LOGAN

I used to wonder what I had to live for. Sure, I was smart and yes, I was a pretty good kid but I couldn't find anything that I really wanted in life. I wanted my mother back but it soon became pretty obvious I wasn't getting that either. I never tried suicide because even then I still didn't have anything to look forward to. I mean seriously, I die and then meet God or whoever and that's it. When BTR started I had something to keep me occupied. I had something to do other than watching my dad still wait for my mom when it was obvious the woman was never coming back.

Hollywood brought on new pressures and new goals I wanted to reach. I didn't have to be bored. It's like a part of me that I never knew existed decided to come out. Now, the old me was still there and so were my goals of college and med school but now I had more. But there was still something missing.

It wasn't until one faithful day when that mess of curls first slapped me in the face that I realised what I was missing. Love. I never believed love was the answer to everything but when it came to Camille it sort of was. We have had our ups and downs between me not wanting admit that I had feelings for her, to her kissing James, and then the whole Peggy thing. Our relationship was complicated but we always found our way back to each other and I could never do that with girls that I'd dated.

I had never had a girlfriend before Camille but I did go out on dates (courtesy of James) with several girls. I never could find myself going on second dates with the same girl. Now it may sound like I had been a player but that's not it. They weren't what I was looking for. I wanted someone who would stay. Someone I could count on someone to fall back on and that's how I ended up with Camille. I would not have any other way.

CAMILLE

I'm okay now. Or at least I feel like I should be, like I have to be. Everyone was worried they even had Mrs. Knight come in and talk to me before even she realized that all I wanted was to be left alone. It wasn't until around eight o'clock that same night that I left my room. I was hungry and was craving some pizza. Everyone was staring at the big screen in the living room. As I got closer I could hear the t.v. better and I realised what was going on.

"This just in! Late this afternoon, Logan Henderson, member of Big Time Rush confirmed that him and star Camille Romano are expecting." Ryan Seacrest said.

My jaw literally dropped and I let out a gasp.

"OMG! Another teen starlet pregnant? Hmm, even in Hollywood there are statistics!" Guiliana Rancic laughed as Ryan continued the story.

"I guess so. In a fit of rage Logan Henderson completely spilled the secrets about his impending fatherhood to none other than the paparazzi. This morning a bunch of pictures of Camille were released showing what could be a baby bump. So when going back to his home at the Palm Woods he was bombarded by the paparazzi and I guess he just lost it. Here's the clip, that someone captured."

A video of Logan being surrounded with flashes of light and microphones appears. He seems to be annoyed actually.

'Logan, are you happy to be a soon-to-be dad?"

"Logan, is this a publicity stunt to show your fans that you're not a Jonas Brothers wannabe?"

"Logan, is the baby even yours?"

All sorts of questions were being fired at him and he just couldn't take it. And in the most un Logan way he exploded.

"It is my baby and yes I am happy to be a father and no it's not a fucking publicity stunt. Now get the fuck out of here!" He yelled before storming through the lobby.

The video is then cut off by someone turning off the t.v. and calling my name.

"Camille?" Jo said concerned.

I didn't say anything. I don't think I had anything to say. I wasn't mad and I wasn't upset but I was sure as hell shocked. I think my expression was scaring them because Logan rushed over to me with concern filling his eyes.

"Camille, say something please. I'm sorry I know this isn't the way you wanted this come out but I just blew up. And I know that isn't an excuse but I mean I couldn't let them say those things and..." He just kept going on and on with the apologies but in my mind there was nothing to be apologising for.

"Stop." I said

Logan stopped talking and followed me as I went over to the couch and sat in between Kendall and Carlos.

"I'm not mad. Really I'm not. Maybe in shock but nothing more than that."

"So, you're okay with everyone knowing your pregnant?" James asked.

"Yeah, are you? What about Logan revealing it to the paparazzi?" Carlos asked earning a head slap from Kendall

"If it were up to me I wouldn't want anyone to know, but this saves me the trouble of having to tell the world myself."

"Cam, are you sure you're okay with this?" Jo asked.

Before I could answer my manager Cindy walked in. She took one look at me and scowled.

"You." She said glaring.

