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Chapter 8 – Broken Friendships – Zero's POV
I slowly slid the door open, flinching at its quiet croaking, sighing in relief at the undisturbed pair in the bed...
Wait...
Pair?
With horrified eyes I walked into the room, and looked down onto the bed below me.
Kaname lying under the blanket, his soft pale skin bare, his thick brown locks tousled spread around his pillow, his body curled around an all too familiar figure.
I didn't want to believe, I wanted to assume it was another girl with long, wavy black hair. Yet as the head rose to reveal of pair of sleepy purple eyes...
My worst fear was confirmed.
"How could you do this to me?"
*End*
I was startled out of my nightmare by the merciless ringing off my alarm clock, and whilst groaning in frustration I sat up and hit the snooze button. I sat in silence, replaying the dream over in my mind before sighing heavily and pulling my knees up to my chest, resting my head on them in despair. It had been three weeks since I first saw Krysa enter Kaname's room, and in those three weeks she had visited him four more times in the early hours of the morning. Now, without even realising, it had become my usual routine to wake up hours before to witness this, all the while my heart becoming more frantic and my mind more scrambled. In all these three weeks, she acted completely normal, and so have I, yet never has she mentioned anything to do with her morning visits.
And now I was having nightmares about it.
Deep down in my heart I knew that Krysa would never be able to do such a thing to me. I mean, she's basically the sister I never had...
Sisters have slept with sisters husbands before.
Fuck you logic. It's my bloody brain which is making me want to accept the heartbreaking truth, and damn it I don't want to. I don't want to think that Krysa has changed into this kind of person; I don't want to think that she'd betray me this way. And yet, no matter how much faith I have in her, the logical part of my brain can't help but play out every single scenario to its fullest extent. I don't know what to do, what to think, and the only person I would ever turn to with this kind of thing is Krysa. It's at times like this that I wish I wasn't such an unsociable bastard all the time.
"Are you okay there?" Krysa's soft voice broke the silence of my room and my head snapped up to look at her; "Sorry, you didn't reply when I knocked so I was checking to see if you were awake." she closed the door before coming over and sitting next to me on my bed.
"Sorry, I didn't hear you..." My quiet mumble faded off and the room was filled with a heavy silence, whilst an internal battle raged inside my head. My heart was telling me to let everything go and just trust the two most important people in my life, but my head was telling me too simply as the question. But really, me brain is just ridiculous, how the hell would you frame that question? "Krysa, have you been fucking my ex and complete love of my life in the bedroom next door to me?" That ISN'T something you just come up with, and I wouldn't say that anyway! AAAARGH!
"Zero..." I snapped my head up again, but found it hard to turn to look at her, so kept my eyes firmly glued to the wall in front of me. "Are you okay? You haven't been acting... the usual way around me. Is there something you need to tell me?" My heart sank, I could hear the worry loud in clear in her voice, and I wanted so much to able to offer her some sort of comfort... but not now. So, I tried to answer as truthfully as possible,
"I'm not okay,"
"Want to talk?"
"NO" My instant answer sounded harsh even to my ears, and I instantly regretted the tone I used. I wanted to look her in the eye and speak... but I was worried. I didn't know what I would do, so I did the only thing I could. I ran away. "I think you should leave now Krysa." I said, turning to finally look her in the eye, and glaring at her as hard as I could. Her eyes widened in shock, then her head dropped, with her hair falling to complete cover her face as she muttered a quiet okay whilst getting up from the bed and walking towards the door. I turned away to look out of the window, frowning at the almost intense sunlight.
"...When you feel like you want to talk to me, you know where to find me." I didn't so much as turn as she closed the door quietly behind her, dropping my head and feeling the wave of guilt hit my like a bucket of icy-water. It's not her fault that my imagination keeps getting the better off me; and even if she is going to Kaname's room in the mornings it's probably because of me, in one way or another.
Or maybe you're just being over ambitious Zero.
And again, my logic kicked in and made everything ten times worse.
1 WEEK LATER – Kaname's POV
I didn't like this development.
I didn't like it at all.
Zero and Krysa seemed to be drifting further apart, and it was painful to watch.
At first, when it all started four weeks ago – around when Krysa offered to help me – things weren't as bad, but as time went on things became more prominent. When Krysa would talk to him in class, he was really unresponsive and he kept his words to the bare minimum. At first Krysa would keep talking, trying hard to keep the conversation going with Zero's short sentences, but when he became completely unresponsive Krysa gave up on trying. When you look over to their table, you don't see the laughing friends always getting into trouble and annoying everyone in the class with their continuous whispering anymore; you see two people sitting there in silence, not even so much as looking at each other and speaking only when it was necessary for the lesson. At lunch, you don't see them at their usual space under the tree in the quads; you see Krysa in the library and you don't see Zero at all.
It really worried me. It worried everyone. Friends who've been close for as long as they have shouldn't let something come between them; but the thing that worried me the most was the fact that for some reason, I couldn't help but feel remorse for the situation. It was out of spite and jealousy that I initially asked for them to be moved to the Night Class, what if I'd ruined their relationship by doing that? What if I was the reason that Zero finally lost his only close friend, and became truly shut off emotionally from the world? What if I'd done that to him? I couldn't bare the thought; I would never do that to him intentionally - EVER. Jeez, even now I'm still managing to cause him pain and I ended our relationship three years ago; how can he love some one like me? All I ever seem to do is hurt and isolate him; I don't know how I'm ever going to win him over.
But that doesn't mean I'm not going to try.
It just means it'll be a miracle if he actually accepts me back.
Still, it's too late for me to back out now. My plan is supposed to go into action very soon, just as our summer holiday starts.
I just hope that while that goes on, Zero and Krysa would go back to the way they were.
For both of their sakes.
Ah noes! Poor Zero & Krysa! But at least Kaname is FINALLY going to do something...
