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Chapter 8
POV: Jacob
I climbed into my Volkswagen Rabbit and began driving back to my house. I did not lie to her. I did not lie to her. I do need to go back to my place. I needed to get back to my place. I needed to. Ugh she would not understand. I am so frustrated. I have only ever been more frustrated once in my life.
_FLASHBACK_
Fuck. Stop thinking about that time. It is going to hurt me more in the long run. I could not stop myself from bringing up the memory of Bella. I remember her telling me to kiss her. Her lips against mine. Our future laid out before us. The possibility of our children. I could see it in her eyes as she threw that all away. My heart falling out of my chest, never feeling it again.
My heart feeling like it is being bitten and ripped then fed to the seagulls at a mcdonalds parking lot when I got the wedding invite. I took mine and dropped it in a puddle outside my father's house. That is what I thought of their wedding. Not worth the paper it was printed on. I phased and ran. I did not pay attention to where I was going or what I was doing. I was hunting animals to eat. In a way I doing the exact same thing bella would be doing soon enough when her heart stopped beating. I tuned that out.
Hey Jake how are you doing? Seth asked.
Ugh. Bella stop getting Seth to check in on me. It's so annoying you picked your life. You picked a life without me in it. You picked your life with that leech. You want to marry that leech. Leave me alone. You are marrying him. You want to have sex with him! I ran faster thinking wolf thinking wolf.
Hey Jake. So they got married. I want to say she did not look good but, she did. Alice really outdid herself.
I phased back to human as my pack tried to fill me in on what I missed. Laying their naked on a random forest floor I cried. I heaved vomiting up my last bit of meat that I had ripped off a deer. I sobbed. Having my brain to myself. Only my brain. I had no home. No Love. No family. I was alone. This is how I will always be. I can not phase if this is what they are going to be thinking about. I heard people nearby. Quickly phasing back I ran.
COME HOME JAKE Sam ordered.
An alphas order is something that you are not meant to ignore. I felt my back try to bend. My feet tried to point me in a new direction. I was not going home. I am not going home. I felt my body start to run without my command. I was running home I knew I was running home. My brain tried to convince me that I was doing the right thing. I was listening to my alpha that is what I was born to do. I could hear the collective relief of my brothers and leah as I ran closer to home. This is what I was born to do. I was born to listen to Sam.
NO!
I stopped myself mid stride.
I WAS NOT MEANT TO FOLLOW THE GRANDSON OF LEVI ULEY! I AM DONE TAKING ORDERS FROM YOU. I AM NOT APART OF YOUR PACK!
I heard a collective cry and felt a mental snap. I was no longer part of the pack. Now a free wolf. Running like that for months. I lost track of time. The increased loneliness had drained the motivation from me. I found myself craving human interaction. I tried to get myself re-connected with Sam's pack. It did not work. I found myself searching through a donation bin late at night. I found a pair of semi fitting clothing. I walked down the streets of this city, I did not know the name of in search of I do not know.
I found a construction sight. I walked onto the sight and found some nice soft sand and fell asleep. In the morning I awoke to the sound of humans. This made me panic. I had not allowed myself near human interaction in so long! I turned to see construction workers arriving to the job sight. I needed to sneak away. Walking slowly I almost made it when I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"If you are going to use my sight as a bedroom the least you can do is put some work in" a man's voice said.
Turning slowly I looked at the man "I have no training" I said.
"No training needed. I have been in your shoes once." the man said "my name is Joey. Let me help you out by getting you some skills and some money"
I agreed to work for that man. I quite enjoyed construction work. I would phase often trying to reconnect with my pack. It never worked. Working for him for 3 years I gained enough skills to work on any construction sight. After 3 years I needed to move companies. This not ageing thing was going to bite me in the butt if I stayed longer. I ended up working for two companies full time. I worked hard enough to gain enough money that I could afford to buy my own place. I found a job in california that I could not pass up. A summer of hard construction work gave me enough money to retire. I could finally take some time off to go finish my high school. Before starting school I wanted to make sure everything was fine with my family. I drove into Forks before I chickened out. I did not want to know what happened to everyone. I turned my car around and drove away.
I moved into a low end apartment building on the rough end of town. I knew I had enough money to live in a nicer place but I did not want to. I at least moved into the nicest apartment on this side of town. It had underground parking so the Volkswagen Rabbit I bought would be safe. I felt silly buying another Volkswagen Rabbit, I had a good one sitting at home in my dad's garage. It just made me feel better more connected to my past to have a similar car.
I went for a jog on the beach. That's when I came across her. She was everything Bella was not. Long blond hair, tanned skin, blue eyes. She was just what I needed to get over Bella. I jogged beside her. "Hey" I said.
She faltered in her jog. "Hi" she said a blush rising to her cheeks.
"Names Jake." I told her.
"You are very cute Jake." She told me.
"Thank you. Are you from around here?" I asked her.
"Yeah. I go to the high school here in town." she said
"Me too." I stated.
We stopped jogging under an abandoned lifeguarding station on the beach. I kissed her. She moaned against my lips. Kissing me harder. We laid down in the sand making out. Her hands grabbed my gym shorts. Trying to slide them down my body. I broke our kiss.
"What are you doing?" I asked between kisses
"Are we not going to have sex?" She asked.
"I was not planning on it." I told her.
"What why not. Your hot I am hot. We are young. Why should we not have sex right now?" She asked.
"Well maybe because I don't even know your name" I told her.
"Oh yah. Im Catherine so do you want to have sex now?" Catherine said.
"No thank you" I told her "I am not the type to met and have sex on the same day"
"Oh a gentleman. Do not worry I am on birth control so you don't have to use a condom." Catherine told me as she started shimmying her shorts down.
I quickly got up. "Im sorry I cant" I quickly ran all the way back to my apartment.
I had been avoiding Catherine for the past week. Of course she has to live in my apartment. She made me late to school on my first day! Leaving the garage only when she had left to school. Walking into english class on the first day I already made a teacher my enemy for showing up late. I glanced at the seating plan and noticed an asian boy sitting in my spot. Could not blame him though. He was sitting next to a very pretty girl. Her copper hair shines beautifully against her pale skin. I sat next to her. That class did not go well. I felt a pull to the girl next to me. Her scent was the right amount of woodsy and sweet. I could not focus on the lecture. The best I could do was focus on her handwriting. Her hands, her skin, her hair, her scent. Get a handle on it Jake.
_FLASHFORWARD_
I focused on the road ahead of me. I just walked away from my imprint. For what! So I could go home to my shitty apartment and phase. I know I am mad at her for not telling me that she has a significant other. I feel betrayed. So what if she has a husband. At that thought I only saw red with rage. Turning my car around I drove. Until I could find a forest that I could become a wolf and hunt some bloodsuckers.
