Ace POV

I keep questioning what I was thinking, I knew the moment he walked into my place he was out of his mind, Yet I gave into an attraction, a primal urge, I am after all only human and very flawed and Punk is a beautiful son of a bitch. I told myself I was just teaching him a lesson, the Punk I know would never have a one night stand, or cheat on someone he loves. Yet he is not the Punk I know right now and I took advantage and now I feel like shit. He is sleeping on my couch after having his stomach pumped and spending the night in the emergency room they released him. He is oddly quiet for him, he didn't talk at all on the way back to my place, he seemed very deep in thought and I am hoping that means he is realizing what he is doing, and what could have happened last night. We need to have a talk, when he is in a better frame of mind, I need to apologize for my behavior. I almost wish what he said on the phone was the truth that he wouldn't go back to Raven. That he wanted to be with me, hell I would throw myself head first into a relationship with him if it meant the Punk I know would return.

I've known Punk long enough to know when he is lying by the tone in his voice, and I know he lied on the phone, hell when he got to my apartment he was lying. I hate myself for giving in and that is most likely why I waited to call Colt until we arrived back at my place. I reassured the man that Punk was going to be fine, but he is still on the way and I need to prepare myself I can not allow Colt to ever find out about what happened last night it would ruin our friendship. I've known for a while that Colt has feelings that are beyond friendly for Punk, hell I think everyone knows including Punk. I feel like I betrayed both of them, I've always been their protector, defending them, pushing them, teaching them. Now I've used Punk (although he was using me) and hurt Colt in a way I never imagined which is why he can never know.

By the time there is a knock at my door I am a wreck if I don't pull it together then Colt will know without me telling him. I take several deep breaths and pull open the door allowing Colt to enter along with Joe. I raise an eyebrow at the man's presence and glance to Colt. "We were hanging out when you called" in other words they were fucking, they have been fuck buddies for a while and no one questions the relationship. I think for Colt it is a matter of convince and Joe I'm not really sure of his motives. I am almost certain Punk doesn't know about the casual encounters between the two, if he did I think there would be more animosity between Punk and Joe. Yes I think there is some underlying feelings on Punk's part to Colt but Punk is stubborn and so fixated on raven he does not see what is in front of his face.

"Punk's asleep right now, passed out as soon as we got back from the ER." Colt walked over to the couch inspecting Punk with his eyes and sighing deeply. He glances at me and then takes a seat on the floor in front of the couch taking Punk's hand and just holding it.

"Why didn't you call sooner I would have come to the ER?" I shrug and take a seat in the recliner while Joe sits on the floor close to Colt.

"I didn't want you to spend the whole night worrying, the EMT's already told me he was going to be fine it was just a matter of getting the crap out of his system, his vitals were strong. He took a lot of the shit but because his system isn't use to it, he reacted to what others would use regularly. I promise there was no reason to call" Plus I needed to get my head together before I called anyone, figure out what to say if anyone ever found out what happened.

"He has really gone off the rails hasn't he?' Joe spoke softly as he studied Punk with concern "So what are we going to do?" No answers came, because in reality we never thought we would face this with Punk. The self doubts, the insecurities, the pissed off attitude we all know how to deal with but this was a whole new level and we are at a loss. This is self destruction in a way we can't seem to figure out or understand, the Punk we knew would never sacrifices himself for a relationship yet we are watching in happen in front of our own eyes. "Well obviously Raven is playing head games with Punk, so why don't we put ourselves in the picture. Give him a choice Raven or the rest of us, make him see what he has to lose." Colt and I both shake are heads.

"Would never work, Punk would give us up and look at it as more people leaving, giving up on him. He has abandonment issues so he would just lash out at all of us. I think we actually need to do the opposite, Raven seems to want to push us all away from Punk so he needs him more. So we should insert ourselves very firmly in his life, hell in his relationship to the point Raven knows we are not going anywhere." Colt is probably right but haven't I inserted myself into Punk's relationship enough after last night, I kind of would love Joe's idea to work. I notice Punk is stirring and making a motion with my hand for everyone to drop it, we can not discuss the game plan in front of Punk. When those green orbs open he glances around slowly taking in everyone, with a deep breath he sits up tugging Colt off the floor and beside of him. Joe wrinkles his nose when Punk snuggles into Colt's side and I wonder if there isn't more going on for Joe then there is for Colt.

