Erotophobia: Fear of expressing or experiencing sexual desires.
"Please no" Tracy begged "I don't want this! Please let me go"
"Shut the fuck up"
"Please!"
"No! You're a fucking submissive, right? Start taking it like a good whore"
Levy sat at Gajeel's house, her knee bouncing uncontrollably because of her nerves. Ever since Gajeel found out about Tracy missing he has been unusually quite. He was now in the kitchen cooking breakfast for them. Luckily he was nice enough to pour a cup of coffee for her. She breathed out, trying hard not to panic. It wasn't because of Tracy missing necessarily, granted she felt terrible for Tracy and Evan but she was more worried that Gajeel wasn't going to let her going back to the club.
Apparently what had happened was that Tracy and Evan got into an argument with each other after the show. Evan walked away to cool down so that he didn't lose his temper and say something to Tracy he would regret. When he got back, his apartment was in shambles and Tracy was missing. Evan spent the entire night looking for her, but she was just gone.
Gajeel was completely different after Evan left. He could barely look at Levy, much less talk to her. She wouldn't even had come to his place but he managed out a growl when she mentioned leaving and going home. Levy took the hint and went to his home instead. He didn't object, so she took as a good sign at least.
Gajeel then put a plate of food in front of her. She jumped slightly when she zoned back in to focus to find the dragon slayer standing in front of her. Her eyes widened slightly at the sight of him just feel a blush build up and make her look away quickly.
"Shorty" Gajeel growled "you gotta eat"
"t-thank you but no thanks"
"Levy" he said while glaring "fucking eat something"
"n-no" she said looking at him "I don't want to eat"
"You're playing with fire, Levy"
"I'm sorry Gajeel" she whimpered "I j-just...I'm too nervous to eat right now"
"Nervous?"
Levy nodded silently as she quickly looked away from Gajeel. She didn't want to upset him but she didn't want him to leave her either. I'm not even in a real relationship with him and I'm acting like this? God I'm pathetic. I can't do this. All I want is for Gajeel to look at me the way he did this morning.
"Shrimp"
Please don't leave me
"Levy"
I don't want this end yet
"Levy!"
I've completely ruined this by being so weak
"Focus levy" Gajeel growled as he pinned her to the couch "focus on me"
When Levy got out her head she found Gajeel laying on top of her pinning her hands above her head. She felt her face wet, tasting the salt from tears on her lips, and her chest burned as heaved her breathes in. She was panicking. A full blown panic attack right in front of Gajeel. She started to spiral down again as she found her being weak in front of Gajeel.
"Dammit tiny" he growled as he leaned down, biting her neck
"Ow" levy whimpered "G-gajeel?"
"I said focus on me" he growled "and you better listen to me little girl. Talk. Tell me what you're thinking"
"b-but you'll think I'm weak..."
"No" Gajeel said sternly "I won't ever think your weak Levy. You're the strongest, smartest, most badass women I have met. I know you. I've seen you fight, I've seen you use the beautiful brain of your come up with answers nobody could ever come up with, and you are too fucking hard on yourself. Just because you are a submissive in this relationship, it does not make you a fucking weak person."
"I- I d-don't want you to leave me" levy sobbed "y-you're the only one who's ever treated me like this. Like I'm strong, that I'm not breakable. I-I don't that to end. I-I want to be your submissive. I-I want you, Gajeel"
Gajeel's red eyes widened at her statement. He didn't say anything, just slowly let go of Levy's wrists. He felt his heart pound wildly and he tried hard to control his dragon within. He wanted her so bad. He wanted to claim his true mate, to make Levy his forever. But he couldn't, not quite yet. He needed to take this slow, make sure she was ready. He had to that for her, it was the least he could do for her.
"Oh god" Levy sobbed "you don't want me"
"What?"
"You're just fucking lying there god damn in silence!"
"Fucking hell Levy" he grinned "of course I fucking want you! How could I not?"
"I-I…what?"
"Here" he leaned down closer to her "let me show you"
Gajeel gently cupped the smaller mage's face, bring his lips to hers. Her watched as she slowly closed her eyes, relaxing into him. He closed his eyes as he felt her soft hands card through his hair. With his second hand he gently felt his way on her lower back as she naturally arched to his touch. Playfully he nibbled at her bottom, he could feel her smile softly. Lazily he kissed his way down her neck making his mate moan softly with every move.
"Gajeel" she moaned again as he started to bite her neck with affection "I'm so happy"
"That makes two of us"
ohhohoho. Two chapters in one week? whaaat? lol hopefully this makes up for the long wait, and the kinda short chapter. I missed my writing so much I couldn't sleep until I finished this chapter. I plan on still writing on Thursday but we'll see if I have time to edit it. ((my roommate normally helps me edit except for my steamy parts, and i think next chapter is going to be pretty steamy so i gotta do it myself)) who know maybe I'll update this story three times this week? heeheehee. Thanks for all the good wishes, I promise I'm all good now :) love you all! Please leave reviews, they inspire me so!
