Ok, 1 in the morning typing this chapter b.c its been in my head all day and i want to get to the good stuff so heres a small but big twist to the story! enjoy, review. Ill update asap, i have finals coming up so it may be awhile. Tell me your ideas if you have them!listen to "things Ill never say" by avril Lavigne, it kinda sorta inspired me a little bit plus its what im listening to right now hah.
It had been almost two months since Edward and I "got back together". We were taking it slow and we kept our relationship a secret, well except from Alice. We knew our relationship was a risk, but we had a connection know one could describe. I hated to think of the repercussions of it if anyone did find out.
Edward and I rarely saw each other alone, well besides on our dates on the weekend which would usually consist of us going to Port Angeles for the day. The only place I was safe in Forks to see Edward was at his house with Alice.
Our relationship was well…I don't know but it wasn't normal. I felt like a modern day Romeo and Juliet except our stupid schools are the fighting families. I hadn't met any of his friends, and I wanted to . He always told me of funny stories of him and his friends. I think the funniest story he ever told me was about how his friend Emmett had to dress up as a girl and go to the grocery store. He tripped on one of the heels he was supposed to wear and unfortunately flashed some poor old lady.
I wanted to meet his friends. They sounded like good, fun people. The only friends I had were Angela and Alice and I rarely hung out with Angela because of her new boyfriend Ben. He was nice but sometimes a little awkward, but they were a match made in heaven. They have been dating for three weeks now and already said that they loved each other. I was jealous of her.
Angela could hold and show affection to her boyfriend openly but I had to hide my feelings. Edward and I have been dating for over a month now, even longer if you include that summer fling as I refer to it as, and not a single "I love you"!
I knew I loved Edward since over the summer. But I wanted to know how Edward truly felt about me. Was I just some meaningless girl to him? I mean its not like I can see what he's doing at school, for all I know he could have another girlfriend! I shake my head vehemently to get rid of those ideas. Edward would never cheat on me, but I need to know how he really feels about me. And him being a senior didnt ease my stresses either.
I sighed and flopped my head onto my arms that were folded in front of me.
"What's the matter Bella?" Alice asks, her voice ringing like bells.
"Nothing, it's just- oh never mind."
"Oh come on Bella! We've been friends for what? Two years?" She glared at me in frustration. It was true, she was my only friend besides Angela when I first moved here from Phoenix.
"I don't know, its just…Angela's making me jealous." She snorted.
"How?"
"Because she has everything I want and cant have, I mean public displays of affection and all that jazz, and they even told each other that they loved each other. I want that! I want what you and Jasper and Angel and Ben have!" I didn't know my voice was raising as I noticed most of the classroom was now looking in my direction. I felt the blush creep up my cheeks and I chuckled nervously.
"Bella, relax. You know Edward loves you-"
"Then why can't he tell me?"
"Why can't you tell him?" She looked at me with a smirk on her small lips, she had a point.
"I don't know…I guess it's the die hard romantic in me or something."
"Don't worry about it, I'm sure he's just waiting for the right moment. Remember, you the first girl he's gotten really serious with besides Tanya." She waved her hand around as she spoke.
"Wait, Tanya? Who's Tanya?" She looked at me wide eyed.
"He didn't tell you?" I shook my head violently, I could feel the anger building in my chest, why wouldn't he tell me about her?
"Oh, well. She's nothing to worry about. She was a slut and still is. Edward really liked her and was thinking about telling her he loved her when he found out she cheated on him with a teacher." She looked at me sympathetically. "I know Edward loves you, he's just, I don't know, I guess he's afraid something might happen and he doesn't want to chance it. I mean Edward was pretty broken up about the whole Tanya thing…he obviously got over it though cause he's dating you and happy now!"
I had a lot of thinking to do. I needed to talk to Edward and possibly tell him my feelings. But my thoughts were interrupted by a tall, muscular boy walking into the classroom. He russet colored skin and had long black hair pulled into a pony-tail and the uniform he was wearing looked too tight but not awkward looking.
"Class, I would like you to meet our new student Jacob Black. Please make him feel welcome." He sat down in the seat in front of me but flashed me a smile before sitting down.
Little did I know he was going to turn my entire world upside down.
uh-oh! Jacobs in the picture...dun dun dun...who knows whats going to happen!
