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Edward Point of View

The last few days Bella and I spent together were wonderful, but now it's back to reality. The only things that keep me going are Bella, and knowing that this round of high school is nearly over and I won't have to be tortured by the thoughts of our self centered invalid classmates for much longer.

I spent last night in Bella's room and despite what the both of us wanted we were unable to satisfy any of our needs; Charlie wasn't sleeping as heavily as usual. Speaking of needs, I've been surprised to find out the sort of needs and desires Bella has, and I'm eager to talk about them with her but the gentleman in me never seems to be able to bring it up. Knowing that Bella wants to be taken roughly and that physical pain heightens her pleasure has only made me want her more, and though I would never admit this to Bella, it makes me eager to change her so that our new sex life can reach its full potential. And then on top of that she likes the idea of me gaining sexual satisfaction from drinking her blood, the darker part of me loves that, but I know that's something I will need to discuss with Carlisle if we decide to take it further. The rest, the pain boundaries, can be figured out along the way as per Bella's suggestion.

Leaving Bella this morning wasn't easy, being away from her has become excruciating now that we've become more intimate, my emotions towards her have intensified to new heights. I left while Bella was still sleeping to go home and prepare myself for the day a head and to grab my car. I'm driving like a maniac right now, thank god for my built in cop radar.

Stopping the car in her driveway I focus on listening to what she's doing. I can hear her shovelling her breakfast into her mouth with nearly inhuman speed; she must know that I'm here. She grabs her bag nearly tripping over a chair in the process but she makes it safely to the front door. She opens the door and meets my gaze and carefully makes her way to the car and hops into the front seat, she leans over and kisses me, lingering longer than necessary. I breathe out and her heart rate immediately increases.

"That's not playing very fair Edward" she breathes out heavily trying to regain some bearings.

"Sorry love, I couldn't help myself" I put the car in reverse and we begin to make our way to school.

Bella is fidgeting uncontrollably; the sexual tension in the air is nearly tangible. I'm driving too fast, even for me at this rate we'll be at school a full twenty minutes before anyone else even arrives. Don't slow down Edward, lots can be done in 20 minutes. Bella continues to squirm in her seat, and I continue to drive way too fast, even for a Cullen.

Sure enough the parking lot is nearly empty, Bella glances around and looks at me confused.

"We're early I know, and now that I'm certain I have you alone I can't promise you Bella that my intentions will be honourable"

"Fuck honourable" I love when she talks like that. I growl at her and pull the lever on her seat so that it snaps back, she opens her mouth in shock and I seize the opportunity to crush my lips to hers. My kiss is hard and insistent, a part of me hopes her lips become swollen and slightly bruised so that everyone else knows what we've been up to. She's eager to match my kisses and I can feel her hands on me urging me to climb on top her. I straddle her in and push my cock against her and she moans quietly. I continue to kiss her, allowing my tongue to dual with hers and run along her teeth. I suck her bottom lip roughly into my mouth and despite what my body wants I ever so gently nip at the delicate flesh. My hands find their way down her body and I being to massage her breasts through the thin fabric of her t-shirt.

"Harder Edward, pinch them"

She's so sexy when she tells me what she wants; it would be really amazing to watch her touch herself. Another time Edward. I pinch her nipples until they're hard and clearly visible through her shirt and I continue my assault on her mouth as I slide a hand down to her jeans and into her underwear. I begin to tease her clit and she starts to thrust her hips up at me begging for me to be inside of her, I quickly slip one and then another finger into her eager pussy. She's so fucking warm.

"Uhhhh, I'm close" and I can tell she is, her walls are starting to tighten around me.

Oh no, not now, why are they here so early they shouldn't be here for another 5-10 minutes, fuck.

I can't just stop, I need to make her come, she's so close, I start pumping my fingers faster and she starts moaning, load. I can already hear Rosalie thought's and it's quite obvious she can hear Bella.

