Note to Readers: Sorry I've been gone for so long. I do dearly apologize!
And I'm going to be writing alot more promise. You deserve alot more.
& Remember Degrassi isn't mine; sadly.
--Sara
I went back to sleep after Jay left. I still had a little guilt but that one thing he had said to me kept running my head.
"I sleep around all I want". I kept asking myself if that's what he wanted with me, just a good lay or something. But maybe he didn't I mean he had stayed with me right? Told me I wasn't a slut. That had to be a good thing right? I fell asleep to these thoughts, wanting to push them all away.
Around eight I woke up again, to my mom. She was telling me how she had to go to work and to go out today.
"Em, I have to go to work but have fun today, hang out with Jay and them again maybe" She talked with anticipation.
"I'll try mom" "Good sweetie" She smiled at me and kissed my forehead, leaving. It felt nice knowing I was home alone, being alone was nice, sometimes. Well being home alone without mom, right I wanted to see Jay. But I didn't know when he got up or anything. So I crawled out of bed and walked up to the kitchen. I suddenly felt cold, I remembered I was only in my bra and boxers. I had taken my clothes off after Jay left. I decided to leave it for now and just make my eggs. After I did that I went downstairs and there he was. His eyes wide when I saw him.
"I'm sorry for showing up like this" He said hesitantly but you could tell he was glad he did. "It's fine I guess, I'm just gonna put some clothes on."
He walked up till he was really close, he was breathing heavily, "You don't have to" I half smiled and turned around to go to my closet but he put his arms around my waist. Pulling me up against him. He was rubbing his hand up and down my stomach as he whispered in my ear "You really got a body on you don'tcha?, Can we just mess around?, We don't have to have sex unless you want to, I mean I won't force you to do anything."
He started kissing my neck a little bit and then turned me around,
"This ok?" He asked nicely. I nodded a little bit and he smiled then said "You gotta answer me in words, Em" He had called me Em, that made me smile. "Yes, i-it's ok". He smiled, and started kissing me. Rubbing his hand up my side till he got my bra, he pulled away. Looking at me, his eyes asking if it was ok and I just nodded. Not really knowing what I was doing. He unclasped my bra and slid it off of my body, letting it fall to the floor.
---Dun dun dun what will happen?
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I'm scared for Emma myself because in truth Idk what's going to happen yet hehe
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Love always --Sara
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