A/N. Hello everyone! First I would like to thank everyone who reviewed last chapter n.n you guys made me really happy n.n . Even the person who treatened to kill me if I didn't updated soon. That was awesome and funny xD.
Yes I am aware that it was a long time... a week, but this is a especial chapter, hope you like it, 2 chapters in one xDDD.
Like I said, it's going to be a little different, you'll see why.
Disclaimer. Not mine... although It would be awesome! XD
Surprised
Tori's POV
I seriously don't know what got into me. One minute we were celebrating the success of the play with Cat and Beck, it was just hilarious to see Cat bouncing around out of happiness, and the next I had Jade pinned up against the wall. I just felt so powerful, so in control, and seeing her react like that gave me all the confidence in the world to act on my feelings.
What were those feelings that kept on pushing to the surface anyway? I spent the entire night thinking about her, about how I had messed things up yesterday when I stopped her and told her all of those things about not rushing into things, and me not wanting to be a rebound thing for her.
All I could think about was how I messed up, and I kept remembering her words, "You´re right, Vega, I have to go." How could I have been so stupid about the whole thing? I should have been tactful about it, said it with different words…or I don´t know. She was gone. The sound of her car leaving just reminded me of what I had lost, because in that moment I really thought that I had lost her. Did I ever have her to begin with? Can I say I did?
It was a dark night, I even appreciated hearing Trina´s voice yammering about how her show wasn´t going to be displayed in primetime, but it was going to be the last one, maybe at midnight. I had to convince her that people always saved the best for last. She seemed to agree with that and was obviously happy to 'understand' the situation correctly now because it was impossible that her multi-talented performance wasn't the center of the day.
After we talked about the whole 'mistake' thing about her show, she asked about mine, which was good because I had completely forgotten about it. The whole thing with Jade took it out of my head. So I told her that with Cat and Beck we had all set, that I thought that it was going to be a good show. She asked me about Beck, that she had heard that he was single, I answered by nodding, and then she added with her suspicious grin, "And sis, are you going to make a move on him? Because I think he will be up for it…unless you want to give it to your big sis…even though I don't usually go for younger boys I could make an exception with him…" That made me laughed because it was really funny. I wasn't about to like Beck at all, and on the other hand, I think my sister could mysteriously die if she had anything to do with Jade's ex. So I told her that I did not like him at all, and that she could make her move, although she needed to worry about her life, saying Jade's name in the process. She went pale and changed the subject. I think she's not going to go there.
She started talking about other random things but I couldn't pay attention anymore because Jade's name set all of the memories again, and I needed to stop thinking about that because I had a performance the next day and I had to get it right. So I excused myself and went upstairs again, stayed in my room, and texted her. She only said something about the play…well if she says that I guessed that is what I needed to focused on.
When I saw her today in the play and I knew that she had come to see it regardless of her own show it made me feel so happy that I couldn't hold myself. It appeared that she wasn't mad at me or anything like that. That surprised me. I needed to show her a little of what I was feeling and how I wasn't scared at all. And that was what I did. Besides, she looked somehow weak or at least not her strong self anymore. I couldn't tell but there was something different in her eyes when she looked at me.
And then we were there, against the wall backstage. Cat took Beck with her to see her brother so we were alone there to do whatever we wanted, and I really wanted to do something in particular. And, to my surprise, Jade reacted really, really well to what I had in mind. She was allowing me to grab her, to kiss her, to bite her neck against the wall, and she didn't just kiss me back, but she was moaning, panting from my actions. I felt so powerful that I couldn't believe it, that Jade was letting herself be so vulnerable to me. I mean, in that way.
And I stopped and looked at her beautiful eyes. "Jade, look, I just want you to know that I trust you and that I like you…Just, forget what I said yesterday. You don't owe me any explanations about your behavior. I know everything I need to know, at least until you want to tell me something else." There, I said it. I needed her to know, without a doubt, what I was thinking.
She's biting her lip, looking at the floor and frowning. Did I say something wrong again? She looks so conflicted, like she is debating with herself over something. I just look at her, trying to give her some room to think about things.
Finally, she speaks. "Well Vega. I'm glad you think that because you are not just a rebound thing for me. Is that clear? And by the way, you can't just attack me like that…" Oh, she is mad about what I did… "And then just stop, alright?" She was smirking. It seemed that she actually liked what I did.
