Lucky You Have Me Chapter Eight
Jason got real used to having Carly and the kids with him in his Penthouse. Sure there were moments when Carly trounced around with not enough on and he had to tell his mind not to picture her naked (at least till he was alone. After all he hadn't had sex in a long while now and it wasn't that great the last time.) Mostly though it was good to have them there.
A few months had passed since the divorce. Jason had a head full of memories he would not trade for anything by then.
He watched as Carly started a new business, as an interior designer, and saw her slowly heal from the break up of her marriage. For a while at first he wondered if Jax would break her down and get her back but he hadn't.
There was only one time Jason got involved in getting Jax to back off. It was after Carly signed the divorce papers but Jax had refused.
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Months earlier
Jason and Carly were standing outside of Kelly's. They had left the Penthouse and gone there for breakfast one day. Jax happened to be walking toward the door just as Jason and Carly were saying good bye to each other. A few guards stood close by.
"Carly," Jax said "I'm glad I ran into you. You won't take my calls anymore and I can't come where you live because the gaurds won't let me in."
He glared at Jason and Jason gave him an icy stare back.
Carly said "There's nothing left to say. After what you did to my son do you really think I would ever allow you to live under the same roof as my boys again? And where they go I go so that settles it."
"That settles nothing! We had plans! We were going to have a baby. We were making a future that you said you wanted for yourself. A break from all the ugliness and feeling like not enough. Remember when you said that? Because I do. Do you really want to forever live under the thumb of Sonny and his right hand man who you call your best friend but how many times has Jason here worked you for Sonny's sake?"
Jason threw Jax against the wall and put his arm under Jax's throat. "Never drag me into the mess you made and never use me against Carly!"
"Get off me. You can't intimidate me and you can't destroy my marriage."
Carly yelled at Jax. "Don't you dare blame this on Jason! Without him I would be a mess! He has done nothing but take care of the people you promised to take care of- me and my sons! He has been the man we need in every way and without him we would all be lost! Go to hell and when you get there tell Claudia I said to Rot, bitch! You gave my son to a mental case that nearly killed him once! Don't think that I will ever let you touch me again or that I'll tell Jason to let you slide on anything ever again! We're through!"
Jason let Jax go and said "You heard her."
Then he turned and put his hand on Carly's back and led her away.
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Just when Jason fell into a great routine with Carly and the boys at his Penthouse he walked in one night and she was coming down the stairs wearing a red silk dress that plunged at the neckline and slit up the leg. A diamond necklace was around her neck and a diamond bracelet on her wrist.
He raised an eyebrow. "Going out?"
She smiled brightly and spun around. "Tell me I look gorgeous right about now."
When he didn't she pouted. He finally said "You know you look good."
"Thank you!" She got her little clutch purse and her coat. "Max is driving me so don't worry."
He watched as she looked in the mirror and fixed her hair, which was in an updo. His eyes raked over her body. He rubbed his forehead and looked away.
"You gonna tell me where you're going or am I supposed to guess?"
"Some charity thing. I know you hate that kind of thing so I found another escort. The kids are with Sonny. You are a free man tonight." She crinkled her nose at him. "Enjoy it. But if you go out and meet anyone go to her place, okay? I don't feel like hearing that when I get home."
He shook his head at her in a way that said he was totally disgusted by her saying that. "Yeah, okay,"he dragged out the words, letting her know that wouldn't be happening.
She walked close to him. "Big moment. I'm excited."
He raised an eyebrow.
She said, smiling, "My first date as a newly single woman. Johnny didn't count. Though he plays a mean game of pool. Not as good as you though." She ran her hand over his shoulder. "Don't wait up."
Carly walked to the door and looked back. Just seeing her in that moment took his breath away. It hit him hard in the chest that she was moving on from Jax but it wasn't with him. At that moment he had to admit that in his own head he had thought it might be.
It felt like the last fifteen years were a big blur. One crazy time bleeding into the next. Trying to stay alive and trying to make something more out of his life than just his job. Trying to do right by Carly. Trying to keep the his promise to protect her and the kids. Too many times he couldn't. Every time he tried to get with a chick, let alone marry a chick, it turned out like a nightmare. His best marriage didn't even have sex in it. Sometimes he had felt happy for a few months but it never lasted.
Just like this time. Carly was walking out to go start the next part of her life and Jason was just watching her go.
She blew him a kiss and then left. Pressing his hands together he put them against his nose and mouth and let out a shaky breath. Then he took down his hands, glanced at the floor and smiled a little.
At least she was happier now. Even if she wasn't feeling the same as him about how good it felt to share a home together. All that mattered was she was feeling strong again.
(I walked up and said hello. She said "Its good to see you but, hey, I gotta go." - Look at what I've done to her Look at how I made her feel. - She's standing tall. She's got it all. Got the world at her heels. - Look at what its done to me. Look at how it makes me hurt. - If I could go back now I swear somehow I'd find a way to make it work. - Ain't life funny? Now I'm the one alone. - Look at what I've done to me. She's gone
