Hi, word of warning. This is my explanation as to why Lilly behaves and doesn't talk loudly. If you have history or are sucidal or a cutter I suggest you don't read this, it kind of triggered me. Enjoy, it's dark stuff.

A cut for everything they said.

Every 'Your fat'.

Every 'Ugly'.

Every 'Un loved, not even your Mother wanted you'.

She lays in the dark. Causing her self to feel whole. The only way she can do that?

By dragging a bit of broken glass or the kitchen knife she took when her brother was too high to notice it missing down her arm.

A mass of fresh cuts covered her arm, mixed with old scars.

A missed meal for every thing they said. A three hour run a day, and two hours a day of walking to and from school.

A sucide attempt for when they hurt her.

They all failed, but maybe, just maybe the people at school would get there wish. For Lilly to be dead. There was no denying that it was Lilly's wish as well, she didn't want to feel any more.

Maybe today, Lilly Onakuramara would breathe her final breath.

Maybe she wouldn't. She knew what she would prefer.

Um yeah. It's dark and depressing but that's my mood today. For the guest who asked about baby problems, I am just about to start it, hope fully it should be up either today or tomorrow. Please review.