So I smirk back and grab her head, pulling her close to me. I like having her like this, close to me. I bite her lip and then I pull away. Her eyes are closed.
"Alright Jade, I'll keep that in mind for next time," I say, and now she is smiling. I love when she smiles, even though I have to admit it still scares me a little when she does it because it reminds me of her dangerous self, but that danger, now I must say, I like.
"Next time, Vega? Are you that confident now?" She's grinning. She isn't mad about this. She is just teasing.
"Yes Jade, you know you can stop me whenever you want…if you want, of course." I don't know how it is that I dare do this…to speak like this to her…but still, I do it.
She raises a brow and looks directly into my eyes. "Don't get all conceited on me, Vega, otherwise you'll get what you deserve," she says and I see her true self again.
"And exactly what would that be, Jade? Please tell me." I really want to know because something tells me that maybe she is bluffing about the whole thing.
"Wouldn't you want to know, Vega? Let's keep it a secret, you will know soon enough." Now she is smirking completely. And I like it.
"I see… then I will have to act conceited, Jade. Just to know what you would do to me," I say, trying my luck. Then she starts laughing at my words. I can't help but smile.
"So, you want me to do that to you…Alright now, Tori, don't complain later," she says, and now I laugh. Everything seems right in the world again. I can't believe that a couple of hours ago I was terrified thinking that I had messed up everything. This thing with Jade seems like a dream sometimes. I just wish not to wake up from this.
It is then when I see Beck. He seems to have come back from wherever Cat had taken him, and apparently was looking for something, maybe us.
"I hope I'm not interrupting anything, Ladies," he says with an acid voice. How long has he been here?
I can't help but feel a little guilty again. So I hurry to answer. "It's okay. Do you need something, Beck? Did you forget anything?" The truth is that I do feel a little annoyed by his presence and it's noticed in my voice, but there's really nothing I can do about it.
Jade adds, "Yes, Beck, you are interrupting, so you better find quickly what you came looking for and leave us alone." I can see how mad she is whenever he appears. And frankly I can't blame her. If I were her, I don't think I would be too happy either. Hell, not even I am happy about this, and this is not of my business…Well, I guess it is, somehow.
Beck speaks again. "Yes, thank you Jade, actually, I came here looking for you." For her? What does he want with her? I think I'm feeling a little jealous at his words. I don't like this. Maybe it's not my place to feel jealous at all, but that is not something you can control.
"Looking for me? What the hell do you want from me?" she says and I can tell she is no happier about the idea than me.
He turns around and looks at me. "Tori, I'm sorry to ask you this, but would you give us a minute please? I need to talk to Jade alone about something." I don't know how to answer that so I just look at Jade. She is looking intensely at Beck and then just nods in my direction.
"Of course, no problem, Jade, I will be outside waiting for you, okay?" I say to her and without adding anything else I start walking. A million things run into my head and I just wonder if leaving her with him is the right thing to do. I don't want to see her hurt again.
Jade's POV
What the hell does he want now? He just ruined the moment Tori and I were sharing. I hate that. Not that I really mind about her, but still, he has no right. What am I saying, who am I kidding here, it's not like if someone could read my mind, it's just me in here, unless of course some psychologist would see me and diagnoses me with bipolar disorder. But that is a completely different story. I do care about her. What Tori told me a moment ago about her trusting me…I felt weird. She trust me, I felt a little guilty about it, I just… I really wanted to make her feel good about it. I needed to prove her that she was important for me. Needless to say about her actions, she really surprised me there, in a good way. I could definitely get used to that.
I don't know what it is that she is doing to me. It seems longer, but only a couple of days ago I was still with the boy I have now in front of me, and now it seems like the whole world has changed. Has it changed? Changes like this can come so sudden? I mean, I didn't even notice. And the way Tori is acting now…it is almost as if that dream was a prediction or something. It makes me feel something strong inside of me…I'm not sure of much right now.
I turn to Beck. "So, are you going to tell me what the fuck you want?" I feel pissed off and not sure it is at him, but, hey, he is here, so he needs to deal with it.
"Come on, Jade, there's no need to be so aggressive. I just want to talk to you and I already told you that," he says with that impassive face of his.
