So you want to know where our Miss Dotson has suddenly disappeared too then read on and find out xx I'm starting to get into this one now - I'm still not 100% happy with it but I'm getting there

Myles stood in front of the window staring at the empty bed, trying to figure out where Lucy had gone, Sue at the side of him in pretty much the same state

"Where is she Sue?" he asked after tapping her arm to gain her attention

"I really don't know, I knew I should have come here before coming to see you, maybe at least then we would know where she was and that she was ok, what if she isn't ok Myles" Sue said wiping tears from her face

"Hey this is not your fault" Myles replied placing a comforting arm around her shoulder, "Wait here I'll go and see if I can find someone who can give us some answers"

Myles left Sue at the ITU window and headed into the elevator to talk to someone, anyone who could help him find out what happened to Lucy, including every doctor and nurse that entered and exited the elevator. As the elevator came to a halt on the ground floor he found the small short woman the team had seen when Lucy was admitted yesterday

"Excuse me" Myles said approaching the woman

"Yes"

"My colleague Lucy Dotson was bought in yesterday following a car crash on K street, she was recovering in ITU after surgery but now she's gone do you know where?"

The woman, Tina, began typing at her computer "I'm sorry sir there is nothing in her notes, so either she was rushed in for emergency surgery or has been rushed for a scan. I'm sure it's nothing to worry about" she replied trying her best to calm the obviously distressed man in front of her "I'm sure if you go back to ITU I'm sure Miss Dotson will be back soon, if not one of the nurses will be able to help you"

"Thanks" Myles added feeling rather frustrated that he didn't really have any answers regarding the missing Lucy

Heading back towards the ITU, he saw Sue stood against the window being comforted by her loving husband and couldn't help but wish he had Lucy to comfort him

"Any news" Jack asked when he saw him approach

"Nothing the woman at the admissions desk didn't know anything, all she knows is what is in her records"

"So where is she" Sue asked worriedly

"I really don't know" Myles replied sinking into his chair, followed by Jack and Sue moments later, all three sat in silence as they waited for news of their missing colleague

They had been sat an hour when a hospital gurney was wheeled past them all three feeling a sense of relief when they saw who the patient in the bed was, the gurney was followed by an obviously physically exhausted Caroline Adams

"Caroline" Myles called

"Myles, she's fine, just give me a few moments to settle her back in and I'll come and talk to all of you"

Myles didn't like being kept in the dark about what had happened to Lucy, but he knew Caroline's duty of care was to, Lucy, her patient and not him so he sat back in his chair and tried to ignore the voices swirling around his head.

Once Caroline had ensured Lucy was settle and recovering well she approached the three friends patiently waiting outside the door. Taking a chair and placing it in front of the trio, so Sue could read her lips, she began explaining what had happened

"I know you are all worried about what happened to Miss Dotson this morning. Well I'll explain everything. Miss Dotson was rushed to theatre about 8am as she was bleeding heavily; when we took her into theatre we discovered she had ruptured her womb wall, it could have happened in the accident or it could be because of an existing problem, I am waiting for her doctor to send her records, in order to learn more. We tried to repair the rupture but were unsuccessful; the only way to save Miss Dotson's life was to perform a hysterectomy."

"A hysterectomy, doesn't that mean Lucy will never have her own children?" Sue stated placing a gentle hand on her own swollen tummy

"I'm afraid it does" Caroline added "But it really was the only option, the gynaecologists would have only carried out this procedure if it was the last option"

"How is she now?" Jack asked still in shock over what Lucy had to go through

"She's is doing a lot better, the pressure in her brain is easing all the time, her blood pressure and pulse are both stable, we are still really worried about the spinal cord damage, but until she wakes up we cannot determine the level of damage, she is really fighting hard there is obviously something or that be someone she needs to see," she replied smiling at Myles

Is she still in a coma?" Myles asked sadly

"No Myles, because the pressure on her brain is easing we have taken her out of the enforced coma, so hopefully she should wake up in a few hours or at least by tomorrow morning"

"Why wasn't I told?" Myles asked somewhat angry "You promised that if anything happened to her you would come and get me, but I was left in the dark, why?"

