A/N: Okay, next chapter, its getting closer and closer to reconciliation and the cute James/Lily fluff that we all love. But….of course we can't get to that without some amazing reviews from you guys. I appreciate you guys so much for reading, and if I promise a chapter for a certain amount of reviews I will always, always, always get it up for you. Okay. I'm looking for about 7 reviews for this one and you can have the next chapter. Please and thank you!

Lily didn't know how exactly she was expecting to get home. She didn't know where she was going in the least. She just knew that she had to walk. So she did, she walked quite a good many blocks until she realized that she was 20 years old and that she could very well legally apparate. She stopped for a few moments to gather her self. She didn't want any mishaps, which was likely because she'd taken the class an entire year ago.

She closed her eyes and before she knew it she was back at the potter home. She let out a deep breath, glancing around the room. She was in the nursery and her eyes immediately fell on the crib. She blinked and stared at the very empty crib for a long time.

Where was Harry? Had James taken him somewhere? Her heart was pounding incredibly fast. Her mind was going threw a thousand versions of worry. Then from behind her a flat voice said,

"He's with my parents." She turned around slowly to look at her husband.

"Hey…" she said softly.

He looked at her and she could see the tears shining in his eyes, that weren't falling yet.

"Where were you?" he said his voice cracking half way through the short sentence. Lily bit her lip.

"I won't lie…I was with Remus"

He nodded, but he refused to look at her. "Lily…what do you want me to do?"

She hadn't expected that question.

"What?" she said confused.

"I mean…what do you want from me? What am I doing wrong? I'll do absolutely anything. I can't lose you." The heartbreak in his voice was so clear. It hurt Lily to hear him speak.

"Do you want me to help with Harry more? Lily…please give me something…"

She looked at him and saw the plea in his eyes all he clearly wanted to do was please her…and it pained her that he couldn't.

"I don't think there's anything you can do James…"

He nodded slowly and placed a hand on her cheek. "I've always loved you Lily and I've never once had to question that. When we got married I pledged my love to you knowing that I would never dishonor that…can you say the same?"

She bit her down on her lip exceptionally hard for a moment.

"I don't know what's wrong with me James. I'm not this girl. I don't even know who this girl is. James…I haven't been completely honest with you…"

He snorted rolling his eyes slightly. "Well, I guessed that part, yeah."

She shook her head quickly. "No! Not the Remus part of things, James." She took a breath. "Four days ago I woke up and I was twenty. But five days ago…I was Seventeen." She said quickly.

James stared at her, his face showing a million different emotions in a minute.

"Lily…Are you…are you feeling okay?" He asked raising a brow.

She frowned, frustrated now, "Yes! I'm fine! Listen to me! The last thing I remember is you and I were supposed to be meeting in Professor Dumbledore's office, for a headboy and headgirl meeting, but you were late as always, and we got into a fight…" She shook her head,

"Then…I don't…I don't remember! I woke up here. I don't even remember falling asleep that day!" She crossed her arms over her chest thinking for a moment.

James tilted his head slightly.

"I don't even remember that. Lily, are you telling me this, so you can avoid talking about what is really happening here?" He shook his head.

"Because I honestly think you could come up with something better than some crazy completely unbelievable story to distract me from what's really going on-"

Lily was quick to cut him off mid-sentence.

"I hate you. I hate you with a fiery passion. You've asked me out 117 times since you've known me and I've never said yes once. Ever. You asked me to the Valentines Day dance in 3rd year and I threw pumpkin juice in your face. You sent me a singing card one year and I ripped it up in right in front of you! Last week you wrote me a poem and decided to perform it for the entire great hall, so I cursed you and got detention for the 2nd time in my entire school career. Do you understand me? I. Am. Seventeen. Years. Old."

James stared at her, blinking. "Yes, Lily, I remember all that too. I was there for it. You're being ridiculous. I know you don't want to talk about this but-"

Lily cut him off again with a frustrated noise.

"UGH! LISTEN to me!" She practically shrieked. "I don't know who you married. I'm not that Lily. I'm Lily Evans. I don't even remember our first date, because we haven't HAD one yet!"

He crossed his arms over his chest staring at her. "We…" He frowned. "We had a picnic." He said softly.

Lily blinked. "A…a picnic?"

He nodded once. "Yes. A picnic. I asked you right after…" He paused for a full moment, his face overcome with realization. Lily frowned up at him.

"What? You asked me after what?"

He stared at her for a long minute and then said very quietly.

"After a headboy and girl meeting that I was late for…" He looked away for a moment and then back at her.

"You were really angry…talking really fast…So I just slipped it in. 'Do you want to have lunch with me, Evans?'" He shook his head. "You said yes without thinking…" He bit down on his lip, and then he looked back up at her.

"You're Seventeen…" He said in a whisper.

She nodded. "I'm Seventeen."

He closed his eyes for a moment, slowly sitting down. "You…don't remember…getting married…or…having Harry…" He was speaking mostly to himself, but Lily was nodding anyway.

"This doesn't make any sense…then why…with Remus…" He shook his head.

Lily knelt down in front of him. "I don't know! I wish I could remember everything but I can't. It hurts because…I don't know what's going on. I don't know anything and I don't want to hurt you…or anyone for that matter but I am and I'm confused and I'm sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen…" She said all this as tears started flowing down her cheeks.

James pulled her into his chest. "Aw Lily, It's okay. Don't…um…" He said sounding, still even more confused. "Listen, we'll figure this out okay? You must just be so completely confused." He was remembering exactly how seventeen year old Lily would remember him. He remembered that it wouldn't be his most shining moments, and he cringed.

"Lils, I am so sorry."

Lily sniffed, shaking her head. "Look at you apologizing. I'm the one who apparently is messing around with your best friend."

He grinned, for some reason, the fact that she was 17, was making it easier to deal with.

"Yeah. Can I ask you something?"

Lily sniffed again and then nodded.

"Would you like to understand? I mean…understand why you're here? I really don't want you to think that I…hoodwinked you…or…something." He bit down on his lip. "I know…it must be really weird for you. You…only remember hating me. You've just sort of skipped over the falling in love with me part…" He laughed lightly, but it wasn't joyful laughter. It was sort of sad.

"You must think I…gave you a love potion or something. You remember completely hating me and then you come here when were having one of our more difficult times…" He shook his head, sighing.

"But I can show you. If you'd like to see…Just the parts you missed."

Lily blinked, she hadn't been expecting this. Him to be so nice to her. She'd kept a huge secret from him, she was running away from him, right into Remus' arms and being completely ridiculous. But he was so ridiculously nice.

She wiped her tears with the back of her hand.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" She said with a sniff.

He gave her a small smile. "Because Lil, Even at seventeen I was completely in love with you."

She couldn't take her eyes away from him for a long moment. She believed him. It was the first time she'd ever believed him and he'd said I love you more times than she could count.

"I'd really like to see." She said biting down on her lip. He nodded, standing up and holding out his hand for her to take.

"Lily, do you know what a Pensieve is?" He asked raising a brow.