A/N: Hello guys! Thanks for the reviews, favorites and alerts… it makes me so happy! I love you guys! Well this will be the last time I will have someone else's point of view other than Bella and Edward. I just want to tell what happened to Bella… I hope you'd like this too! Please review also…

I'm slowly having writers block too—it's scaring me!! Inspire me people..please?

Also I hope this answers some curiosity about Jacob Black… -winks-


Chapter Seven

Nightmares…

Jacob Black

I was just staring at Charlie's house. I am furious at myself. I can't believe I said yes about house sitting their house for the whole month. Charlie and Sue went on a cruise around the Caribbean. When Harry Clearwater passed away about a few months after Bella disappeared Sue and Charlie became inseparable since they both know what it feels like to be left alone by the one you truly love—your life. So on Bella's birthday or Harry's death anniversary the Clearwater-Swan family go on a trip, and this year they decided to be away for a month.

I do need the extra cash I know that. But am I really that desperate to even want to be in this house to be able to breathe on the distinct scent that she had left in her house even though she hasn't stepped foot on it for ten years now.

I looked at my reflection at the glass door of their house. I looked terrible. The darkness under my eyes looked more obvious now. I haven't slept at all in days, I couldn't sleep I was having my nightmares again. I was expecting it to come too, since her birthday is coming up. I was ready for the depression to hit me hard.

Every time I close my eyes, I see her face in that terrible accident. The accident when my heart died when hers stopped beating. The pack and I tried to save Bella. But that bloodsucker bit Bella before we could—we were only a second late. What would have happened if we were able to stop him? Would Bella be happy with me right now? Or would she still be mourning for that bloodsucker that she loves.

So, I prevented to sleep for this week. I'd rather be sleep deprived than hear Bella's piercing screams in my head. Or even relieve it in my dreams. Her screams and begging me to kill her was just too much for me to take. It was like someone stabbing my heart then pulling it out of my chest making me bleed inside and out.

I love her so much that I couldn't dare hurt a single strand of her hair. I just sat there right beside her, helpless trying to reassure her that she would be alright. I could have ended her life right at that moment but I couldn't.

Thinking about Bella always makes me weak, good thing I was already in front of the couch when my knees started to give out on me. I sat on the small couch trying to be comfortable, Charlie hasn't bought new furniture in his house. So I'm still sitting on the couch that's probably as old as I am.

I reached for the television remote and tried to watch TV to distract myself. The noise keeps me from sleeping or thinking about her. But I was too weak. The fact that I haven't slept for the past week doesn't help my cause to preventing my eyes to be close and start my nightmare.

I was seeing doubles now, two televisions, two sets of basketball players, "No," I told myself but then my eye lids closed in defeat.


See Jacob, I told you running like this is awesome! Embry yelled in my head. He and I started to have a race to see who is a faster runner. Today was a normal day for a werewolf; Sam decided to go for more rounds in the woods because of the sudden attacks of hikers in town. So as usual Embry and I are having a manly competition—though we are kind of acting like kids.

I know, but you're going to eat my dust! I teased when I looked back and saw that Embry was actually eating my dust.

I'm not eating your dust—yet!

I could see and hear his paws dig into the ground to give him a good thrust to catch up. He was actually catching up but he's not fast enough.

Stop, a firm voice ordered, Sam's voice echoed in my head. We could see the tension he's feeling right now.

I immediately halted to a stop, and Embry was beside me now. We both looked at each other confusion in both our eyes.

I took a deep breath and my nose wrinkled. A vampire has been here, a fresh trail too. But then something else distracted me. Sam took another deep breath and it was a familiar smell, a beautiful smell the smell that I have missed so much since I haven't been with her for awhile now, so the scent is completing the emptiness in my heart.

Then it hit me, if a vampire is here and so is Bella—

I didn't have to think that much to realize that Bella is in danger. I dug my claws into the ground and started to run, even though I can hear Sam in my head telling me to stay where I was. I can't just sit there when I know that all my instincts and every part of me is telling me to protect her. He should understand.

I can hear Sam growl at me when Embry and I ran past him. Then he started to run with us when he saw the determination that I have to save Bella. He decided that if I was planning to attack the bloodsucker I would die, he had to protect me too.

