Disclaimer: I do NOT own CSI, but for this little bit, I wish I did.
Okay, this is my all time favourite song. If I ever get married I want this to be one of my wedding songs. I've loved it since the first time I watched Three Men and a Little Lady, about 21 years ago.
Lyrics of Life
'I can't love you this much, baby, and love you from this far.'
I haven't felt this excited for a long time.
I can't wait to tell Sara.
The look on her face will be priceless.
She'll cry.
I know she will.
Hell, even I might cry.
I haven't seen her for over six weeks.
The longest six weeks of my life.
I miss her terribly.
We love eachother so much, but the distance between us is becoming a nuisance. Our monthly get togethers are part of a routine now, and that's not what our marriage was supposed to be.
Sitting patiently on my cot, wrapped in my sleeping bag and with Hank at feet, I stare at the screen waiting for a 'pop-up' telling me that Sara has logged in. "Come on, sweetheart, don't keep me waiting."
Just as I start to shuffle some files away I see her face light up my screen.
"I'm sorry I'm late." she smiles.
She wearing nothing but a towel, well... two with the one on top of her head.
I groan.
She's killing me here.
"Hi, honey. How are you? How's everything?" I ask.
"Okay. Lonely, but okay. I haven't been home long. Tough case. Anyway, how are you? How's Peru? How's Hank? I miss you both so much." she says, in one long breath.
My heart flutters a little in my chest and I can feel a grin creeping across my face. I don't want to tell her yet, I want to surprise her before we disconnect.
"What's with the grin?
I watch her lean to the side and vigorously rub her hair dry. She throws her head back and her now curly hair falls around her face.
She looks beautiful.
And it suddenly hits me.
How the hell could I be so stupid?
How could I allow us to live hundreds of miles apart?
We're married for crying out loud.
"Nothing, just my heart still flutters when you tell me that." I smile.
She tries to return my smile, but I can see the sadness behind her eyes.
"Honey, what's wrong?" I ask.
She sighs. "It's just...it's hard. I wasn't too bad at first but it's getting harder. Everytime time we say 'goodbye', all I want to do I cancel my flight and stay in your arms. But...I can't."
"I know what you mean." I whisper, barely audible.
Okay, now is the time to tell.
I can't hold back any longer.
"Listen, do you think you might be able to sneak away from work for an hour or two tomorrow night?" I ask, a smile pulling at my lips.
"Err... Yeah, I don't see why not. Why?
"Because I need someone to pick me and Hank up from the airport at about 1am."
"Yeah, sure." she replies.
My heart sinks at her response.
I was hoping she'd... be happier.
Thrilled, actually.
Suddenly she does a double take.
"Wait. What did you say?"
Now I smile.
"I'm coming home, Sara. For good." I state, nodding my head towards the web cam.
I hear her take a sharp breath, and for a moment she zones out.
I sit smiling, awaiting her response.
"Breathe, Sara." I laugh.
I see her eyes fill with tears. It's like watching a glass being filled up with water.
"I... I... home? You're coming home? For good?"
I hear her breath catch in her throat.
"I am." I whisper.
My eyes fill with tears at the sight of my wife's spilling over.
Damn, I knew I'd cry.
She's turned me into a complete softy.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
"Promise?"
My heart melts.
"I promise." I reply. "I can't love you properly from this far away. I want to love you from within the same city, the same house. "
"I...I...I'm..." she stammers.
I chuckle.
"So...Is that a 'yes'?"
She nods her head.
"Yes. Yes. Hell yes." she cries.
I hear a rustling outside my tent and I look towards the open flap. Someone's trying to get my attention.
I groan.
"Sweetheart, I'm sorry, I have to go. I'll see you really soon, okay."
"Okay. Stay safe. Have a good flight. I love you, Gil."
My heart flutters again.
"I love you, too." I reply
We disconnect and I sit and stare at the blank screen for a little longer, smiling.
I'm finally going home.
I'm finally going back to where my heart lies.
The song is: Boy Meets Girl – Waiting For A Star To Fall.
If anyone's reading this, Thank You. If not, well... I'm still enjoying writing it anyway.
There's too much talking in this one, Since I arrived home from work I seem to have lost my mojo. :(
Lynne xo
