Summary: Riku is now a junior at Destiny High School along with some of his friends. Every day is a normal day, but Riku sometimes wonder what it would be like to have someone by his side. However, things change when Roxas's twin brother, Sora arrives new to town at their school and Riku's motives start to twist and love starts to form in more ways then one. Filled with love triangles, drama, violence, and an angry stepfather and a crazy Sephiroth, the crew face challenges that they never thought would change their lives forever.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts.
Warning: This is a yaoi, if you don't like, don't read. I tried revising this chapter as much as possible and if you see any spelling or grammar mistakes, I'm sorry. I have no Beta so don't shoot me.
Because of You
Thoughts
Flashbacks
Chapter 8:
Kira P.O.V.
(Flashback: Author P.O.V)
" Kira, please don't leave me!"
"Why should I? Its obvious that you don't need me here."
Strong arms wrapped themselves around the black-haired male before embracing him from behind.
"I love you Kira. And don't you ever think otherwise. You're my destiny. If you leave, I don't know what to do. My life will be wasted and I won't have anyone to share my life with. Please, Kira. Don't go."
Kira turned around to face his brunette lover with serious gray eyes before dropping his stuff and rushed over to his partner. Suddenly, Kira kissed his lover passionately, and roughly on the lips while wrapping his arms around his boyfriend. His lover impatiently held Kira closer to him before Kira broke the kiss; both of them panting and staring into one another's eyes.
"Show me how much you love me. If nothing else, please Kentaro. Show me how much I mean to you by all means. Please." Kira begged Kentaro, who stared at him with shocked silver eyes but smiled and nodded all the same before pulling Kira back in the house and closing the door behind him...
(Flashback End: Back to Kira's P.O.V.)
"KIRA!"
I was snapped out of my thoughts by hearing my name being called. Everyone in my class was staring at me and I glanced over at my English teacher, who seemed slightly pissed.
Hn talk about your normal, friendly teacher.
"I know daydreaming must be enjoyable Kira, but will you please answer the question for the class." He asked calmly but held a deadly look in his eyes.
My book was opened, but I highly doubted we were on that page. Not really scared of the teacher, I looked over at him and shrugged.
" I don't know." I replied without a care in the world and looked out of the window.
I could literally feel my teacher's heated gaze on me, but he sighed in defeat and continued with the lesson. After I was sure he was writing on the board, I turned my head a little and looked over to see Kentaro.
In my Anatomy class, Kentaro was introduced to the whole class. Right there and then, I wanted to kill that son of a bitch. Why you ask? Long ago, he left without telling me or sending me a letter on why he left to where he was going. This made me stay in my room for weeks on end because he left me and I had this sudden urge to kick his ass.
But I couldn't.
No matter how painful the memories were, I couldn't get myself to do such thing. One was because there were too many witnesses (including Sora and Riku). Second, the things I wanted to say were so cruel; the devil himself would be asking me for tips.
Still, that son of a bitch is hotter now than he was years ago.
Kentaro was well built figure wise, those silver eyes that were once filled with childish dreams now showed maturity and seriousness. Not to mention that his use to be short brown hair had grown out a little bit a well. I continued to stare at Kentaro when he suddenly turned his head and looked right at me.
I jumped a little; noticing his gaze was now at me. That's when Kentaro sent me a kind, small smile and turned back to face the board. A blush was upon my face and I turned back towards the window with shock on my face.
RING
After hearing that, all the students jumped out of their seats and ran out the door. Our teacher also left the room, leaving Kentaro and me the only ones in the room. The door was closed as well for some reason. Once I had all my stuff in my book bag, I started walking over to the door until Kentaro's sexy voice stopped me.
"You've changed a lot, Kira." I was frozen in place and I managed to turn fully around to see Kentaro only a few feet away from me; leaning against the teacher's desk staring at me with those sexy, calm silver eyes of his.
I tried to control my blush and looked away from him. " So have you, Kentaro. Though, I'm surprised your personality all these years are still intact." I commented him solemnly and glanced up to see my ex now standing in front of me.
Kentaro stepped closer to me; making me take a step back until I felt my back connect to the wall. The bag I kept dropped onto the wooden floor; merely forgotten and Kentaro's arms trapped me so I wouldn't escape in anyway. I looked up at him with a cold glare.
