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Chapter Seven
None of us spoke after that. I had no words to describe how I was feeling. I mean how could I when the person who kept me prisoner knew me before I knew them. I was on the losing end like always. I was shivering, not from being cold, and near tears. I cried more with Billy than I ever did my life. Why didn't I remember him when he clearly remembered me? So the happy little girl smiling was me. The small innocent child turned into what I was.
Broken. Scarred. Depressed.
I just wanted to be alone and cry so I could let out all the frustrations inside. Billy finally turned around and he rubbed his temple as he fought for words. "Who am I?" It was a simple question yet one I couldn't even asnwer. For as long as I could remember I was Merci. Just Merci. No last name or nothing. Then I cross a boundary and suddenly I was someone else? No, things that like didn't happen.
The turns finally fell. Hot burning tears. The ones I held in for far too long came streaming down. I sobbed loudly unable to control it. Billy stared at me confused, wondering why I was crying, again. "Who am I?" I screamed and flew off the bed in a fit of sudden rage. "Merci" Billy scolded as he rushed to help me off the hard floor. I didn't feel anything even when I hit the floor or when I pushed Billy away from me and stood on my good leg. I was numb.
My breathing was harsh and so were the sobs. Both mixed to create a sound I never heard before. "Don't touch me!" I told him with a glare as I made my way to the door. Only he didn't listen to me. No, instead he grabbed my upper arm and yanked me from the door. "Merci..." He whispered in a soft unnormal tone. He pulled me to his hard strong chest and held me tight. An odd feeling welled up inside me. He had done this before. "Don't call me that! You have no right!"
Sometimes when people are angry, they did futile stuff. I was no different. I relied on my anger.
I struggled in his grasp, frantically pushing to get away. He was making me feel safe. I didn't want that because then I would have to face the fact that he was apart of my life. I tried to pull away but his strong powerful arms and determination overpowered my rage.
"Calm down Merci!" He whispered as he rocked us back and forth, trying to calm me. It was working. I hated myself. My hands ached to hold onto something, anything, and he was right there. I refused to give in to what I needed so much. "Stop it!" I cried weakly. He was winning. No, I wanted to win. He won enough. "Let me go!" My hands found their way to his shirt. I twisted my hands with his shirt into a fist and held on tight. "Please!" I begged once more. It hurt. I was in pain.
"Baby girl I got you." The nickname struck me hard. 'Baby Darley'. The box was mine. "No you let him hurt me!" I pounded my fist into his chest. All the anger I felt towards Adrian was directed to Billy. "I didn't know..." I shook as I sobbed and I collapsed against him, weak all over. He held me up and rocked again.
"Why should I believe you? You weren't there for me!" My knee went up and I kneed him in the groin. His arms fell and I pushed back, stumbling back into the wooden door. "Ah fuck." He cursed as he tried to calm the pain he was feeling. Two men in the groin was a record. "Joe get in here!" Before I could even grasp the handle, in came an older version of the scrawny boy in the photo. Joe put his arms around me and I couldn't fight anymore.
I let myself be held for the longest. "I don't want to be near Billy." I whispered burying my head in Joe's chest. "Take her to your room Joe." Bodie's told him as he came inside with an ice pack. Joe led me out of the room and across the small hall. I escaped one prison to be put in another. He shut the door quietly behind us. He was timid. Not like Billy.
"Go on. Lay down." He pulled me to the bed and I collapsed so tired. Joe laid with me and he pulled me close so I could sleep. Was this a normal habit? So many questions were running through my mind. But I knew none could be answered so easily. He was my brother. They were my brothers. This was my family. I just had to accept it or I would be hurting far longer than I really needed to.
I didn't want to fall asleep. I knew there was more than just everything going smooth after my scene. Billy I left hurting on the floor. He was talking loudly but I still couldn't hear everything. I knew they were close though. Joe eventually moved me off his chest when he thought I was asleep. I learned to fake sleep, had to where I was raised. He moved off very quietly and slow. He opened the door and closed it behind him and I could hear their voices.
"She's asleep." Joe told them.
"You sure? I mean she could easily fooled ya." Came another who I had yet to meet. Joe snorted loudly.
"After her tantrum, who wouldn't be." I agreed with him. My body screamed for me to pass so I could re-energize. "Billy you alright man?" Bodie asked, concerned. There was no answer from Billy. Not for a long while.
When he finally answered, my eyes were fluttering shut. "She didn't want to be near me."
"Give her time. You dont expect her to just get used to you again, do you?" Bodie asked him. "Its been 10 years man. She don't know you anymore."
10 fucking years. I was separated from my family for a decade. Why? What happened? And suddenly I passed out. My body and mind taking control and forcing me to sleep. So I did.
Comments? Questions? I would be happy to answer any questions. Review! Also, who has to a clue as to who Merci will meet in the next chapter? Tell me in reviews. If your confused by this chapter, re-read Chapter 6.
