Lavi's POV
I watched as my best friend ran out of the store. "Allen, wait! We need to talk about this." But no matter what I said he wouldn't turn around. He was a lot faster than me even though I was taller. When he was finally out of my sight and I realized what he had said to me.
I can't believe he really feels that way about me. I guess he was lot nicer than most people in the Organization but I thought that was just his personality. He would always help me with my sparring and try to help with research whenever Bookman assigned me to another tedious task. Never once did I think he had an ulterior motive, though he was being selfless the entire time. He just wanted my attention, my care, my love. And I couldn't see that until he finally broke.
Why do I have to be so ignorant of people's true feelings for me? While I was…"sick"…he helped me constantly getting food and keeping me away from Kanda. I love Allen but only as a brother. Maybe if I had just rejected Kanda after he said he was sorry, then I would have fallen for him eventually but I still love Kanda too much.
"Where'd the bean sprout go?" Kanda finally caught up to me.
"He had to leave," I replied. "Komui had an urgent message for him."
He looked at me, "Did something happen between you two?" Concern was evident in his voice but I couldn't tell Kanda that my best friend was in love with me.
"No, everything's fine, really. I still need to find a present for Allen. Would you mind helping me pick it out?" Though Kanda and Allen don't really agree with each other all the time the swordsman agreed to find a present for my friend.
We came upon a shop that sold figurine. From what Allen and told me about his past I remember him saying that his guardian…Mana was a clown. I held up two very similar figurines and asked Kanda if he knew which one he would like better.
"How should I know, usagi? He's your friend, most of the time I'm only around him 'cause you think we should get to know each other better." He frowned as he looked at the small carvings.
"Well you could at least give me some insight to what he doesn't like." I said with a pout, my bottom lip jutting out slightly. Kanda looked up from what he was doing and walked over, leaning down to kiss he said. "You really are adorable." He bit my lip softly and I gasped, letting his tongue enter my mouth. Encircling my own he started toying in my mouth.
I pulled back blushing and whispered, "Stop, Kanda this is a public place. It's not proper to do this out in the open."
He smirked at me, "Of course but it is a huge turn on." He laughed at the face I made.
I went back to looking at the two choices in front of me. "I think he'll like this one the best. It reminds me of the picture on his wall." I went to the cashier and paid for the tiny figure.
On the way back to headquarters I turned it carefully in my hands. Thinking of Allen and how everything might just go wrong. Now I can see what Bookman was telling me about; that feelings get in the ways and hurt people that would have never been hurt if you hadn't cared. Then I thought of all my friends and realized that I probably wouldn't be here without them caring for me. Everything was so confusing, I had the intellect but still couldn't put it together. Kanda sat across from me the entire time with a questioning look on his face.
Yay! I'm done with this chapter! I hope to get the next one in soon but until then byes! Oh, and please review, I need your inspiration…. :)