"You know, I wasn't expecting to see you here at all. I didn't know you even liked towns like these. Though, was our hometown not the same as this one? What I want to ask you is why your here." He said to me coldly and I could only snort with displease.
"Like hell! I should be asking you that question! Not the other way around! You left home without telling me where you were going let alone write me a damn letter! You're not even worth looking at anymore Kentaro. So leave me the hell alone." I snapped right back before reaching down to grab my book bag when I was roughly pushed against the wall and a pair of soft, gentle lips claimed my own eagerly.
What. What the hell is he doing? Why aren't I pulling away!
This feeling was starting to come back to me. I was shocked at first but I suddenly relaxed within the kiss and kissed back. Kentaro's tongue wanted to be in my mouth and I unconsciously obeyed. Soon, my arms were wrapped around his neck and Kentaro's body was pressed against mine. Then, he accidentally pushed hard against my erection.
"Ah!" I let an escaped moan fall from my lips and wanted Kentaro closer to me as possible. However, he smirked at this and started grinding against me while pushing me up the wall.
"Oh god! You damn bastard- ah! Ah!" I panted out along with a half whimpered moan and started meeting his hips gradually and desperately.
Then, Kentaro stopped grinding all together and moved away from me to straighten his shirt. Though, he moved back towards me and whispered in my ear.
"How can you hate me Kira, when your longing for me still burns inside your heart?" Kentaro whispers in my ear before walking away from me, out of the room and out of my sight.
I slid down the wall with shock and frustration. Even though he left me with a rock hard on, my feelings started turning from loving to hatred. I growled loudly at my vulnerable state against Kentaro and punched the floor beneath me. Blood was on my knuckles now but I didn't care at all about it.
I'm supposed to hate you, Kentaro. I'm supposed to hate you because you left without saying goodbye. Instead, I'm only showing you the love I still have for you and because of you…
I'm vulnerable.
BECAUSE OF YOU
Sora P.O.V.
"Riku-ah! Stop it! We got to get the English class before Cloud sues us with all he's got." I tried to tell Riku, who was busy nibbling my neck and wrapped his arms tightly around my waist from behind.
We were standing at my locker and I was trying to figure which book I needed. However, Riku intervened and started 'teasing' me. I let out a soft moan; blushing at the fact I'm actually letting my boyfriend do this in the middle of the hallway.
Luckily I managed to concentrate by placing my selected books in my bag before turning around to face Riku and kissing him lightly.
Before Riku could kiss back, I pulled away quickly and grinned up at my boyfriend. "Don't worry, babe. Once we get home, I'll make it up to you. How about that?" I offered with a smile and Riku smiled in return.
"I'd like that very much, Sky." He said back and pressed his forehead against mine before rubbing our noses together with affection that I couldn't help but giggle.
"Sora! Riku!" We looked over to see Roxas running towards us with surprise expressed on his face. I watched my twin brother with worry and curiosity while Riku's strong arm wrapped around my waist protectively.
Roxas stopped in front of us and started catching breathes before speaking. "I assume you guys have heard about the new students, correct?" He asked the two of us and I thought for a minute before nodding.
"Actually, we did have this new student in our Anatomy class. I think his name was Kentaro. Right Riku?" I looked up at Riku with hopeful blue eyes and watched my boyfriend nod in agreement.
"Yea. If I recall the event, I think Kira was pretty surprised when he saw the guy. Looked as if they haven't met in years. Kind of interesting when it comes to that emo kid." Riku added to the memory.
I averted my eyes towards my brother, who sighed in defeat and looked worried all of a sudden. "What's wrong Roxas? Is Kentaro bad or something?" I asked Roxas with concern.
Is Roxas actually worried about this guy?.
After asking this, Roxas took a deep breath and motioned us to walk with him. All three of us were in the same class so it didn't get us in trouble.
"Yesterday, I had Kentaro in my class. Axel was jealous as usual because I was sitting next to him. Anyways, while I was working with Kentaro, he told me that Kira was his old lover. At first, I wasn't sure if the Kira he meant was the one that we all knew." This made Riku grunt in disgust but I nudged him in the side; as sign to tell him to listen and not comment.
