A/N- Do I really have to put this every time?!
Understanding
October 21, 3000
3:45 P.M.
Jen had left the Time Force building, and had returned to her spot in the park. She knew she had almost lost in back in Captain Logan's office. "I have to control myself better." She buried her head into her arms, and started to let her tears roll down her face. She let the thought that had replayed over and over in her head out. "I will never get to see him again." Jen let the tears roll freely down her face, and onto her pant legs. She knew that she had to stem this flow of tears, but found it to be the hardest thing that she ever had to do.
Almost as soon as Jen had stopped crying, she heard someone walking up next to her. She heard the figure stop next to her, and figured that it was Trip, because he was the only one who had come over to her when she had been here before. Jen took one ragged heavy breath; "Trip not now, I want to be alone." She heard the person sit down next to her, but decided not to press it further, after all Trip had taken so many chances for her, she decided to let him stay.
"Jennifer I wanted to talk to you for a minuet." Jen recoiled a bit when she heard the voice. It was not Trip's voice, but the voice from her dreams, only different. Jen lifted her head out from it's shelter from the world and saw for the first time who was next to her. There in a Time Force uniform sat one of the people she cared most for; Alex. Jen had loved Alex more than she ever thought possible before she had left for the past, but when she met Wes, he looked like Alex, but it was his personality that was different. Alex was usually all business, but Wes was fun loving, and even though he had aggravated Jen more than once for his child like behavior, she now realized, that was what she loved about Wes.
Alex removed his black Time Force glasses and laid them next to himself. Jen tried to respond, but Alex knew deep down that his presence must had hurt her. From the way she reacted to his voice, to the way she was now looking at him. "Why Jennifer, wasn't my love enough?" Alex felt more than at a loss from the man who had taken everything from him. The only person he really cared about, now loved someone else. Alex remembered talking to Wes on that beach when he had given up his red ranger powers.
"You saved my father didn't you?" Alex responded with a simple head nod. Wes and Alex shook hands, as Alex turned to walk away, Wes couldn't help but ask. "Isn't that messing with the future?" Alex responded simply by saying "We make our own destiny, you taught me that. But as Alex boarded that time ship, he knew deep down that Jen had made her decision. She no longer had sided with him on his choices as leader. It came down to trust, and she trusted Wes more.
"Jen I know this is difficult for you, but I wanted to talk to you about your career." Jen lowered her gaze back to the ground. Jen had a million things going through her head but two stuck out more than the others. One was a plea for her body not to start crying and shaking again, the other was that she really didn't want Alex too know about her chat with Captain Logan yet.
Jen managed to speak for the first time without problems. "Captain Logan told you about me asking to go Special Assignment Division?" Alex looked into Jen's eyes and she quickly looked away. But what Alex saw in them, the way they were reddened from tears, he knew she was crying for Wes.
"Yes Jennifer, he did tell me, but as you know it is ultimately my decision." Jen laid her head back onto her arms, in a show of defeat that she felt.
Alex just looked ahead at the shimmer of the water, and knew that Jen would never stop loving Wes. It pained him to his very core, and while part of him had absolute hatred for Wes, the majority of his heart held only sympathy for Wes. "Jen I only want to know one thing, what do you love about him?" Jen found herself at a loss of words, the strong leader of the rangers had literally just stuttered his last words. Jen knew that she had hurt Alex when she broke of their engagement, but she now realized the true extent to how much she hurt him.
Jen opened her arms and let her tears fall again. Alex moved to hold Jen, feeling a sense of happiness to hold her again. "Alex I will always hold a spot for you in my heart and mind." Alex felt overjoyed to hear those words, even though he had lost Jen, didn't mean that she didn't care for him still. "Jennifer I will still always love you, but I understand how you feel about Wes." Jen held onto Alex for over ten minuets until her tears had ended. When she finally pulled away, she did so with an understanding. Jen felt bad about leaving Alex, but at the same time, she was happy that he seemed to understand how she truly felt towards Wes.
"Jennifer, as I said I came here to talk to you about going into the Special Assignment Division." Jen noticed that Alex was back to all business. Jen looked into Alex's eyes with a fierce look. "Alex I still want into the group." Alex held onto Jen's hand, and rubbed it with encouragement, "I knew you would Jen." Alex reached behind him and pulled out a stack of papers. They both looked down at them and saw the familiar Time Force emblem. Alex pulled out a pen, looked at Jen and signed the page requesting his signature. As he handed the papers to Jen, he felt like he was losing her again, but Alex also felt like he understood why now. Alex stood to leave, and Jen looked at him with a gracious look on her face. "Jennifer, I will always be here if you want to talk." Alex turned to walk away, Jen managed to blurt out a quiet thank you. If Alex heard it or not, she was unsure. But one thing Jen now knew, she could still have a working friendship with Alex.
A/N- Sorry about the late updates everyone, college midterms, and work. I have gone through a ton of thought for Alex, and I think that this honestly is how Jen would handle the situation. Now with that said, sorry if you don't like it. As always, Please leave some constructive criticism down below.
-Alex
