The Darkest day
Chapter Seven
"We need to Talk"
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I got really screwed up with the chapters so this is the original chapter seven:
Chapter 5 Chapter 4
Chapter 6 Chapter 5
Chapter 7 Chapter 6
and this is Chapter 7!!
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"I still love you." I heard as I stepped out. I didn't turn to see who it was. All I knew was that my best friends were in front of me and my protector was right next to me...Rajah.
E.P.O.V.
I can't believe that bitch would do something like that to me. She is such a bitch! I can't believe I hurt Bella like that. Maybe we can come back. Maybe she will let us come home that way we could be a family again. I still love her. I always have and I always will. I never forgot her. My dead hurt aches for her more then ever before. Even when she was extremely hurt. That song she left me told me that she was saying goodbye. That song makes perfect sense now. I cant believe I was hurting her all this time. I feel so bad. Why the hell am I such a moron?
My thoughts were interrupted by Bella's voice.
"Esme I want you guys back but right now I need to think and clear my head." Bella's voice echoed back and forth in my head. She wants us back! She wants us back! She wants us back! She wants us back!
You idiot she needs time to think! Rose pushed into my head. Curse my life for being a vampire. No thoughts are ever safe! I never she couldn't really tell but my face...
No shit Sherlock! I heard what she said.
Then why is your face light up? She replied.
Not only that you're emotions are very strong on love. Jasper placed in. If there's a god out there make it stop!
Okay I get it. She needs time to think. Now back off! I replied sharply. I hated it when they did that to me.
Rose, Alice, and Bella headed up to her room. I knew they were going to talk.
Why couldn't I be apart of that?!...
"I still love you." I whispered. I saw her ears perk up but she didn't turn. At least I know she heard me.
B.P.O.V.
We walked back to my room in silence. I was lost with my thoughts and for all I know Rose and Alice were talking back and forth. Curse them for being a vampire! Oh how I wanted to be with Edward right now. To be in his arms...to understand what is going to happen with us...to know what happened back there why he stopped me...just to know that he still loves me so I can tell him my heart aches for him and that it's like being stabbed a million times and I have yet to die. Why does this have to hurt so bad? Why can't it all just go away like I thought it would.
What about Jake?...
We walked in my room and the girls wrinkled their noses.
"EW! Why does it smell like dirty, wet..dog?!" Rose spat out. I looked at them and remembered I forgot to tell them that Jake and the pack stopped by.
"Um..about that...Jake and the whole pack are here. They followed me home." I said sheepishly. They looked at me with cold, hard, killer eyes.
"Bella we could always..." I caught on fast.
"No. I don't give a shit that they are here, and no offense to you two 'cause you know I love you but...you guys aren't suppose to be here either. Remember you left me. You guys left me because Rose thinks I'm a cold hearted killer and you never really told me why you left. So put up with it because everyone is luckily I haven't kicked their ass out. So shut up, hold your breath, and when it comes to the pack...butt out." I said sternly. They looked at me for a minute. Alice went to say something and I stuck up my finger stopping her. Instead she took a deep breath and so did Rose.
"Good. Now what do you guys want to talk about?" I said walking over and sitting on my bed. They came over and sat across from me. I pushed play and my radio started playing what ever Cd's I had in there. I think they were Kelly, Secondhand Serenade, and My Chemical Romance.
"Edward." My chest closed in and I took a deep breath letting it our slowly.
"I really rather not. What I saw back there showed me that he has moved one. Can we please talk about something else like where you are living or something along those lines?" I said. The pain showed in my voice.
"Bella everyone knows that you still love him. Jasper could feel your love the moment you stepped in the room. Not even then. When you were walking down the hall he felt it. Edward still loves you." Alice said. She had on a pleading face. What did they want me to say? That I still love Edward and that I want him back here with his arms wrapped around me? So that he could say how beautiful I looked even when I stunk of blood or sweat or when I looked like a killer? So he could make my stomach flop with butterflies and my heard go twitter twitter when he kisses me? Well I'm sorry I can't.
"Guys he made it clear he doesn't love me and that he has moved on. I'm sure he fell madly in love with that Carrel girl. She was perfect for him in all the right ways." She's a vampire and the right kind of killer...basically...not me.
"Bella you won't listen to us." Rose said. "He got your message and if he could he would cry himself to sleep every night just so he could see you. I don't know when he isn't listening to that song just so he can hear your voice. Please Bella just talk to him. Carrel is a bitch and she had him under a spell. That's her power. She can control their minds. She did it to Emmett and I almost killed him until I understood. It took Alice three days to get me to see. If that's how long it takes then we will stay till then. Edward still loves you. Please Bella stop hiding from the love you both share for one another." I was looking away from her and my head snapped up showing the tears I was crying. I looked at her shocked. I didn't love Edward anymore...right?!