"But after thinking it over, I realized that it was true. Maybe he's the reason why Kira acts the way he is. You know, all alone, dark, mysterious and non-talkative. Not to mention that he hasn't dated anyone since I've been in this school. At least from my point of view he hasn't." Roxas finished as we finally came upon our classroom.
I sunk all the information is and I also came to realization of all this. Did Kira want to date me because he kept thinking of Kentaro? Is he the reason Kira's so mysterious? I wish I knew. I want to help him but how am I supposed to help him without getting involved?
Riku must have sensed my discomfort and held me closer to him. I lifted my head up to meet his eyes and I gave him a warm smile; telling him thanks. Like the wonderful boyfriend Riku is, he smirked and leaned down to kiss me square on the lips in front of everyone; including the fan girls.
"AWWW!"
"SO KAWAIII!"
"RIKU! SORA! WE LOVE YOU!"
The group of fan girls were practically bowing to our feet and squealing in delight. I couldn't hold back a blush that crept upon my face and tried to hide myself from them, but Riku played along with it.
"Sorry girls. I already claimed Sora last night. Sorry you had to miss it. Have to admit, my little angel is quite a screamer." Riku told then with the most perverted grin on his face and I just stared up at him with my mouth ajar in shock.
Every girl that heard that got nosebleeds and fainted down to the floor. Roxas was watching this whole time and busted out laughing his heart out. I was shocked that Riku actually said that out loud.
What stinks is that we haven't even entered that certain part in our relationship yet. We're still a new couple. I shouldn't be bothered by it but…I can't help but feel that Riku shouldn't joke about something like that.
The mere thought of that made me sad. I know Riku and me, have been going out for a few weeks, and me but I also want to show him how much I care about him. Not because Riku's hot and popular, but because he loves me for whom I am.
Though, I really wish that we could make love to one another, but I must wait. Either way, I don't think Riku will want me anymore after a while...
BECAUSE OF YOU
Kentaro P.O.V
Even after several classes, I couldn't stop thinking about the encounter with Kira a few hours ago. His words though, were still plagued in my mind like a tape recorder playing over and over again.
"You left home without telling me where you were going let alone write me a damn letter! You're not even worth looking at anymore Kentaro. So leave me the hell alone!"
Kira...I'm so sorry I've caused you so much pain over these years. But I had to leave. For your sake and mine.
I splashed some water on my face to relieve myself of this stress. Then, I heard the boys door open and looked through the reflected mirror to see a really hot uke coming in. He placed his bag on the ground before washing his small hands.
Actually, the kid wasn't half bad really. He had big, innocent dark purple eyes and short black hair along with a slim, lithe figure. I wiped the water off my face with some paper towels before I decided to speak to the boy.
"You know, someone with your innocent looks could definitely score a hot guy, you know that?" I complimented the boy, who was shocked at my words and blushed slightly before he diverted his gaze anywhere other then me.
The boy didn't say anything but quickly dried his hands and picked up his bag. He started going out of the bathroom and I quickly followed close behind. Students coming the opposite way were looking at us with wondrous eyes. I smirked at this and decided to do a conversation with him.
"So, what's your name?" I asked the black-haired boy, who only glanced up and me before looking ahead of him.
"M-My name is Joel." Joel answered with a soft, innocent yet childish voice. I blinked at his unique name and smiled at him in return.
" Well, I'm Kentaro. Nice to meet you Joel." I gave him a warm smile and Joel stared at me with shock before breaking out a sweet smile at me.
"Joel." I heard a male's voice speak up from behind us and we both turned around.
I got to say, this school had some really hot guys here. This one had light blue hair that was short in the back but was long towards the font and sexy maroon colored eyes that were staring at Joel. He was pale like the moon, but it matched the guy perfectly and had a slim but muscled body. Plus, I could tell he had some nice abs because he was wearing a tank top along with some sweats and it looked like he came out of gym or something.
Something about these two interested me though. Joel's eyes widened and they held a mixture of joy, guilt and pure shock. Him and the blue-haired guy were staring at each other until Joel broke the silence.
"Irin-san." I blinked in shock cause Joel already knew the hot guys name. Now this was getting even more interesting by the minute.
