Hey Guys! SO this chapter is, I feel a good one. Lots of things going on. Loren is trying to sort something's out and some Leddie moments. Also someone asked me if Loren was going to be singing I hope this chapter answers your question. I'm really excited about this story because it was my first Fan-Fiction so to know you guys like it or Love it really means a lot. I can't stop smiling! Thank you all for the reviews now enjoy!
Loren POV:
I woke up to the sun shining on my face. I don't even remember going to bed last night. I looked around my old room. Everything still looked the same. My Eddie Duran poster was still on the wall which is kind of creepy now because I actually know him. Mel and I were such fan girls back then. I remember when Mel and I tried to sneak into his concert but Jake, his manager caught us but didn't call the cops on us. Instead he let us go in and gave us front row sits. We knew everything about him. I chuckled at the thought of Mel and I back then.
My keyboard that I got on my 12th birthday was still in the same spot with my guitar underneath it next to my desk. I haven't played it in 2 years. I guess when I married Brian I loss all inspiration to play music. I knew life wasn't a fairytale where you live happily ever. Music was just a waste of time and I had to make a living even if it meant being with someone I thought I love but I only liked. I guess I didn't want to be alone so I settled for him. Right now I have mixed feeling, like my emotions are everywhere. I don't know what to do. I thought I was in love with him but how can I love someone who hurt me so badly. . . I don't know. I know Eddie said don't give up on love just yet but I can't take it anymore. Men are all the same, either they hurt you physically, emotionally or mentally.
I walked over to my keyboard and slid my fingers over the keys. They felt so foreign underneath my fingers. I looked on my desk saw my song book. I haven't even thought about writing a song because just like I lost all inspiration to play music, I also loss all inspiration to sing. Something that I've always wanted to do. I walked to my closet to pick out an outfit for today. I've been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do about this Brian situation. I took a shower and brushed my teeth then headed to the kitchen to see if my mom was up.
I walked to the kitchen and smelled pancakes with fried eggs. I haven't had my mother's cooking in 2 years. I've tried to make her famous lasagna just like she makes it, but it never comes out tasting exactly like hers.
Loren: "Good morning, mom. It smells good." I walked behind her and kissed her cheeks.
Nora: "Good morning, honey. How did you sleep?" To be honest not good. I had a dream I was in the house that I shared with Brian. He broke out of jail and threaten me because I divorced him and press charges against him for assaulting me and he abused me.
Loren: "Good. You?" I couldn't tell her about my dream it would only worry her more.
I limped all the way to the table and took a sit in the chair I wrote my name on when I was five. Now if you look at the chair you would see my kindergarten hand writing. That was my assign sit because when I was little I used to walk all around the house with my food making mess. So my mom assigned me a sit so I wouldn't make mess. Ever since then I have always sat in this sit.
Nora: "I had a good night sleep knowing my daughter was safe." She said while putting a plate of food in front of me. Guess what I did? I dogged in. I took a big bit and that's when someone was at the door. I reluctantly left my food and went to answer the door. I answered the door and it was Mel, my very colorful friend.
Loren: "Hey Mel, what are you doing here?"
Mel: "What I can't come see my best friend." We all know that's not why she's here.
Loren: I let her in and as I was walking to the table I said "of course you can but what's the real reason you're here?" I sat down and returned to my breakfast before I was interrupted.
Mel: "You know me so well. I'm here to eat Nora's famous pancakes and eggs, but also to see how you holding up. Your bruises don't look that bad anymore."
Loren: "Same old Mel, but yeah I'm fine. I hate walking around with this cast on my leg but yeah I'm fine. How about you?" I've been gone for a while so I wanted to know what has been going on with in her life.
Mel: "My mom and I making progress and Adams my boyfriend." She flashed me a smile.
Loren: "Awe congratulations and I'm really sorry for the stuff I said to you. It was wrong of me when you were just looking out for me." I was really happy for her.
Mel: "It's okay Lo, really." She smiled at me in a reassuringly way.
Loren: "Thank you for forgiving me but I will make it up to you. So what else is going on in your life?"
Mel: "Well Phil and Adrianna are parents. They have a little boy named Chris and he is so cute. Aside from that Adrianna and I are okay I guess." Adrianna. The girl who made my years of high school horrible. She was always standing by my locker waiting to taunt me about how no guy wants to be with me or tell me Brian was going to leave just like my so called "father".
Loren: "Wow! Gone for two years and look what happens?" We laughed and my mom went in her room.
Mel: "So what are you going today?" We finished our breakfast and went to wash our plates.
Loren: "I'm going to the courthouse today and file for a divorce." Even if that dream I had last night freaked me out this is something that needs to be done. "Also I'm pressing charges of assault against him."
Mel: "Wow that was fast. I thought you would be all confused and wouldn't know what to do." She looked at me in a worried way.