"Yeah genius, I know that. But what do you want to talk about? The weather? Or is it that you want to ask me about your pretty play and how you wrote it for Tori? Want to ask me how I feel about that or what I think about it, Beck? That was a real piece of cake for me." I don't know where that came from, but I can't help it. I am mad about the whole thing. I just need him to know about all this.
"Whoa, relax Jade. That's not what I wanted to talk about. And I'm really sorry that you had found out about that. I didn't mean to hurt you, you know?" he says and he seems honest about it, but I just don't care. His actions speak from him. Words are taken by the wind.
"Right, you are so good that you didn't care about dumping me one day and the next confessing your feelings to Vega, something that seems you had prepared for long before. How could you be such an asshole Beck? I always thought I was the mean one in our relationship." I'm starting to feel sick over this. I am talking more than I should. It's just that I can't help but feel hurt over it.
"Look Jade, I am really sorry. I should have let you know what I was feeling long before what happened. Maybe that would have spared us both the troubles. I just couldn't stand the idea of losing you… of hurting you with my confusion. You are an important part of me and I guess that now I did lose you. I am such a moron. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be like that, Jade, and you know I still love you," he says. I don't know what he expects me to say to this. He has been a jerk to me and now he tells me this, an apology? Really? What is he looking for? Absolution?
"Yes, you should have, but you didn't. Now deal with the consequences. If you were man enough to leave me like that and didn't thought about the damage you were doing to me, don't come back telling me that you love me now just because you think that you lost me and Vega does not likes you back." I smile at this, not so much because it hurts him, but more because I like the idea of her liking me. It makes me a little…happy, really happy. I want to get out of here and go to her soon.
"I see. So is that it, Jade? You wanted me to deal with the consequences? Is that what this is all about? I do understand the consequences now. I made a mistake. Come on, Jade, I'm sorry. What else do you want me to say? Please, forgive me; I will do whatever you want, please. You know I still love you. Don't you think we should…give it another try?" I just can't believe his words. Is he serious about this? Is he trying to get back with me? What a moron.
"So, let me see if I get this, Beck. You want us to get back together? Why now? You told me you didn't love me anymore. Just because Vega is not available you come to me? And what do you mean that I wanted you to deal with the consequences?" I don't know why, but I don't answer directly to his question.
"Well…Yes Jade, I do want us to get back together. I made a mistake. The thing about Tori, I was just confused, but when I saw you with her, I did not feel jealous of you, I felt jealous of her. I still want you. I don't want her." Now I see, he felt bad when he saw me with her. Good, although jealous wasn't what I was aiming. I just wanted to see him crushed and that he did not get to have what he wanted.
"I see. Now you're not confused anymore? Right, but what do you mean 'what this is all about'?" I'm a little confused about his words.
"Well, you know, the whole you and Tori thing. I know you don't really like her, you just got with her so I couldn't have her, to make me jealous, because you want me back, right?" Wait…what?
"Oh! Yes, of course Beck!" I say this sarcastically. But then again, I know he's not completely wrong about it. I did not want him with her.
"What? I know I'm right because you haven't denied it. Come on, tell me now that you don't love me and I'll leave." A couple of seconds go by and I freeze because this is getting out of hand and it is then that I hear someone cry. I turn around to see Tori at the door, looking at me with tears pouring down her cheeks and I am terrified. Did she listen to the entire conversation?
"Tori, what are you doing here?" Of course, I had to ask the most stupid question of all time. I can be so stupid sometimes, especially when things matter. She just opens and closes her mouth and then she turns around, preparing to leave. Now she misunderstood my intentions, great.
"Perfect, it's your entire fault, you idiot," I tell Beck, but I know it is not entirely his fault.
"What? I told her to give us a minute. It's her fault." When he says this I just feel like punching him. And then he adds, "Well, it's better for her to find out about this soon. So… Are we back together yet?" I can't believe him. I just tell him to back off and leave there to try to find Tori. That's what I should have done from the beginning.
A/N. So, you like it? Not at all? what do you think about Beck? What will Tori do now? xD please tell me what you think. Reviews will be much apreciated n.n
see you next week! (Yeah, sorry about that, but I won't be home for a couple of days x.x) have a great weekend.