"Rose, Alice, I thank you but I don't love him anymore. I know you don't believe me but what do you want me to say that I still love him and that I want his arms around me, or that way he could say how beautiful I was when I smelled of blood, or sweat, or just in general, or when my stomach would flip with butterflies and my heart go twitter twitter when he would kiss me, or how that I want to spend every minute of my life with him but I can't because he's a vampire and I'm just a girl who knows how to kill? Is that what you want to hear?" I said almost shouting at them. The tears flowed more quickly then before and I realized that I did still love him.
I covered my face with my hands crying out my pain. I was happy that Edward wasn't here right now. He didn't need to know or hear what I just said.
"Yes, that's all we wanted to hear." Rose said quietly. I was surprised that I could still hear her over my weeps. I felt to sets of arms on me and I hugged them both crying.
E.P.O.V. (again lol)
My heart ached at the tears I heard her crying. I couldn't believe that one I was listening in on this, two that I let Carrel do that to me, and three what I had just heard. I thought she had moved on. I knew Bella and that puppy of a wolf had something going on (N.A./ not in a perverted way!) but I thought they way she felt, well feels, for me would just be all Jake. I didn't believe it when Jasper told me and hearing it from Bella just made my dead, unforgivable, heart ache more then it could ever in my whole life, vampire and human. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I just couldn't. She made it loud and clear that she had said good bye.
But her sobs are so heart breaking it's hard to believe that message. I have to talk to her...
B.P.O.V.
I stopped crying after a little bit and cleared my face. I had to stay strong. If Rose could get through it then why couldn't I? I couldn't because I love someone else that I never thought I could love. My heart aches for two people. Two people that both have my heart.
Rajah jumped up on the bed and I was so happy I had a king. The cat would have hogged any other size bed. Rajah curled up next to me like any cat and I pet it listening to it's fairly loud purrs. I usually never let her sleep on my bed. It got too hot and I would have to sleep with all the windows open.
"I really didn't mean to do that." I said trying to play it cool.
"Bella we all know you still do. You may be a killer but you still have a soft heart. It's alright to miss him, to want him back, to just anything when it comes with him." Rose said placing her hand on my hand. "I "cried" when it came to Emmett even though I wanted to kill Carrel and hurt Emmett. You have to forgive and forget about it. Something are meant to happen like that." I looked over at Alice and saw that she wasn't here mentally. She wasn't having a vision, her eyes weren't fogged over. She had to have been talking to someone.
"Thanks Rose but..." I couldn't finish my sentence. She was right. I need to forgive and forget.
"Don't mean to interrupt but... Bella someone wants to talk to you." And I couldn't finish because she interrupted me. Oh well.
"Well we'll leave and let you guys have some privacy." Rose said getting off the bed and walking backwards toward the door. Alice was right next to her. They left and I leaned against Rajah. I figured it was Jake and he told Edward to tell Alice and Rose that he was coming and that he wanted to talk to me that way there wouldn't be a fight. Well at least someone was paying respect toward them...very little probably...that's only if the pack listens and stays in the water. I got up and looked at my window. The pack was still in the water. Jake was standing by Billy. Then who was coming? Jake headed up the stairs and I figured he was coming to check on me.
There was a knock at my door. That was fast...a little too fast. I thought to myself. I looked at my door and back out the window. Jake was still going up the stairs. Who ever was at my door knocked again.
"Come in." I finally said. My door opened slowly and Edward slowly walked in. No, not now. I can't do it. I was screaming to myself. I really couldn't. It hurt too much to see him.
"Edward I..." I couldn't finish.
"We need to talk." I stared at him wide eyed. He was so much different like he was mad at me or something. I walked over to my bed and sat down.
"Oh...kay..." I said sheepishly. Boy don't I feel sheepish!(N.A./ That's from Aladdin. If you haven't figured it out yet I'm like in love with Disney!...movies...the old ones!) He walked over and sat on the edge...like the very edge.
"I got our message." He said. Well that's a good thing to start out with...not!
I nodded.
"Bella I want you to know that Carrel... I never felt anything for her. I don't know why I got mad at you but I wanted to thank you for it. If it wasn't for you for all I know I could be getting married next week. I never felt anything for her. Please you have to believe me. I never wanted to hurt you like that." I looked out my window to see that the sun had set already. Was the pack still in the water?
Secondhand Serenade was playing now and it was on broken?
"In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You're invincible
Yeah, It's true
It's in your eyes
Where I find peace"
He was singing to me. I couldn't believe it. Why this song though?
"Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away."
I was still looking our the window and his hand was on my jaw. He moved my face so that I would look at him.
"So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we'll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?"
He had pain in his eyes that told me he still loved me. I had no what emotion I was showing or even if I was showing one.
"And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You've been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay" He was really sad about what happened. But how could I tell him how I felt.
"In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away." He let go of my face and waited for me in silence. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't say anything. Everything I told Alice and Rose was running through my body. Oh I didn't like that. I didn't want to feel this. It hurts to much.
"Bella..." Edward said quietly.
"Edward...I..." That's when there was a knock at my door.
Oh Cliffy! Sorry I want to leave you hanging like that.
Song: Broken by Secondhand Serenade.
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