I press my thumb hard against her clit "Bella, come for me now"

"Uhhhh, yesss, fuuuuuuuuuuck" she screams when she comes clenching around my fingers. I know everyone can hear everything going on now.

I remove my fingers from her and climb back into my seat. I look down at Bella who's still trying to catch her breath. Quickly I suck my fingers into my mouth not caring if the other's see me from where they're parked.

"Edward, I don't know how I'm supposed to focus for the rest of the day, I think it's only fair if you're mind is also otherwise distracted" what I wouldn't give to let her follow through with that.

"Bella, while that offer is beyond tempting, I'm sorry to say that we have company now" I glare over at my siblings parked across the lot in Rosalie's ostentatious BMW

"What?! How long, did they hear anything? Oh my god" her blush is fierce and I don't want to answer her question but I know I have too.

"About 5 minutes, and they heard enough Bella, expect to have to endure some serious teasing from Emmett later on"

"Oh god" she sits up and glances over at them and hides her face in her hands.

"Love, you might want to fix yourself up before we get out of the car" she's a hot mess right now, and as much as I love the look on her, I'm sure Bella would prefer to be a little more presentable.

She looks down at herself and quickly fixes her shirt and pants and then smoothes out her hair the best she can without a brush.

"Alright let's go" she grumbles then grabs her bag to hop out of the car and I'm at her side in an instant.

Other students are arriving now and we walk over hand in hand to meet my siblings where they're parked.

I can already hear their thoughts.

Could he be anymore obnoxious! He's going to reek like her now. Rosalie.

Bella is such a curious human, I can't wait to get to know her better Edward. Jasper.

Fuck yeah Eddie! Way to go man, who knew Bella was such a screamer. Emmett. I give him my most menacing glare upon hearing his thoughts

What is she wearing! Those shoes are all wrong with that top. Alice.

We finally make it over and Alice runs and grabs Bella away from me to talk and Emmett and Jasper slowly saunter over to me, both of them mentally high fiving me.

We continue to walk over to the main building, and it's hard for me to ignore the thoughts of the other students. To say that I hate these people would be a gross understatement, I loath their very existence; such petty and simple people. I knew people would talk about mine and Bella's engagement but I wasn't fully prepared to have to deal with their thoughts. It's awful really the things they come up with, a part of me wants to stand in the crowded halls and scream that no, Bella is not pregnant, Bella isn't paying me to stay with her, I'm not with Bella because of some bet, and it's not about money! It sickens me the malicious thoughts these people have towards Bella, especially Jessica, that girl disgusts me.

The first half of the day passes without incident, Bella seems to be ignoring all the gossip well and I'm thrilled that as we walk to the cafeteria Angela, perhaps the only decent girl in this place, stops to ask Bella about how the wedding planning is going and if she's looking forward to graduation. I will always have a soft spot for Angela, she is so genuine. Bella and Angela finish talking and now I know it's time to face the music and I think Bella does too because she starts to slow her pace.

"What's Emmett thinking about Edward?"

I listen in for his thoughts and I smile "Nothing much"

"You're lying" she elbows me in the side

"You know Bella, you really should get used to this, being one of us means never having any secrets, especially with Jas, Alice, and I"

"Ughh, I know..."

I drag her into the cafeteria and after we pick up "our" food we make our way over to the table. Bella takes her seat beside Alice and I sit down beside her and Emmett. The second we sit down I recognize the tune that Emmett is singing but I'm not sure Bella will. Jasper starts singing along with him and playing air guitar.

"Well you tried it just for once found it all right for kicks, but now you found out that it's a habit that sticks, and you're an orgasm addict!!" Emmett and Jasper sign in unison "you're and orgasm addict!" both of them are shaking violently with laughter and I can even see a slight smile on Rosalie's lips.

"Emmett, Jasper enough please" I glace over to Bella and she's hiding her face in her hands.