Suddenly, the blue-haired guy named Irin walked up to Joel and took his hand gently into his own. Soon, they were both walking down the hall; leaving me in the middle of the hallway to watch. Joel looked over his shoulder at me and said something.
"See you later, Kentaro-senpai!" Joel called out to me over his shoulder before him and Irin disappeared around the corner.
Why do I get the feeling that them two must have been together? Intriguing.
Smiling at this discovery, I walked passed a classroom and stopped dead on when I saw a group of guys. One of them had sharp, aqua eyes, pale skin and shoulder length hair that was silver. Another guy with him had pale, blue eyes and spiked blonde hair along with tan skin.
What caught my eye though was the one that was cuddling beside the silver-haired one. He looked just like the blonde, except his blue eyes showed happiness and joy; sun kissed skin and spiked-chocolate hair that were in all directions. Plus, the kid was hot as hell and was totally uke material.
I frowned when I saw the silver-hair guy kiss the brunette on the head like a lover would. Not wanting to get caught, I resumed my walk down the hallway and a sudden idea popped into my head.
Kira…If you've truly forgotten about me with new memories, and then maybe I should torture you by getting me someone of my own.
BECAUSE OF YOU
Irin P.O.V.
Finally, I'm able to talk to Joel in privacy. Though, this janitors closet is much bigger than what I'd expected. At least there's a light in here.
Joel and I were in the janitors closet so we could have some privacy together. I studied Joel with my eyes and I couldn't help but feel the longing for him once again. Though, I highly doubted that he would want me again.
Not to mention I have Sachano to deal with. But come on, Irin! You got this! Just talk him and maybe you can sort things out.
My enthusiasm rose as I took a deep breath and looked Joel in the eyes. "Hello, Joel." I greeted him with a polite nod of the head and I noticed Joel blushed a little and did the same action.
"Hello, Irin-kun." Joel replied back with an innocent voice that just made me want to jump him, but I kept my cool.
After that, I leaned against the wall. " So Joel, how's life been going for you?"
Really, I didn't want to go straight to the point because then I'd be making Joel uncomfortable. Not to mention that I didn't want to hurt him in any way possible. He shrugged a little and leaned against the wall with his books against his chest nervously.
"Um…it's been good. Yours?" Joel asked me in return with concern and worry in his purple eyes and I only shrugged at his answer.
"Ok I guess."
We were greeted with silence and we heard students walking past the room but none have stopped to see us in here. I sighed out tiredly and looked over at Joel with guilt.
"Joel. Why did you leave? Did I do something wrong to upset you?" The questions I desperately wanted answered was now put to the test and I watched Joel's expression turn from nervousness to shock.
"Y-You wouldn't understand. My reason for leaving you would be something you could never imagine." I heard Joel reply back to me with uneasiness and uncertainty.
Then, I confidently walked over to Joel's side and leaned over to him while placing my arm beside his head so he wouldn't escape. Nervous, scared purple orbs met my gaze as I waited for an answer.
" Joel, don't you see? It doesn't matter what you say or do, I've always loved you. Besides, I can't see myself hating you at all let alone be mad at you. So please, help me understand so I can help you. Please." I half pleaded and begged with guilt expressed all over my face.
Once Joel noticed this, he looked down at the floor in a thoughtful mode before looking up at me. "Do you still love me?"
Didn't see that coming.
"Joel, I-"
"Please Irin-kun. Just answer my question truthfully." He cut me off with a pleading tone and I looked away to think a little.
Finally knowing the answer, I pressed myself into him and Joel's books fell on the floor. I was flushed against Joel with my body. So close that our foreheads touched and our noses were barely touching. No matter how much I wanted to have him all to myself, I knew he was not mine anymore.
Joel tenses at first, unsure about the sudden action but soon relaxed and clutched the front of my tank top tightly with his small hands. Joel…
I leaned down close enough to whisper in his ear but paused before speaking.
"Yes."
Before Joel could respond, I quickly kissed him fully on the lips. Right there and then, I didn't care if we got caught. My mind was focused on Joel.
If I can't have him at all, at least let me give him one more kiss. Something he can remember me by. Joel...
As we kissed, Joel blushed brightly on his cheeks and shyly responded. Then, I wrapped my left arm around his slim waist to pull him closer to me and he wrapped his arms around my neck slowly.