"Myles, please I had no choice I had to get Lucy to theatre, I know what I said but in this case saving my patient was more important than letting you know" She replied calmly hoping it would have the same effect on Myles

"Can we see her?" Sue butted in, she could see the look in Myles's eyes that gave the indication a blow-out towards Caroline was coming

"In about an hour but only one at a time, the nursing staff needs to get her settled and check her recovery and condition but when they are done I'll ask someone to come out and let you in. In the meantime I suggest maybe some coffee, food or fresh air"

"I AM NOT MOVING!" Myles practically yelled towards Jack, Sue and the doctor before either one of them even attempted to talk to him.

"Myles..." Jack started

"Don't even attempt it Jack, I'm not moving. If you want to bring me coffee or something to eat I'll take them, but I'm not leaving this room until Lucy herself tells me too"

"Myles you can't stay here, you're already drained and exhausted. You need space, air and sleep" Sue pointed out

"There is a window over there and I'll sleep on the chair" he added his frustrations at being nagged and set on getting to him

"Well ok, but at least give us your key so we can go and get you some food and a change of clothes from your place." Sue said

"Fine, here" Myles said practically throwing the keys at Jack

"We'll see you later then, are you sure you'll be ok?" Jack replied knowing full well that when Myles was in this mood there was no budging him

"I'm fine, I want you to just leave me for a bit, I need time alone with her" he replied somewhat relieved that they were giving him space

"I'm really sorry Myles" Caroline said gently as Jack and Sue made their way back towards the elevator and towards Myles's apartment to get him some food and a change of clothes.

"Its fine I know you were just saving my angel, I'm sorry I yelled"

"Its ok, now if you'll excuse me I have other patients I need to see, hey why don't you talk to her some more" she replied before leaving.

Myles smiled and turned his gaze back towards the sleeping, bandaged angel lying in the bed in front of him and just like he had yesterday he began talking to her

"Hey Lucy, I don't know if you can hear me but I'm going to talk to you anyway. I just want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for lying to you all those years ago, I'm sorry for yelling at you yesterday morning, I'm sorry for calling you, I'm sorry that because of me you are never going to able to have your own children, I'm sorry that you may never walk again, I'm sorry for all the years we wasted fighting when all I wanted to do was hold on to you, I'm sorry for all the times I made you worry and I'm sorry for leaving it so long to tell you how much I love you because I do Lucy, I love you I've always loved you so you have to keep fighting this and I promise that from now on I am going to tell you how much I love everyday and no matter what happens Lucy I'll be at your side helping you through this, so just keep fighting"

Myles stood repeating this speech over and over again for the next hour, he only stopped when a nurse placed a gentle hand on his shoulder and informed him he could go in and sit with her once he put on the protective clothing. Slipping the green gown over his suit and white foot coverings over his shoes he slowly made his way to his sleeping angel. Standing at the foot of her bed her injuries and the events of the last twenty four hours hit him and hit him hard. There was still this small part of him that had hoped he was dreaming, but seeing her close up and without the glass window of the ITU, the bruises and cuts looking a lot worse, the bandages covering her body, the pins in her legs, the constant beeping of the machines, he knew it was all real and that he truly had nearly lost her.

"Sir" a small voice bought him back from his thoughts "Sir are you alright, you can sit and hold her hand if you want to, but only her hand we must keep contact to a minimum"

"Sorry, yes I'm fine and thank you" Myles smiled

He took a deep breath and walked over to the white plastic hospital chair and sat down, he reached for her hand but stopped himself, what if he caused her an infection, what if he hurt her, what if she died because of a bacteria on his skin

"It's ok to touch her" The small voice repeated

"I don't want to hurt her or cause any damage" Myles replied in a small voice, the wave of emotions circling his throat

"She's fine, honestly you can hold her hand just don't kiss it or kiss her, the hands are cleaner than your mouth, but if it makes you feel more relaxed, use some of this it will kill off any infections" the nurse added holding out a small bottle of hand sanitizer.

Myles took a small blob in his hands and rubbed it in, the small action making him feel more at ease about touching her. Sitting forwards in the chair he took hold of her small hand and as he looked down he instantly felt relaxed, it was as if their hands were made to fit together, tracing small circles on her palm with his hands he began retelling the same speech over and over again in a hope that this time she would tell him to shut up.

A few hours later thanks to Jack and Sue, a newly shaven, washed, fed, coffee drunk, and clothes change Myles was to be seen by his colleagues sleeping in the chair, still holding Lucy's hand, his head resting on his hand and a small smile gracing his lips as once again his dreams was filled by their wedding day.

PLease review xx and like I said just because Lucy survived the accident it doesn't mean everything is going to be ok - her and Myles have a long way to go yet x