"Ace I'm sorry for last night, for all of it, I wasn't thinking and I shouldn't have done what I did." Okay I want Punk to shut up, we so don't need to talk about it in front of everyone.

"It's okay lets not discuss it right now you still look tired try and get some rest." Colt is studying Punk and I really hope the man just lets it the fuck go. I have no such look as he decides to question Punk.

"What happened last night, decides you overdosing?" I shake my head at Punk praying to every deity in existence he keeps his mouth shut.

"I threw myself at Ace, he tried to turn me down but I was persistent because Raven asked me to be. I am so fucking stupid, Ace is right nobody is winning this mind fuck we have going on. I think I really need to let Raven go, it is so not worth feeling like this, or losing myself. Hell I am sitting here thinking I really want to forget last night, and a great way to do that would be to go have a few drinks.. Isn't that fucked up I got my stomach pumped and I want a fucking drink." Punk snuggles more into Colt, I wonder if he feels the tension that is so obviously streaming of the man in waves.

"Wait you threw yourself at Ace and he tried to turn you down? Just tried? Not succeeded?" Yup give Colt a gold star he put two and two together and the happy go lucky optimistic man I know is glaring daggers at me. I think the temperature in the room just dropped below freezing, at least for three of us. One of us is still toasty warm in Colt's arms.

"Yeah I mean it wasn't his fault mine really, no big deal won't happen again." Colt is no longer looking at me instead he is staring down at Punk.

"You don't have one night stands" he snaps and that catches Punk's attention he pulls back looking at Colt "What am I saying you don't do a lot of shit you seem to be embracing lately. What the fuck is wrong with you lately? Are you really so obsessed with a guy that you give up on your beliefs that fucking easy? Or is there more going on here, I am so tired of tip toeing around the issues with you lately. Man up, grow a pair, and fucking tell us what is going on because this can not all be about Raven. If it is then pathetic doesn't look good on you Punk. As far as you Ace we will have a conversation very soon, but not with the current audience." I nod knowing the inevitable is going to happen, however I am mainly studying Punk's face I can not usually read him well but now I am pretty sure a fight is looming.

"Really Colt, not in front of the current audience, why do the fuck do you even care that Ace fucked me? Huh why do you care? Right because you don't have the balls to tell me the truth instead you use Joe as my fucking substitute." Okay so I'm wrong Punk does know, I wonder when that happened. "I have a lot of shit going on in my life Colt that I don't run to you about, so sorry I can not be the eternally optimistic comedic sidekick. How about you man the fuck up and be honest because it's pathetic that you trail after me like a fucking puppy!" Okay defensive Punk is being evasive and I wonder what the other shit in his life is and make a mental note to figure it out later, now would be the complete wrong time.

"I don't fucking know what you mean Punk. I don't have to man up about anything and it is now obvious how you think of me." Colt stands and goes to walk towards the door but Punk is on his feet and in his path very quickly I move to the edge of my seat in case fists start flying and notice Joe standing to lean against the wall in a casual but alert position.

"What part didn't you get when I mentioned you fucking Joe, you reek of him right now. Forgot to take a shower before you came over? How long you been doing that? Or the fact that you have no fucking back bone. Ace took what he wanted, hell he bent me over the couch and fucked the hell out of me and I enjoyed every second of it. You would never fucking have the nerve to do that, instead you use some I don't even know what this is" He gestures towards Joe in anger, and I realize where his anger is coming from he just figured out they were fucking and he is being typical Punk and having a knee jerk reaction. Colt's hands are clenched and from my position I can not see his face but Joe is inching closer so I know it can not be good.

