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Xanxus
He should hate her. He should despise her for being so weak, for being everything he hates. He should want to kill her for taking the title that was supposed to be his. But just because he should doesn't mean he does.
When she sees him for the first time she is terrified of him. She knows she can't beat him, they both do. Throughout the ring battles she watches him. Watches as he laughs at his own mens pain, watches as he doesn't do a thing to encourage them. She sees it all. Funny how she doesn't hate him for it or blame him. It was how he grew up probably surrounded by the dark world of the Mafia. He never looks at her; as if she is beneath his notice, not worthy to be the tenth and not worthy of his attention. It doesn't bother her because she's used to being ignored it's a part of being No-good Tsuna and she excepts it. All she wants is for the battles to be over with. Sure Reborn is training her and she can feel herself growing but deep down she knows she doesn't have the resolve to fight him and win.
Until the cloud match. Until she sees the broken body of the ninth sprawled out on the floor. Then something inside her clicks and she has the will to beat him. There is no way she will let him be tenth. Of course she still doesn't want to but she can't let Xanxus become head of the Vongola.
Finally they fight. So similar yet so different. Both heirs to the Vongola family boss, both fighting for something important to them, both of them are leaders people will die for and both fight with everything they have. But their reasons for fighting are completely opposite just like their personalities. But the scariest thing to Tsuna is that had she grown up in the world of the Mafia she could have turned out like him.
As their battle goes on he looses his cool and the power of his anger starts to show. She is quickly finding herself overwhelmed. But she doesn't quit. Not when so many people are depending on her. Not when she thinks about what happened to Lambo and how he let Squalo die for loosing to Yamamoto. She knows that he is surprised by her resistance but he only fights her harder. Then she uses her Zero Point Breakthrough. As the ice begins to encase him she can't help but feel sorry for him. The scars on his face are visible and she hates knowing that after her attack there may be more. For a second their eyes meet. His burning with anger, hers brimming with sorrow both full of pain.
The next hour passes in a blur as they learn the truth about his birth and once again her heart goes out to him. What must it have felt like? To be raised with your head full of dreams and an ambition only for it to be stolen away by someone you trusted. In that moment she can see why he did that to the ninth. She doesn't think it was right but she can understand. Just before she falls unconscious she meets his red gaze once more. Those piercing eyes are the last things she sees before darkness consumes her.
For a while her life goes back to normal or as normal as it can be. She knew it wouldn't last and she is right. They are sent to the future to battle a super powered psycho trying to take over the world and she sees him again. He's changed but also stayed the same. She can't help but feel glad that the Varia are still alive. Insane or not they are still part of the Vongola and their relationship at least seems to have improved some what. They meet at the final battle. Byakuran has been defeated and the arcobaleno restored. Her family is still alive and well but all she wants is to return home and get some sleep.
Shoichi Irie is about to send them home. Reborn is perched on her shoulder and the others have said their goodbyes. She looks up and they lock gazes. Every muscle in her body locks in place. The old fear starts to rise up until she realises that there is a difference. His eyes are still strong and hold the same arrogance but the anger, at her, is gone. Instead there is a mixture of loss and...longing? Before she can begin to understand pink smoke fills her vision and they are back.
It begins to effect her dreams and soon sleep becomes impossible. The questions are buzzing around in her brain and for some reason she can't let it go. Why would he look at her like that? She keeps it form the others and goes on with her life. After 2 years the Ninth asks her and her guardians to spend 1 week with the Varia in order to "improve their relationship" she guesses that means sort something out so that they can at least work together. Her guardians give a mixed reaction but agree mainly thanks to Hibari threatening Gokudera he will bite him to death he doesn't go.
Personally she is terrified but it is an order and maybe she can get some answers. The first day is not promising; Belphegor gets Gokudera angry and there is a lot of knives being thrown and explosions, Squalos' first reaction is to ambush Yamamoto with his sword and Levi tries to kill her by glaring and proudly wearing a flag saying he doesn't support the tenth. Lussuria is actually quite nice and she finds it easy to talk to the man, weirdly enough she also gets along with Mammon even though it will probably cost her the entire amount in her bank. They don't see Xanxus and she is glad, one can only be called scum and trash so many times.
The next day she goes for a walk round the area, Squalos' constant VOOOIIIIIs' are annoying her and hurting her ears. The forest is really quite beautiful. She releases Nuts and continues down the path. Her lion rests in her arms purring as she strokes it. They come to a clearing and she lays on the floor. Everything is just so peaceful and her eyes begin to close, Nuts yawns and stretches himself out across her chest. Slowly she falls into a slumber. The red eyes stare back at her and her dreams begin to turn black with blood and death. With a gasp she awakens only to meet the same pair of eyes in her dreams. He stands over her like some mighty overlord and her heart jumps to her throat. Her lying on the floor in a pair of dirty jeans and T-shirt is not how she wanted to see him again.
