Love to Hate You
Chapter 8
A Dream Is a Wish Your Heart Makes
Casey watched Derek's chest go up and down as he slept. Something had changed about Derek in her eyes. He was different. Everything was different. Derek stirred and Casey realized that she was still watching Derek.
"What are you doing?" Derek's voice rang in her eyes and she tried to come up with a good excuse for watching him sleep. "Casey?" Derek asked, groggily.
"Um…yeah?" Casey looked down at Derek and swallowed. She didn't know what to say to him. The words wouldn't form for Casey.
"What are you doing?" Derek's usual scowl when someone woke him up and kept him up turned into a small smile as Casey looked nervous. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah…Are you?" Casey looked down at Derek he yawned and maneuvered so he was now sitting up on his bed. He motioned her Casey to sit down.
"No, I'm not okay," Derek looked at Casey's raised eyebrows. "And I don't know what to do. Everyday my heart breaks a little more. It shatters into a thousand pieces, but then it repairs it's self every time I see you smile. And when I realize that the smile isn't for me; it breaks again," Derek's looked at Casey's wide eyes.
"There's something about you, Casey. You're like no girl I've ever met. You are so much more. So much better. It seems like all these girls I date; I have this thing where I go and think about what I can change to make them better, but with you, everything already perfect."
"Derek…" Her voice trailed off as he continued.
"Its like when everything is dark you light my way. And when it rains you make it sunshine. There's nothing to fix," he paused, watching her face light up. "I know you could never feel this way about me but I just had to let you know."
"I don't know what to say…" Casey bit her lip trying to keep herself from smiling and looking too excited.
"I've had this, I don't know, crush on you since the day we met. It's like love at first sight," he looked at Casey intently to see if she was smiling and she was. "I know it's not love yet, but I'm sure it will be some day. If you give me the chance I will be what you always needed."
"Are you serious?" It was too good to be true for Casey.
"Why would I lie about this? Why would I lie about the one thing that can always make me smile?"
"Derek, I don't know—"The fear in Casey's voice was obvious.
"I have feelings for you. And I think we should—"
Then Casey woke up, startled. Her head shot up as she smacked her alarm clock. She looked around Derek or any other sign that she wasn't dreaming. She rubbed the sleep from her eyes. Casey bit her lip and stared over and Derek, who was fast asleep.
Suddenly, Casey felt hot tears stinging her face. She brought her legs up to her chest and hugged him. Derek still hadn't moved. It was all a dream. Derek didn't love her. Those are the things she wanted him to say and he wouldn't say them. She felt her heart breaking and felt a pang of emptiness in her stomach.
She tried to sooth the pain by clutching her stomach and stifling her tears but that just made it worse. Maybe Sam cheating on her had finally cracked her because when she was with Sam there was someone always there. She had used him as a distraction. She didn't feel the way she thought she did about Sam. Sam knew too, that's most likely why he cheated on her. He knew it wasn't the same as when they first started to date. And just like Casey was using Sam as a distraction he was using Brooke as a distraction.
Casey wasn't that hurt about what Sam had done. Yeah, it broke her heart but compared to what Derek did to her everyday it was nothing. It wasn't like Derek tried to hurt her, he didn't even know. Casey sat up and went into the kitchen to get something to eat. Maybe eating would make her forget about her dream.
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Derek leaned in and kissed her on his bed. He felt her hands roaming around on his back and her lips and tongue moved frantically. Derek put his hands on her face and pushed her closer to him.
Then she did the one thing that she had been dying to for so long. She ran her hands though his dark brown hair. Derek's tongue fought with her tongue as their hands moved all over each other's bodies. Derek claimed on top of her with every intention to get laid.
"Casey…" He moaned her name and she replied but kissing harder and more passionate. He wanted her now. He wanted her more than ever. He needed to know if she wanted to him.
Just as their shirts were coming off, Derek woke up. He was breathing heavy and sweating. He looked around. Casey was no where to be found. She defiantly wasn't in his bed. Her bed was unmade so Derek assumed she had gotten up to use the bathroom.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair and stared as her unmade bed with a broken look on his face. All Derek could feel was emptiness as struggled to go back to sleep. He tossed and turned for awhile. His mind went back to Sam. He clenched his teeth remembering how bad he had hurt Casey.