Don't be too hasty Jacob we are off our land, We don't want to declare war by attacking one of those yellow eyes, Sam said, he sounded hesitant he was ready to stop me at any moment if I do make a mistake.

Is he really one of them? Jared asked, he squinted trying to see even more—he has binocular sight, it made us all see really well. Bella was having a conversation with him.

But something he saw made me run even faster—that bloodsucker's eyes were pitch black. I don't care if its one of the Cullen's family or not—the fact that he's thirsty is putting Bella in danger. If it causes a war then I don't care.

"Please," I heard Bella beg.

I could hear the voices in my head started to panic now. Finally Sam had ordered to protect Bella. He didn't have to tell me what to do. I was already running as fast as I can. Embry is right on my tail trying to catch up. Even though he only met Bella once, he could see how much I care for Bella and wanted to help me.

I can see them clearly now. I'm almost there Bella! My claws were leaving a deep print on the ground with how much pressure I'm putting on them to help me with my speed.

The bloodsucker moved a bit closer to Bella when she took a step back, then the wind blew Bella's hair towards his direction. He looked satisfied and happy, "Mouthwatering,"

Every inch of me ached with disgust, fear and panic. I don't think ill be able to make it, I have to—I yelled. The sound came out as piercing howl. But I don't think neither of them noticed it.

He leaned an inch close to her neck, his teeth glinting in the brief light that the sun let out under its clouds. His lips touched her fragile neck—

I flew myself at the monster and knocked him into the ground. My paw was pushed on his neck and my face was an inch away from his—the instincts to kill him were strong but Sam told me to stop. I was distracted—I can smell blood from Bella's direction.

He lifted my paws and flew me across the meadow. Then he ran away. I was going to catch up to him but Sam ordered me to stay with Bella.

The four other wolves were following the bloodsucker. Embry stared at me briefly then he nodded at me then followed Sam.

My eyes flickered towards Bella. She was lying on the ground not moving, she was breathing unevenly trying to ignore the pain on her shoulder probably. I whimpered as I started to walk towards her, blood was oozing out of her wound.

I phased into the human form and I ran towards. I lifted her towards me and let her lay on my lap. "Bella?" I whispered when I finally found my voice.

"Ed—ward?" She whispered, her eyes fluttered a bit trying to open her eyes.

I stiffened; I tried to control my anger. How could she even say his name after what he has done to her? "No Bella, It's me." I whispered, a tear falling from my eyes and landed on the tip of her nose.

She smiled; her eyes are wide open now. She's breathing through her mouth. She reached out to touch my face and wipe another tear from my eye, "You're talking to me now?"

I laughed, or at least tried to it sounded more like a cough. I leaned my face towards her cold hand, "I'm breaking the rules you know," I teased. I had to distract myself or I'm going to break down and cry.

There was a metallic screech heard in the middle of the woods, I cringed from the noise—they are going to do the same thing to Bella, I was staring at her face she still had a smile on her face though she started groaning in pain now.

"You have to destroy me Jacob..." she whispered her voice was firm and strong. I could hear her heart miss a beat or two.

I shook my head, "No Bella, I can't…" I whispered back in agony. I leaned my head on her forehead. Tears were free flowing from my eyes now landing on her cheeks.

"I'm going to be a danger to every…Charlie…" her voice seemed distant and her pupils are starting to dilate. Then she slowly closed her eyes and her head tilted towards the other side. She looked lifeless. Like a beautiful princess that's sleeping in my arms.

My eyes flickered towards her wound, it had stopped bleeding and the wound formed a crescent shape. But the wound was still red and swelling. She's going to be changed soon now. I started to shake her softly to at least try to wake her up. She didn't move—she's not dead yet I can still hear her heart beat slowly.

I could hear howling coming towards us, I know what's going to happen. They are going to kill Bella, so she wouldn't be turned. They can't do that—they cant hurt her! I have to save her.

I shimmered and turned into a werewolf again. Jacob? What are you doing? Paul's inquiry echoed in my head. Worry starting to play in his head when he was seeing what I was doing.