"Eddie come on it's funny" Emmett teases and I glare at him

"Oh come on Edward, it is kind of funny" I stare at Bella shocked to find that she actually find this amusing, and honestly it is, Emmett and Jasper singing along to anything is generally entertaining, I start laughing.

"That was some mean air guitar Jasper" I manage to spit out between laughs.

"Hey not everyone can play the real thing Edward, but I can rock out with the best of them" Jasper pretends to strum along to something while making pretend guitar noises, funny indeed.

Alice and Bella spend the rest of lunch chatting about graduation and wedding details, all things I'm sure Bella would rather not discuss, but Alice is relentless. Jasper and I talk about movies aloud but secretly we're having an entirely different more personal conversation.

Really though Edward, how is it being with Bella that way...you haven't fucked her yet have you?

I let out a hiss, must everyone be so crass! I shake my head.

Sorry. Is it hard?

I nod

I'm really impressed and pleased. You're moods are so much better these days, I was going to lose my mind with all that pent up sexual tension coming off of you guys.

I smile and nod

I know it's not my business, but I feel some weird things from Bella, it's like she feels the need to be punished, it's hard to explain but I find it similar to the feelings Alice has when we're together and she wants things to be...rough

I whisper quietly enough so only he can hear "so?"

Bella likes it rough?

I nod again

Huh, she really is fascinating.

I smile and mouth "I know"

Lunch is nearly over and I grab Bella's tray and take it to the nearest garbage can. We make our way to English and I can tell this last class is going to rough on the both of us, it's so hard for me to keep my hands off of her now, and I know she feels the same way.

Luckily we both make it to English and I'm finally alone again with Bella in my car and we're on our way back to her house. I hold her hand the entire way home, tracing circles on her palm, I can smell her arousal through her jeans. Just a few more minutes and I can have her again. I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, I quickly grab it and flip it open, and it's from Alice

Can't see you guys. Wolves. Be careful

"Shit" I can see him leaning against Bella's car

"What's wrong?"

"Jacob" I say through clenched teeth

"What does he want?"

"To talk to you" I park behind Bella's truck and we both slowly exit the car

"Bella I need to talk to you" he glares at me "alone"

He will not be alone with Bella "not a chance mongrel" I make a move to step in front of Bella to shield her from him.

"Bring it on leech"

"Stop it now!" Bella screams

"I'm sorry Bella" I grab her hand to enforce that I really am because I hate upsetting her. I step aside to allow her and Jacob to talk, but I will not leave her with him alone.

"Bells, I want to talk to you about him, this isn't good for you, I didn't think you would go through with all this, but from what Charlie tells Billy the wedding is going to happen...and I won't let you marry this bloodsucker or die for him!"

"Jacob this is none of your business! Edward and I are closer than ever now and there is nothing you can do or say to make me feel differently!"

Jacob huffs "Bella, you're insane. You and him aren't close I bet he can't even touch you! He's not a real man!"

"Jacob Black you bet your furry ass he touches me! And he is all man let me tell you!" Bella's face is beet red and I can tell she didn't mean to let that slip out

Jacobs mouth is hanging open and he's shaking "You let him touch you Bella?" he's about to lose it. It's about time I step in so quickly I pick Bella up and put her behind me again

"Black, you need to calm down, you're not in control, and you'll hurt her" He takes a few deep breaths and calms down

"Stop pretending Cullen we all know you're the only threat to her" stupid ignorant mutt.

"I'm not the pretender here Jacob"

I can hear his thoughts and he's screaming he won't surrender, he won't let her go.

"Black, I will fight for her and I wont enjoy it...much, but if you so much as come near Bella again without asking first I will tear your throat out" I sound terrifying to my own ears, I can't imagine what I sound like to Bella, I try so hard to keep the monster in me hidden. I glance back at her and her eyes are pleading with me.