"Fuck you Phillip, you don't want me as a friend fine get the hell out of my way and I will leave, you've made it clear I am nothing more then a sidekick. What Joe and I are doing is really none of your business, you have Raven remember your letting him fuck up your life. So why don't you run along and go be a slut for him, or let Ace fuck you again. I could really care less I want nothing to do with either of you. You are very lucky we have an audience now or I would show you how much of a fucking man I am." Punk stands his ground inching in closer to Colt and I wondering what he is trying to achieve besides a black eye, I mean this conversation has been a long time coming but now they are both getting mean.

"My point exactly we are in the company of people who care about us but you still won't act. Hell whenever you want to talk about something important you get Ace to do it, you cower behind him to avoid my anger well your going to get my anger full force now Colt. Ace is not going to protect you. I fucking have had enough of this bull shit, you want me then fucking put effort into it. How many times have I been single and you've done absolutely nothing, how many times have I slept in your bed curled around you and not once did you make a move. I have no fucking clue if I have feelings for you because I am so busy trying to figure out your damn feelings for me. Stop being a chicken, stop being afraid you're not good enough, and if you really want me then think long and fucking hard about it and be prepared to bleed because I will hurt you in the end. Do not blame Ace for something that you want just as bad. You want to end this friendship fine, but you walk away and any chance you ever had is gone. Don't come back into my life because I really don't need friends who can't be honest." I really hope this is not going to end up with all of us torn between the two, they both have some valid points in their tirades.

"I don't have a chance with you Punk, remember you are in a relationship with Raven"

"Oh for fuck sakes man the hell up and take what you want. I'm breaking up with Raven since he lied to me about the fucking pills." Wait what lied about the pills?

"He did what?" Okay good Colt, get that information before it all explodes.

"He told me it was vicodin, according to the tox screen I had done confirmed it wasn't. This is why I ended up feeling like shit and quickly running out of energy to fight with you. Go or stay it is your call, just don't do something stupid and cut Ace out of your life for a mistake. I just wish you would be honest with me." Punk leans against my front door still blocking Colt's exit and I hold my breath, not sure what Punk's motive is for all of this and hoping it is not another mind game started by Raven. Breaking Colt's heart would make everyone turn there back on Punk when it's all a mind fuck.

"Man up, be honest, take what I want?" Punk nods and Colt moves in closer his hands braced on either side of Punk's head "How about you try fucking doing that yourself Phillip, I suggest you take a long look in the mirror before judging other people now." With that Colt's lips are on Punk's and I'm not sure who closed the distance. The kiss lasts for several long moments, it is not soft but a physical release for the anger lingering between the two. Colt pulls away and I see Punk chest heaving and a look on his face as he lifts his fingers too his lips. Confusion and desire cloudy those green orbs as Colt moves him gently away from the door. "I'm not staying here any longer, I'm going back to my place. When you figure out what the hell you want Punk come find me." Punk stands silent his fingers to his lips and I wonder if he is in shock, maybe Cabana knows hot to kiss that well.

I see a dawning on Punk's face and I wonder if it is a positive for Colt, or a negative. If it gets him away from Raven then I'll consider it a positive. "Fuck me" slips from Punk's mouth and I think been there, done that, got the t-shirt. It's a ride I never plan on going on again, too many twists and turns, flips and drops. I realize that is what Punk is a roller coaster and when you get on you better hold on tight because there is nothing strapping you to the seat and he may throw you off at any moment. The scariest, wildest, ride you will ever be on, and he is currently walking out my front door to chase after his best friend or return to his destruction. I wish I knew to where he was fleeing but I am in the dark and it is not a great place to be.


I felt that I needed to show some of what Punk's friends are thinking, and also needed to have the conversation with Colt outside of Punk's head so that is why the random Ace POV! Thank you for reading and please review!

lamentomori-I don't know if this really explains what Ace was thinking but I hope it helps. Trust me you'll want to hit Punk and hug him too before this is over! Birdie will have to deal with a very angry pup soon and the pup will not let you down. Birdie is in for a very rude awakening from the protective bear also. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

badgerlynne- More of punk's reasoning are going to come to light shortly, which will hopefully provide an explanation for his willingness to jump into the lifestyle of Raven. I think he is coming to some realization's in this chapter and seeing things a little clearer as long as he is being honest to the men.