I took Bella's jacket by the mouth and flew her to my back, I looked on my shoulder and I was an inch away from Bella's face. I'm not going to let you hurt her, I leaned my body backwards and leapt about 3 feet off the ground and landed about a mile away where Bella and I were.

Jacob, Stop what ever you are planning and get back here now, Sam's voice soft but firm which made it hard to even try to disobey.

I mentally shook my head, I can't do that Sam. I have to save her at least. I might have been too late to protect her from that bloodsucker, but I will not let you destroy her. She can live another life—she knows about the Cullen's lifestyle. I'll make sure she's far away from Forks or La Push as possible. She loves Charlie too much to even think of coming back.

I could feel the tension building up between Paul and Jared they were ready to run after me but Sam just stood there silent, he's not even thinking about anything. He's just watching the fire that they built to burn the parts of the vampire.

Newborns are dangerous Jacob, be careful, Sam finally said after a few moments of agonizing silence. I knew that if Sam was going to order me to come back I wasn't going to listen which would break our brotherhood for sure.

I mentally nodded, Thank you Sam,

Phase back, give Jacob privacy. We expect you to be back in a week. He added to me as an order now. Then Sam's mind disappeared then followed by Paul and Jared.

Embry stayed for a few seconds, fury and wary ruling his mind. If anything happens to you Jacob, I am going to break you into pieces. Then he disappeared before I could even response.

I ran a bit slower now. I would look on my shoulder to check if Bella was alright or even still on my back. I have been running for a few hours now and I'm feeling a bit weak. But I had to be strong for Bella, the farther we are in Washington the better and safer it would be for her.

When I was finally too tired, I slept for a few hours and started to run again. Bella has been unconscious for about half a day now. And her human scent was slowly fading away now, she's slowly getting heavier too. She's slowly changing into a vampire now.

I think Bella and I just passed the border between California and Oregon. I have been traveling for over a day, I'm pretty sure about that I'm in Del Norte California.

I slowly dropped Bella into the ground. I was breathing through my mouth—the urge to kill her was stronger now, but I know I can control myself—I am stronger than that. I know that I couldn't hurt her. I love her too much.

Her eyes fluttered opened when I touched her ice cold skin, I was probably too hot for her. If humans find my temperature unusually high, what could it be to her—a vampire, probably fire hot.

I am looking at her eyes, her chocolate brown eyes are light brown almost red now, "You're finally awake, Bella…" I said

At that exact moment, she screamed a tormenting cry of pain that echoed in the woods.

My heart stopped beating and I gasped trying to gather my strength again. I have to be strong for her, I have to help her. I knelt beside her and took her hand, she grasped it and I could feel my hand slowly breaking.

"What is happening to me?!" a piercing scream escaped her mouth again; the scream caused my heart to bleed inside out.

I stared at her, confusion filled my face. "Bells honey, it's alright I'm right here…"

"My body it's burning!" she whispered, with her free hand she scratched the crescent wound on her neck, "Please stop the fire," she looked at me with anguish eyes.

I shook my head, I cant stop the fire Bella, id kill you. I wanted to tell her that, but I don't want to suggest that, she might beg for me to kill her. I wouldn't hurt her—I just cant.

"What is happening to me? Why am I burning, Kill me now!"

I felt sick to my stomach, she's right there in pain—I couldn't do anything. I just touched her face wiping the tears from her eyes, "Bella it's alright… I'm right here," I reminded her again. That's the only thing I can think of saying right now. I cant promise her that I'm not leaving.

She looked at me, anger glinted in her eyes, "Why are you calling me Bella? Who are you?" she hissed at me.

I started at her blankly, "Bella, that's not funny," how could she make jokes like this? She can't be serious. She couldn't have lost her memory—right? I mean she remembered me yesterday. What is going on?

"Can't you just tell me—I don't even know myself. I just woke up and here you are burning me!"

I sobbed, why would she think that I'm causing her this pain? "Bella, a vampire bit you yesterday. Sam and the others were planning to destroy you. I had to save you. The only way to do it is to take you as far away from Forks as possible."