Sam was going to die. He knew Casey was still hurt and he it was killing him. Even if she spent the rest of her life with Sam and she was happy, he would be happy. Though, he preferred that Casey be happy with him. But at least she would be happy. What Casey didn't know is that Sam and was still dating Brooke and Derek had cheated on numerous girls. But then again he never did have a relationship like Sam and Casey. If he had a relationship with Casey he wouldn't be one to mess it up. Derek stood up and walked to the kitchen for a midnight snack. He hoped it would take his mind off Casey, who still wasn't back yet.
Derek stumbled into the kitchen and almost ran into Casey. He felt like he had two left feet, after he landed on top of Casey. Sometime they had both muttered sorry, but both were too caught up in the fact that Derek was on top of Casey showing no signs of getting up anytime soon.
He stared at her eyes with the same intent look he had when they were in the car. She couldn't take her eyes off of him either. They had both forgotten they were on the floor until Nora came in.
"Derek? Casey? What are you doing?" She looked from Derek to Casey with confusion in her eyes. Even though she was wearing a very short robe and under that a very sexy nightgown Derek still stared at Casey. The two teens scrambled to get up.
"Derek made me fall down!" Casey looked at Derek but her expression wasn't the same one she always had when she was yelling at him. It was much softer, almost nice.
"Yeah. Sorry. It's dark and I couldn't see. I'm sorry," The two ladies looked at each other utterly shocked. Derek walked away sneaking a last peak at Casey before going back to their bedroom.
"What was that?" Nora asked her daughter who looked just as surprised as her. But Casey wasn't showing the happiness that filled her up before Nora had entered the kitchen.
"I don't know," Casey rubbed her eyes. "Well, I'm going back to bed. 'Night mom," Casey kissed her mother before going back to her room. The two teens didn't say anything to each other after that. But you say so much when you don't say anything at all.
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Casey stuffed her books into her locker, carelessly. She had seen Sam earlier that day with Brooke. And Emily revealed to her that they were dating. Emily was shocked to see that Casey didn't mind. Her mind was on her dream about her and Derek.
Emily walked up to her and Casey's locker with a smile plastered on her face. "Hey, Case," she smiled at her best friend.
"Hey, Em," Casey looked at her best friend debating asking her what a dream meant. "Em, what do you think a dream is?"
"Well…" Emily looked deep in thought. "I think a dream is a wish your heart makes," Emily smiled and Casey nodded numbly. "Why?"
"I don't know. Just wondering." Casey didn't know what to say after that. Maybe her dream was wish she had. But it was probably wasn't anything. Casey sighed and went though the rest of the day ignoring her dream and trying not to think about Derek.
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In the locker room Derek looked over and Brett Thompson. "Hey, Brett," Derek slapped hands with him and Brett did the same.
"Hey, D man," both Brett and Derek smiled at Derek's nickname. "So what's up?" Brett pursed his lips and looked at Derek. Derek wondered if he should ask Brett what his dream meant.
"What do you think a dream is?" Derek looked around hoping no one would hear him besides Brett. Derek was expecting Brett to look at him like he was crazy but he didn't he just looked deep in thought.
"Man, haven't you ever heard that song? A dream is a wish your heart makes?" Brett looked at Derek for indication. Derek simply nodded.
"Yeah, I heard it," he paused. "So you're saying that when I dream I'm making a wish?" Derek raised his eyebrows expecting Brett to look at him like he was crazy again but he just nodded. Derek closed his eyes sighed. This meant that kissing Casey was his wish. He sighed and went through the rest of the day thinking about what Brett said and he decided it was true. He just wondered what Casey and everyone else would think.
A dream is a wish…
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will lose you heartaches
Whatever you wish for you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come shining though
No matter how your heart is grieving if you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true
Hey yeah, yeah, hey yeah, yeah
Hey yeah, yeah, hey yeah, yeah
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're feeling small
Alone in the night you whisper
Thinking no one can hear you at all
You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow for all you know tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true
Hey yeah, yeah, hey yeah, yeah
Hey yeah, yeah, hey yeah, yeah
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're are fast asleep
In dreams you will lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for you keep
You wake with the morning sunlight
TO find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow for all you know tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart (A dream is a wish)
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart
When you can dream then you can start
A dream is a wish you make with your heart (A dream is a wish)
