Chapter 8
~Shae's POV~
"Somehow I don't see anyone but the Rabbit letting you be top," Tommy said.
"Well, honestly, I really don't know what I am yet," I said loosing steam.
"You mean you haven't even done anything yet?" Tommy asked.
"Nope," I said.
"What's stopping you?" Tommy asked concerned.
"Well, I know I love them, but I don't know that they love me. I mean it's one thing to follow me around Underland, but it's another to stay with me after we've had sex. I mean how do I know that they aren't going to just have sex with me then leave me. I don't want to be a one time fling," I said.
"They aren't like that Shae. Trust me. They are loyal, and if they do just leave you they'll wish they'd never been born," Tommy said.
"Thanks Tommy. Sorry I spied on you," I said.
"It's alright. Just try not to do it again okay?" Tommy asked.
"No promises," I said.
"Then don't be shy about having people watching you," Tommy said.
"Umm, too late," I said and walked off.
I made my way back to the gardens and found three rather upset looking men waiting for me.
"What do you think you are doing?" Chesh asked.
"I was talking with Tommy in the wood. I didn't think it wise for him to be alone in the wood either," I said.
"Really, then where is Tohmas now?" Benjamin asked.
"He's catching up with an old friend," I said with a slight blush.
"Who is the old friend might we ask?" Theo asked.
"Umm . . . I never caught his name sorry," I said looking anywhere but at them.
"You're lying," Chesh teased in a singsong voice.
"The lighting wasn't really all that good," I said.
"Doesn't mean you didn't see him," Benjamin said.
"Promise you won't get mad?" I asked holding my breath.
"Why would we get mad?" Theo asked.
"Because it was the Caterpillar," I said squeezing my eyes closed.
"He's friends with the Caterpillar?" Chesh yelled.
"More than friends, and from the way it looked that wasn't the first time they had met. Also the only reason the Caterpillar attacked me this morning was because I look like Tommy and hormones. I think Tommy knew the Caterpillar before everything got bad. The Caterpillar was banished into the wood because Mom didn't approve of Tommy being with him. Just because she wouldn't have any grandchildren if they were together. Now how messed up is that?" I asked.
"But it's the Caterpillar," Benjamin said.
"He's different when he's with Tommy. They complete each other. I honestly never thought I'd see Tommy smile a true smile again," I said.
"So he really makes Tohmas happy?" Theo asked.
"Yes, it's almost like he's at peace when he's with him. I always hoped that Tommy would find someone who would help him loosen up. Well, now he's got someone," I said.
"Yes I do. Thanks for defending my decision Sis," Tommy said coming out of the wood with the Caterpillar.
"Tommy!" I said jumping at him.
"You never cease to amaze," Tommy said.
"Sorry, I've been wanting to do that for a while now. I haven't done that since before Dad and I left," I said.
"Well, you're welcome to jump on me anytime. As long as I'm not busy," Tommy said.
"Yay!" I cheered.
I looked at the Caterpillar again and noticed that he was actually all cleaned up and wearing clothes. I actually recognized him now. Dad had always invited him over for play dates when we were kids.
"Evan! Holy crap I didn't even recognize you before. You really let Mom's banishment get to you didn't you?" I asked.
"It's hard being away from the one you love for so long," he said.
"Yeah, there is that. Oh well, at least we can hang out here for a bit. Eventually we'll have to go deal with Mom. Until then though let's just chill," I said.
"Sounds like a plan," Tommy said smiling at me knowingly.
He knew exactly what I meant by chill. Sometimes it was amazing to be twins. Other times it sucked.
We all moved back inside and toward our rooms. Chesh, Theo, and Benjamin followed me to my room while Evan followed Tommy to his.
"So, I take it you walked in on them?" Chesh asked.
"Yeah, just as they were finishing," I said.
"Did you enjoy it?" Benjamin asked.
"Oh yeah. I mean I know he's my brother and all, but damn that was hot," I said.
"Would you like to know how it feels?" Theo asked.
"I . . . uh . . . I've always wondered," I said.
"What's the matter?" Chesh asked.
"I just . . . I've never . . . I'm a virgin," I said.
"Well, that makes this all the better," Benjamin said.
"Actually, technically I'm not," I said.
"What do you mean?" Theo asked.
"I mean that one night I was babysitting for some of my step-mom's friends. I ended up staying the night after they got home at like midnight. The woman went to work at like three, and then the guy came back and asked if I wanted to go back and sleep in his room since it was hot and his room was the only one that had an air conditioner. I took the offer since I was sweating my ass off. I finally got to sleep, and then he starts messing with me. So here I am only half awake and turned on as hell. He asks me if I want sex and obviously I said yes. What half asleep girl turned on as hell doesn't say yes? He took me both ways and it took me like four months to tell even my closest friends," I said tears falling from my eyes.
"Oh, Shae, you won't have to worry about that with us," Chesh said pulling me into his chest.
"I just, I'm so worried that once we have sex you'll leave me. I couldn't live with that," I said as more tears came.
"Shae, do you really think we're like that?" Benjamin asked.
"No, but a girl can't help but worry," I said wiping my tears away.
"Then cease worrying. We're not like that," Theo said.
"I'm sorry. It's just hard to relax after you've lead such a nervious life," I said.
"It's alright Shae. Just remember that we love you and wouldn't do anything to hurt you," Chesh said.
"Thanks guys," I said.
"You're welcome," they all said in unison.