After another piercing cry of pain, she looked at me confused and frustrated, "I don't remember—" she screamed again.

I was shaking internally, what is she talking about? She can't remember that? "Do you even know who I am Bella?"

"I don't remember anything, anything at all—" she took a deep breath and she was hyperventilating now, she was sobbing also, tears streaming down her eyes.

I examined her expression; she doesn't look like she's lying. I took a deep breath my nose wrinkled with the burning I felt.

I was curious if I should tell her everything. But I decided not to, maybe it was a good thing. I just started telling her about the other lifestyles of other vampires. I told her a story about the Yellow eyed vampires. How they don't need to feast on human blood to survive. I added her that I trust her to be strong enough not to hurt humans. Also not to go to Forks Washington cause her life would be in danger if she comes back.

She was asking questions about the yellow eyed vampires in between her cries of pain, she was asking why she knew that she doesn't need to feed on humans. When I told her that she was becoming a vampire. She swore to herself that she can be in control of that monster and feed on animals before I even told her about them.

I just ignored her questions, I told her to stop talking so she can concentrate on herself more. So she can fight the pain. But the real deal was, if she would keep asking about The Cullens I could feel the bitter taste of anger in my tongue. I didn't want to loose control and phase in front of her. I might not be able to stop the animal in me to kill her. But I had to be strong; my love for her is a lot stronger than the urge to kill her.

Wait, is that why that bloodsucker left her? Because he wasn't strong enough to keep her safe from himself? But I'm not him; if I could I would stay with her forever, to take care of her—to keep her from slipping up and attacking humans. I can keep her safe. But I don't think I can do that. I can keep her safe.

But she is a danger to me, the fact that she doesn't even remember who I am. And I'm not sure how her self control would be. I can see that she does understand what I'm saying though. She may not remember anything about her human life but she does know the different lifestyle, and she doesn't understand why. Even though her mind is probably hiding all her memories, it does subconsciously know about them. And I finally understand why all of a sudden she lost her memories.

She always had a strong mind, and maybe her mind knows that is she's going to turn into a vampire she's going to be alone—maybe forgetting all her memories all together would avoid her from going into that depression again without him.

I suddenly heard her heart started to beat abnormally fast now, she had her eyes open and it was bright red. Her nose wrinkled—she knows that I could be food. But she was fighting it I can see that, she also didn't want to hurt me. This is my cue to leave—I wouldn't want to test her self control either.

I rested my head on hers, "Bella, I need to go now… take care of yourself." I whispered, my voice broke on my last statement. I ran my hands on her smooth face wanting remembering everything about her before she becomes one of them.

Her eyes opened and met my gaze, "Why?" it wasn't her voice anymore, it sounds like a musical note. It sounded more like ringing bells.

"I can't be with you any more Bella," I said firmly trying to sound harsh so she wouldn't beg for me to stay, "By the way I'm Jacob…" I added. If I was going to leave her at least she should know my name.

I leaned a bit and touched her cold lips, "I love you," I breathed by her ear, my voice breaking and emphasizing every word. "I will always love you,"

I literally heard my heart break, so I just let my tears fall from my eyes when I saw the agony in her eyes when she realized that I was really leaving her. She had her eyes closed as if she was blinking her tears away, then she lifted her body briefly then screamed in pain again.

The transformation was almost complete, I immediately phased into a werewolf and I ran as fast as I can to protect myself. I don't care if she'd catch up to me, I'm already dead anyway. I died with her.

I started to run a bit slower; I was waiting for it—for her to kill me.

Is this normal to want death instead of feeling this emotion? Jacob was now crying his heart out, he was yelling at me to go back to stay with her. But the wolf is stronger now; it just let him cry while I protect us. I know that will be the last time I would see her. I'm sure the only time he would see her is in his dreams.


My eyes fluttered open waking up from my nightmare, I was on my feet and I was crouched into a fighting position. I took a deep breath and my nose burned with the scent that is outside the house. I haven't come across this scent for over a decade. The scent that I came across when I was still human, a scent that didn't bother me as much when I would be with Bella—the weird cologne smell. But now that I have special senses I know what that scent was.

A vampire. Its him.


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