Loren: "Well I am confused but I feel like this is the right thing to do." I played with the ring on my finger.
Mel: "Okay well call me if you need anything alright?" I nodded my head. "Well Adam's waiting for me and I really did come to check on you not just the food." I laughed and she was on her way.
I went to my room and sat on my bed. Is this the right thing to do? What if he does change? Maybe he can be the way he was in high school? Ugh! I turned on the radio and smiled when I heard the name Eddie Duran.
Radio Host: "Okay, this song coming up next was just released this morning and I have to say this song really helps girls out there that are in a tough spot right now. Everybody Knows by Eddie Duran."
Do you really wanna be with him, girl?
When all he ever does is make you cry
and do you think that you can handle the truth girl
when all he ever does is tell you lies
I laid on my bed and let the melody and lyrics soak into me. It's like he made this song for me except instead of boyfriend, husband. Why is it so hard to make a decision? All Brian ever does is make me cry by his words and actions. He always lie to me so why is this so hard?
You know what...
He kisses you but he don't mean it
and he don't look into your eyes
And he don't see the things I see girl
He would say the words 'I love you' but in his eyes I knew he didn't mean it. He only made eye contact with me when he was angry and hit me, but every time I would ask him where he has been, he never looked me in the eye.
So somebody tell me why...
Your boyfriend is a douchebag
and everybody knows
your boyfriend is a douchebag
your momma told you so.
My mother did tell me he wasn't good for me. But what did I do? I didn't listen. Well I learned my lesson and I will never make that same mistake again. That douchebag? And to think I was about to give myself to him.
You know he's got somebody on the side, girl
And the way he talks to us is a sin
He just keep sinnin' on...
I really think it's time girl
you quit defending him
He did have someone on the side. Now that tramp is pregnant with he's child. He talked to me like I was nothing. He treated me like I was the gum stuck under his shoes. Not like I wife. Like I was his maid. He was never with me on holidays, I was always alone. So why was this a hard decision to make?
You keep telling me things are gonna change
yeah, okay.
Will you could never change my mind.
Part of me wants him to change so we can put all this behind us, but who am I kidding? I know he's not going to.
Your boyfriend still a douchebag
and everybody knows
your boyfriend is a douchebag
your momma told you so.
And everybody knows
your boyfriend is...
You got to let him go!
Your boyfriend is a douchebag
Even his momma thinks so.
Eddie told me the exact same thing. Let him go. It's hard when you've know the person ever since you were in high school and you guys were high school sweet hearts especially when you thought you were madly in love. Why is this so hard?
There ain't no way around it
you really gotta know
that cover up is sweet but phony got that candy coat
You try to make the truth
Look like it's something good
and you perform like he's a star reppin' Hollywood
I know he said he's sorry
But I see nothin real
And yet his mouth keep runnin' track and field.
SO maybe you can help me
understand why you do do do do that!
To be honest I don't know why I do that.
And tell me why your boyfriend's a douchebag
Girl, everybody knows
your boyfriend's such a douchebag
your momma told you so,
you know what she said...
You gotta let it go, go! Go! Go!
Gotta let him go! Go! Go!
Everyone knows he's a douchebag and I know I got to let him go. I made my decision and I'm going to file for a divorce. Right when the song was finish my phone started ringing. I smiled when I saw Eddie's name across the screen
(Phone conversation)
Loren: "Hey Eddie! What's up?"
Eddie: "Hey, nothing's up just calling to check up on you." Awe how sweet.
Loren: "I'm fine thank for checking up on me."
Eddie: "You're welcome. So did hear my song? I actually wrote it yesterday after leaving your house. I was inspired. So I called Jake and we recorded it this morning."
Loren: "Yeah, I heard it. I loved it and it also felt like every word you said related to my situation. It also helped me make a decision." I kind of feel like I inspired him.
Eddie: "Glad I could help. So what are you doing today?"
Loren: "I am going to the court house filing for a divorce and pressing charges on Brian for assault. Then I have to pass by my house and get some stuff and my car."
Eddie: "Do you want me to come with you? I don't want you going through this all by yourself. I'm here for you Loren." Why does he care about me so much? It's been four days since we met and four day's since I've been free. Truth is I'm actually scared to go myself and I could us some company. Also I enjoy being around Eddie.
Loren: "Yeah, sure. I was actually going to take a cab."
Eddie: "I'll be there in 15 minutes." Another reason I wanted Eddie to come with me was because when I go to the house I shared with Brian, I didn't want to be alone.
Loren: "When did you become my personal chauffeur? Not that I'm complaining." I said in a flirty way. Oh my gosh! What am I doing? "So, I'll wait for you. Thanks Eddie! Bye!"
