Hello...

I'm really truly sorry..

Again.

You can all curse me all you want because I've been cursing myself too. I feel really really stupid and regretful because I didn't write the plot that I've made in my head to a memo or something. Because now, or should I say, long ago, I FORGOT THE WHOLE PLOT that was already planned so clearly in my head. To be honest, I feel really discouraged to continue this fic, because when I made up that forgotten plot, I remember that I was like, "OH EM GEE, this will be a really nice plot. Yeah, uh huh. There will be this and that, and everything is PERFECT!"

Now that I've forgotten that seemingly awesome plot there's a very little chance that I will actually update this thing in the future. Until now I still wonder why does this fic occasionally gets more followers. Maybe it's because of the unique title? Haha. When an email notification from FFN comes to tell me that someone followed my fic, I feel happy but at the same time guilty and burdened. Because I know how it feels to wait for fanfictions you followed but it's not updating.

I can't do anything now, because I'll be having my national exams on May but after that I'll have 2 months free time. I've been thinking that, if I don't wanna update this fic, the least I could do is rewrite it. Maybe I'll somehow create another plot on the way, maybe even remembering the forgotten plot while I rewrite it.

I've said in the previous chapter that I've been into kpop, and it seems I'll be letting go of the otaku world (I already am, I guess). There's so many episodes and manga chapters of FT that I need to catch up and after that maybe I'll get the feel again.

I'm not going through some depressing shit, I'm just so lazy and I guess, a bit sad because of the forgotten plot TT^TT. You guys have the right to be mad at me. And I actually regret making this into a chaptered fic. I should've let this be a oneshot so it would not be a bother to me anymore. But I took up the challenge and look at me now. Being irresponsible for not updating, and I truly hate responsibilities. Writing isn't made for me, my writing style sucks, and I'm never that creative. This plot that I've thought of is just a once-in-a-blue-moon thing.

But, after the exams, I'll see what I can do and I hope I will get some inspiration or something to continue this fic. Just want to tell you why I'm not updating for ages (and I probably won't for eternity, sighs)