.

"Scout's honour." I hold up my hand in a similar way but soon interlock our hands and lean forward to kiss her deeply on the lips. It may not be normal for others but it is perfect for me. Awwww!

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