I kissed him back gently, wanting to savor the moment for as long as possible. He moaned softly at this and I couldn't help but smirk and break the kiss before I started nibbling his neck.
"Irin-kun." Joel spoke in my ear, his voice laced with lust and hope.
"Irin."
My eyes snapped open immediately, making me pull myself away from Joel completely before I turned around so he wouldn't see my face. Was my mind playing tricks on me? Why do I keep thinking about Sachano?
Sachano...What have you done to me?
"Irin?" Hearing Joel's innocent voice, I tensed up a bit before I stood up straight and turned around to fully face my ex-lover.
"I'm sorry, Joel. It's my fault that you left in the first place. Maybe if we had just-" I didn't have the strength or determination to finish my statement, but Joel understood by placing a comforting hand on my shoulder.
"Irin, it was never you fault. Even if we did, we would still be in this exact situation. Besides, I've noticed that you and Sachano-senpai have seem to finally express yourselves to one another." Joel replied with a smile and I stared at him with shock.
"H-How did you-"
"From being here in this school, I've realized that rumors spread quite fast around here. Even the teachers themselves know about the rumors. Its pretty funny." He told me with a soft laugh before cupping my cheek with his hand and staring up at me.
"I want you to be happy, Irin. There's someone out there that can treat you better. I'm happy that I was able to make your life joyful but now, we must move on. So please, go to him. If not for Sachano, for me."
Those words hit me hard. Not hurt hard, but true hard. Joel's right though. If we don't move on now, we'll live in the past forever. All we can ever be in friends now. Just friends.
I'd rather be friends with Joel, then lose him forever because of some damn mistake that I've committed.
Tears started to gather in my eyes but ones of joy. I leaned into Joel's touch before giving him a last kiss on the lips before pulling away and giving him a soft smile.
"Thank you, Joel." I told him gently and Joel smiled in return.
Without thinking, I turned around and opened the door slowly before dashing down the hall. I ran down the halls; not caring about the strange looks people were giving me or if I got caught. My main goal was to find Sachano and fast.
I slid past a corner and almost fell if I hadn't caught myself. As I ran down the hall, I finally spotted Sachano leaning against the lockers and I noticed some fan girls admiring him from a corner. I smiled in determination as I ran faster.
"SACHANO!" I called out loudly to him and watched Sachano look up at me with shocked/confused aqua eyes.
Once I got closer to him, I slowed down and decided to catch my breath. That didn't stop me from breaking eye contact with Sachano. He leaned off his locker and his hands were in his pockets. Really, Sachano looked kind of nervous but I ignored that for the time being.
"What's up Irin? You look like you just ran a mile or something." Sachano asked me with a short laugh along with a comment while studying my stressed out form.
Just staring at Sachano reminded me so much of Joel. Joel's words repeated in my mind and I could feel tears gather in my ruby eyes again, but I held it back. Sachano must have noticed because a concern look showed upon his handsome face.
Not wanting to wait any longer, I ran up to Sachano and put my arms wrapped around his neck. My lips touched his soft ones as the tears finally ran down my cheeks silently. Sachano was a little shocked about this action, but relaxed a little and held me close around my waist with his strong arms.
No more crying about the pain in my heart. No more thinking of the past. No more worrying. Joel and me are free now. Joel, thank you. For everything.
Our kiss turned from passionate to lust as my back contacted the lockers and I pressed up against it by Sachano. I moaned at the feeling of Sachano's tongue inside my mouth and I couldn't help but fight him with my own.
This feeling...Is this was love feels like? Lust? I'm not sure. But I'm sure to find out soon enough. As long as Sachano is by my side, I will forever belong to him.
Maybe I'll find out what love feels like once again. Just like I did with Joel.
In between the kisses, I pulled away from Sachano a little and stared into his eyes. He stared into my own and we were both panting heavily.
"Sachano?"
"Yes, Irin?"
Instead of leaning up to kiss him, I leaned my head on Sachano's shoulder and hugged him close to me. I knew Sachano was a little surprised at this but listened to what I had to say. What I said next made us both smile with joy and relief.
"Thank you."
TBC
Revised chapter of 8 is finished! Review please!