"What are you doing here trash?" His voice is just as cutting as it was during the ring battle and she winces.
"I-I wanted to take a walk and got d-distracted. Guess I was pretty tired." He snorts and turns away. She pushes herself off the ground and Nuts makes a noise of protest. He gives another snort as he glares at her lion.
"That pathetic animal is your box weapon?" Her cheeks colour and a frown settles on her face.
"Yes he is. Do you have a problem with that."
"The boss of the Vongola shouldn't carry a weak creature like that. But it fits its owner." She scowls and he actually looks amused at this. She has had a growth spurt and now comes up to his nose.
"Nuts is actually very strong in battle."
"So you say but that thing in your arms is not a lion scum." She glares and he points beside him. "This is a lion." Her eyes follow and she sees the huge white lion standing beside him. It's huge and powerful. Nuts takes one look at it and tries to bury into her arms.
The lion approaches her and strangely she isn't scared of it. As far as she is concerned her fight with its master is over with. Slowly she reaches out a hand and strokes its head were Nuts likes to be stroked. It gives out a purr and becomes putty in her hand. She gives a laugh hit is just a slightly bigger version of Nuts though she can sense the dual energy of sky and storm running through him.
"He doesn't seem that scary." She looks up to see him glaring at her but there is confusion in his tone.
"Bester doesn't like anyone. He growls at most of the scum here and tries to eat that sword idiot a lot. What the hell did you do?" She blinks and shrugs her shoulders.
"I don't know. Maybe he just likes me." He shakes his head and walks away.
"Try not to get lost again princess." the nickname is spoken with contempt but at least it's an improvement.
The lion licks her fingers and leaves. A small smile appears on her face. Their first meeting alone and she's still alive. Maybe this trip won't be so bad after all. When she gets back to the castle Lussuria sweeps her off her feet to go shopping for the big ball tomorrow night. He somehow wrangles Mammon into coming and it is one of the surrealist moments of her life. She merely nods her head as her arms become full of clothes only for Mammon to take them away as they are too expensive. It is quite fun watching them argue, similar to Gokudera and Yamamoto. She feels pleased that Mammon won't die in the future.
Finally they settle on a strapless purple dress that stops below her knees and has a slit down the sides. Lussaria makes her promise she'll wear it and that he can do her hair and make up. It is very hard to say no to the smiling man. Mammon just tells her to deal with it.
She sees the liger again and just like before it seems to enjoy her company and petting. She fails to notice the sharp red eyes watching her every move. She speaks to it about nothing and absently strokes its fur.
The night of the ball comes and the Ninth has arrived to make sure his successor is still breathing and to see his adopted son who he does still care about. Her guardians are scattered across the room though Hibari seems a little too close to Chrome then normal. Reborn is sat on Bianchis' lap and she is feeding him and the Varia are thinking of ways to make it more interesting.
Her stomach is a bundle of nerves she has never worn anything like this before. What makes it worst is that because it took so long she has to go in alone. Her hair has been straightened and some of it has been pinned into a fancy bun with the rest falling down her back. The corset underneath seems too tight and the tall strappy heels feel weird after wearing trainers. She swallows and fingers the necklace she wears it is a simple chain with the Vongola crest. Taking a deep breath she steps into the hall. There is a silence. She looks around to see everybody focusing on her. This is her first really public appearance to the Vongola and she tries to look dignified as she walks down the stairs, which she can do thanks to Reborns training.
She is swept up in a whirlwind of activity as people introduce themselves and compliment her on her appearance. She tries to remember as many faces as she can. Gokudera says she is the loveliest in the room and then glares at anyone who says the same. Her guardians hover round her as men seem to swarm her and more than one leaves with a bleeding nose or black eye. Slipping away she stands at the side watching the couples dance across the hall.
"Tch. I don't know why you put up with that scum." She turns and looks at him. Dressed in a plain black suit she admits to herself that he looks handsome despite the scaring, if anything they add to his image. She smiles slightly.
"Someone has to and if I'm going to be boss I'll be dealing with people I don't like."
"Thought you didn't want to be boss?" She smiles and looks away.
"I didn't but 2 years ago I had an experience. I realised that the boss is the one with the power to change. I want to try and change it for the better."
"The Mafia has been the same for hundreds of years the only thing that changes is the weaponry. One boss can't change that."