"Did you watch E! News just now? You and your pop star boyfriend are all anyone is talking about!" She said frustrated.

"You know this ties into be careful what you wish for Cindy. Remember those old days when you wanted me to be the most talked about new star? Well, wish granted just a little late than expected." I said amused.

"Look, Cindy, It wasn't Camille's fault. I was a little angry and..." Logan said trying to explain. That is until Cindy cut him off.

"No, you look. All you had to do was wrap it up and we would not be in this situation." she said yelling at Logan.

Logan of course blushed beet red and Cindy turned back to me.

"And you, what the hell ever happened to just saying no?" She asked me.

I wasn't sure if she was expecting an answer or not so I stayed silent.

"Well, is there anything you want to say?" She asked tapping her foot impatiently.

"Um, not really, I don't know why you're surprised when last time I checked I did tell you what was going on. What am I supposed to say I'm sorry? I honestly don't feel as if I have to much to say yo you unless you try talking to me like a person, not your money-making lap dog." I said getting upset.

"How dare you talk to me like that? Don't you know that it was I who made you?" She said disgusted.

"Okay. Number one stop talking to me like you're my mother when we both know you're not. Second, you didn't make me. Last time I checked I hired your help but I landed those jump start roles myself. You've been my managerfor all of what? Six or seven months?"

"You know what, I will not have a child speak to me like this." Cindy said

"Okay, Cindy. I'm not trying to be rude but seriously. You're like 25. I'm only a few years younger than you and I'm a legal adult. Please, I'm begging you to stop."

"Okay, maybe we all should just calm down." Logan said stepping between me and Cindy.

"You know I'm all for kicking the bitch out!" Jo said looking around.

"Can we all just be calm human beings?" Logan said

"You know I could quit, if I wanted. Then again I'm too much of a nice person to do so."

"Okay, seriously what bit you in the ass?" Carlos asked annoyed at Cindy.

I got up and walked over to Cindy. She smirked.

"You're fired." I said simply.

She looked taken aback for a second but quickly recovered.

"You can't do that." She said shaking her head.

"Yes, yes I'm pretty damn sure I can."

She laughed. "You'll regret this. I made you. I fucking made you who you are today."

"Whatever." I slammed the door shut behind her gently slid to the floor.

Everyone was cheering and saying how happy they were that she was gone (don't get me wrong I was too) but I had a strange feeling in my stomach. Literally.

"Whoo! This calls for celebration!" Carlos yelled.

Of course he ran straight to the kitchen to where Jo kept the corn dogs.

Everyone was just sitting around watching Carlos stuff a bunch of corn dogs in his mouth. I was still on the floor debating if I should get up or not. It wasn't until Jo looked at me and frowned.

"Cam, are you okay?" She said hurrying towards me.

I looked up at her and suddenly the pain numbed.

"Yeah, I'm-"

I almost finished that sentence but then the all too familiar wave of nausea hit me like a tom of bricks and I pushed past Jo and made it to the trash can just in time.

"Whoa, is she alright?" I heard James ask in the distance

Logan was at my side immediately with a glass of water in his left hand and rubbing my back with his right. Jo was pulling my hair back.

I felt horrible. The vomit just kept coming back. I had to be at that trash can for at least 20 or 30 minutes. This had to be the worst case of morning sickness I had in a while. the worst part was that I only had a bagel today so my stomach was completely empty now.

I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and reached for the glass of water.

"Oh my God. Cami, look at your hand!" Jo yelled.

The rest of the guys ran over as Logan and I looked at my hand. The guy gasped in shock while Jo called the hospital. Everyone's words were now a blur as I saw them rush to find car keys and try to get me in the car. Logan was whispering calming words into my ear but I just continued to look at my hand. I felt myself be picked up and still I oculd not snap out of this trance.

All I could stare at is the blood that covered a good portion of right hand.

Okay so I have to admit that was a pretty darn good chapter. So there you have it. I will probably update next weekend. I'm pretty busy next week so I had to leave you readers with something to last you for awhile. Oh and for all you wondering what is going on. Camille just threw up blood. No she is not having a miscarriage.

-Nessa aka poeticjustice13

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