"Jacob I think it's time to go, If Bella wishes to speak with you further she'll contact you" my voice is hard and I grab Bella's hand and begin to walk with her to the house

"You can't keep me from her bloodsucker! She loves me too!"

Neither Bella nor I turn around; we keep walking until we're inside the house. We hear him speed off on his motorcycle and we both release breaths we didn't realize we were holding in.

"I really hate it when he does that, that's the not the Jacob I know, that's not my friend" She's trembling and I grab her in my arms to try and sooth some of her pain.

"I know Bella...if you want to talk to him again later I understand but I don't like the idea of you being alone with him, his thoughts make me nervous. He's convinced he won't hurt you but there's a part of him that doesn't know anymore, he doesn't think he could stop himself from phasing if he got angry enough. Bella it's terrifying to see his thoughts when he see's himself hurting you, even if it's by accident" I kiss the top of her head and hold her closer

"Edward, I know, but please try and let me be the judge of the danger levels" I did tell her I'd try.

"Okay, but I'm taking the necessary precautions...you have no aversions to cell phones that I don't know about right?"

"Nope" she pops the p and I feel her smile into my chest

"Good, now how about me and you go fool around on your couch like a bunch of horny teenagers, that's a human experience you haven't had yet"

She looks up at me and smiles "as far as you know..." playful Bella, my favourite.

"Bella..." I stare down at her and growl and before she can blink I have her pinned against the couch cushions, my arousal quite obvious.

She pushes her hand into my pants and begins to stroke my cock.

"God Bella that feels good" I crush my mouth against her and she begins to pump me furiously.

I can't control my hands, they're all over her body and our kisses are become more and more forceful. I'm so close to coming I don't even care that I hear Charlie coming home. Getting caught fooling around with your fiancé is another human experience she hasn't had yet, right?

"Harder Bella, I'm almost there" she begins pumping me even harder and I pinch one of her nipples and she yelps in pain, that sound pushes me over the edge. I come all over my jeans and her hand.

I don't even bother to stop, I push my hand under her shirt and continue to kiss her, and I quickly make sure I'm securely put back into my pants. She's thrusting her hips into mine but that's not going to happen, not right now at least because in 5...4...3...2...1...

"ISABELLA MARIE SWAN WHAT IN GOD'S NAME DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING!!!"

I stare down at her and wink, she's redder than I have ever seen, and she's furious. Fuck is she beautiful. I stare up at Charlie in mock horror and jump off of her. Bella struggles to pull down her shirt and stand up.

"Dad, we were just..." she's so flustered it's adorable.

"Oh no need to tell me I know exactly what you two were doing!"

"Charlie..." I say calmly

"That's Chief Swan to you sport" he glances and me and then looks down at his gun.

"Sorry..." I mumble trying to appear as awkward and embarrassed as Bella is

"I think it's time you leave Edward" He's probably right, I do need to speak with Carlisle

"Yes, sir"

"Dad please, don't be ridiculous it was nothing" I almost feel bad about this, she's so frazzled.

"No Bella, Chief Swan, is right. I should get going"

"That's right Bella, and me and you are going to have a talk about this" Charlie's thoughts are amusing, but he's really not looking forward about talking to Bella about this.

Bella grumbles and walks me to the door; I lean down and whisper "another important human experience"

"You're such an ass!" she punches my shoulder and grimaces in pain.

"Sorry Bella, but his thoughts were hilarious, he was thinking of killing me and getting Harry to help hide the body, or forcing you to join some convent in Switzerland" I try really hard to stifle my laughter.

"Edward Anthony Cullen I will get you back for this"

"I hope so" I kiss her forehead and walk out the door.

She closes the door and I hear her whisper "tonight, you can stay in your own bed...and think about me fucking myself"

God, she's the best kind of evil.


This story seems to be turning in to more of a retelling from the end of new moon on, but i promise that up next is a really saucy lemon that involves some of the stuff that alice made bella buy.

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