(End of Phone Conversation)
I hung up not even waiting for a reply. It's too soon to start flirting with people. I need to guard my heart so it won't get hurt again. All men are the same. That's all I got to think about in order to keep myself from falling. I waited about 15 minutes then I got a text from Eddie saying he was outside. I got my bag and headed out. Told my mom where I was going and left. I saw a black escalator parked in the drive way. Eddie came out of the car and pulled me into a hug, rubbing my back. When He pulled away I smelled like his cologne. He held my hand and walked me to the passenger side of the car and opened the door for me. Such a gentlemen. He walked to the driver's side of the car and we were on our way.
When we got there we sat in the waiting room. I was so nervous. I'm about to end my marriage but it's for the best. I'm also about to press charges on Him. Something I was warned not to do in my dream. The lady at the front desk told me Mister Johnson was waiting for me. I was so nervous and I guess Eddie sense my fear so he grabbed my hand and rubbed it in a soothing way. I felt so weird whenever he touched me. Not bad weird but good weird. If that even makes sense. It was indescribable feeling and I liked it.
Eddie: "Do you want me to come with you?" He gave me a 'are you okay' look. I only saw concern in his beautiful dark brown eyes. The eyes that I always seemed to get lost in.
Loren: "Yes, please." I said barely above a whisper. I just feel so comfortable around him considering we met four days ago. He put his hand on my small back and guided me to Mr. Johnson's office. This is it.
Mr. Johnson: "Good morning. Please take a sit." There were two wooden chairs in front of his desk so we took a sit. "So what can I do for you guys today?"
Loren: "Well, I'm here to file for a divorce and press charges on an assault."
*Not sure how this stuff works. Bear with me here.*
Mr. Johnson: "Okay, so divorce processes usually last up to about 2 years." I looked over at Eddie and saw him tensed up a little bit. Why? I would ask him about that later.
Loren: "Is there like any way to speed up the process?" I wanted to get this over with so I can finally move on from my past. Start fresh.
Mr. Johnson: "If I'm speeding up the process then it'll cost a lot of money. Are you sure you want to speed up the process?" He gave me a questioning look.
Eddie: "I could help pay for it. I want to help you Loren." He really wanted to help me that he would pay for this for me. No one would ever do that for me.
Loren: "I appreciate the support Eddie, but I can't let you pay this for me. You've done so much for me already. Thank you and you're the best friend a girl can ever have. How much is it?" I was afraid of the numbers I was about to hear. I still some of my college fund so I could us that.
Mr. Johnson: "Okay tell you what. I'll just give you the papers to sign and if you can get your spouse to sign the paper then you won't have to worry about the fee and you get claim all your belongings."
*I know this is not how the process work but, I'm only 14 years old. I have a wild imagination also I don't know how this stuff works. So let's just say it was a miracle.*
Loren: "Thank you so much!"
It's a miracle. I can't believe I don't have to pay anything just get Brian to sign the papers. Which means I have to pay him a visit in jail. I signed the papers and press charges. Eddie and I said out goodbyes and I thanked him once again. Now we were headed to my old house. I looked at the house. I can't believe I used to live her. We walked to the front door. I stopped in the middle of the way causing Eddie who was walking closely behind me to trip.
Eddie: "Are you okay?" He put his hand on my back.
Loren: "I'm sorry, it's just that . . . I'm reminded of all the thing that went on in this out. I'm scared to go in."
Eddie: "I'm here for you." He grabbed my hand and entwined his fingers in mines.
He led the way to the door. I pulled the key out of my pocket and slowly opened the door. Once the door was opened we walked in. I saw glass everywhere and a couple of blood on the floor. I went straight to the bedroom that I slept in alone and got some of my clothes. I took some of my shoes and sleep wear. I found my car keys on the kitchen counter and headed out. Too much flashbacks of past events were running through my head.
Loren: "Thank you Eddie for coming with me today. You being with calmed me down a little. Thank you." I gave him a hug and he wrapped his arms around my waist while my arms were around his neck. I don't know why I felt like this but I felt like that's where our hands belonged. That all this happening, we meeting was meant to be.
Eddie: "You're welcome Loren. Call me if you need anything."
We left in spate cars. I turned on the radio and Eddie's song was playing. I sung along. Your boyfriend is a douchebag. I was smiling and happy. This was a huge step for me and I was glad that did this was over. I'm single and free. Men are all the same. Tomorrow I have to visit Brian in jail and get him to sign these papers. Hopeful everything goes as planned.
Hey Guy! So there you have it. I didn't know how to write the whole divorce thing so I made it as a miracle. So next chapter will continue on Loren's POV and her visit to Brian at jail. I wonder what is going to happen? Thank you for all the reviews. Also continue to review because knowing you guys love or like my story motivates me to continue. Until next time!
~Carline1998