She smiles brightly at him and he looks a bit taken aback. "Maybe not. But I can try." He looks her up and down and she feels a blush start to rise in her cheeks. She crosses her arms and looks away. The music becomes slow and she groans as she sees a number of males turn to her eagerly. An idea forms in her head as she looks at Xanxus.
"Dance with me." He stares at her as if she's gone crazy.
"What?"
"Look I really don't want to dance with any of them but I don't want to appear rude (he shakes his head again) I can't see my friends anywhere so will you please?" She holds out her hand and he takes. But instead of taking her to the floor he glares at the men hoping to dance with her and drags her out onto a near balcony.
"Waa! What was that for?" She cries as he yanks her outside.
"I don't dance princess." He states and leans against the wall. "But if you want some privacy now is the time to enjoy it." She shakes her head and turns to stare at the sky.
"You didn't have to glare at them."
"I could have shot the trash." She laughs again, even though she shouldn't.
"I don't know how you see the world Xanxus." her voice is quiet in the night.
"That's easy. In this world only the strong can rule, they have to look out for themselves, there is no place for kindness or other useless things. Only trash and scum have them and that makes them weak." She spins around and walks up to him.
"But I beat you." The 4 words that she should not have spoken come out of her mouth and she doesn't feel sorry. His scars begin to show and he backs her up against the wall.
"Say that again princess and you'll be very sorry." She bites her lip and meets his angry glare with an even stare, after all she's seen and heard he doesn't frighten her.
"I beat you." He growls but she doesn't back down.
"Bad choice princess." His mouth crashes down on hers. Her eyes widen with shock before closing as pleasure takes over. His kiss sets her body on fire and she pulls him closer. His hands pin her to the wall and he holds nothing back. Dominant. Strong. Controlling. Everything she is not but she accepts it all and wants more. He breaks it and stares at her with those red eyes that frightened and intrigued her so long ago.
"I'm not going to stop so if you don't want this start running or find someone to stop me." She stares at him before a slow seductive smile spreads across her face. She leans against him and whispers into his ear.
"A Vongola boss runs from nothing." He snarls and cages her in his arms. He jumps form the balcony upwards towards the bedrooms.
He never tells her he loves her, not even on their wedding day. The ninth thanks her for caring for him and her father bawls his eyes out and clutches her to him. Of course her guardians don't approve but there is nothing they can do and they slowly accept it after threatening him with a painful death many times. The Varia are stunned and when he tells them who he is marrying even Squalo is silent. Lussuria helps her plan the wedding and she can't help but think that he should have been born a girl. It is perfect for her but he still doesn't say it. How ever there is a new rule in the Varia: if anyone talks badly about the tenth boss AKA Xanxus's wife then they will be shot and beaten up very badly. It takes time but they do warm to her, even Levi and he makes a new pledge to protect his beloved boss's family.
He doesn't have to say I love you because she feels it every time he touches her.
They fight at times but it usually ends in them both lying naked on the bed with her muttering "I'm still mad at you" into his shoulder. It isn't long before there is another edition to their odd family. She becomes pregnant. Hormones are not nice. Not only is she a pregnant woman with a difficult husband but she is also the head of a Mafia family. She wonders how Daniela (Vongola Otavo and the mother of the ninth) did it.
It brings out her anger and someone is seen being punched down the hall at least once a day in the final few months. Xanxus doesn't make it easier by practically locking her in the headquarters. She knows he is just keeping her safe but she wants to knee him in the groin.
Finally it is over and as she sits up in the hospital bed she breathes a sigh of relief. Before the doctors hand her her daughter. Then all she feels is love. Love for the tiny child in her arms. The baby has black hair but big brown eyes. She gurgles and takes in the world. When she hands her over to Xanxus it is the first time he actually looks nervous. He takes her gently, hands that have killed and caused pain now cradle his child with care and love.
The visitors pour in. Though she nearly has a heart attack when Belphegor starts juggling knives around her daughter. Reborn watches over the newborn with a protectiveness she rarely sees in him. They name her Karina. As she watches the fiercest men and women in the Mafia coo at her daughter all she can think is that she fears the time when Karina is a teenager and she can meet the idiot stupid enough to try and date her. She can just see the bloodbath.
He squeezes her hand under the covers. Let the pretty girls have their normal men, the boys next door type she didn't want someone nice, gentle and sweet. She wanted someone masculine, tough and strong. They are complete opposites yet she wouldn't want it any other way.
AN: OK so a little longer than usual but I'm quite proud of this one. I may try and do a threesome next time. What do you guys think about lemons? Thank you for the reviews. I hope you enjoy.
