"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there."

Everything was gone. Everything…it just didn't exist. How can anything exist if you can't feel it? How can it comfort you, hurt you, touch you if it doesn't exist? And it won't exist as long as you don't care—not caring equaled not getting hurt…right?

So, if you won't—can't feel, are you supposed to hear? Isn't "numb" the equality of nothingness? Sound is definitely something, so Arthur shouldn't have heard the voices, the whispering voices inside his head…right?

Maybe he wasn't numb and gone.

No, that thought was horrifying. Feeling meant facing…facing…something. What was it that he was afraid to stand up to? He was guilty of something…ashamed of it too. What was it? What was it his heart wanted to remember so badly, yet his mind rebelled against it?

"We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."

He wished his father was there. But no, he had died two weeks previous.

Wait—

Oh God, his father was dead. But Arthur remembered…he remembered speaking to him just a few minutes ago.

No, it must have been at least a day ago by now.

But that didn't make any sense. Arthur distinctly remembered dining with Uther; it was the last thing he recalled, so it must've been the last thing he had done that night, so his father must have been alive…right?

No, a voice, his own mind whispered. You know that's not true. Your father is dead and you know it.

"Arthur," a memory came to the front of Arthur's mind. "Arthur, the king…your father is dead."

And that…that was the God's honest truth. It was what was real. He was alone…and when he woke up, he would remember it—he would be real. Does being real include feeling? No—of that, Arthur was sure. Who needs feelings to live?

Right?

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No