Chapter 8
You're a bastard, you know that? –Captain Hedgehog
Really John, such strong words. It's not my fault you felt it was fine to use an usb sex toy while idling on skype after all. –Deducing Otter
I wasn't- John had started to write but deleted it. He had no idea what to say, he didn't want to admit to using it but he knew Sherlock well enough to know he had figured it out if he had directly said it.
Well if you knew that's what I was doing, why would you message me? –Captain Hedgehog
There was a long pause before Sherlock responded.
You could have turned skype off when I first messaged you, unaware of what you were doing I might add. –Deducing Otter
It was a fair enough point John considered, but it still seemed like Sherlock was simply trying to change the subject.
I was a bit occupied at the time. –Captain Hedgehog
Just a bit? –Consulting Otter
John could practically hear his smug grin through the computer.
Maybe more then a bit- Captain Hedgehog
Besides, if you actually used a vibrator that I sent you, I figured you wouldn't be opposed to me assisting. –Consulting Otter
'Assisting?' Is that what you're calling what you just did?- Captain Hedgehog
Sounded better then 'messaging you till you came' –Deducing Otter
John flashed beat red at his screen.
So why did you- John had started to typed before another message was sent.
Have to go, wont be back for a while, sorry. –Deducing Otter
K, bye… - Captain Hedgehog.
John frowned at his computer, there was no point to being online while Sherlock was gone. He couldn't help but wonder what it was he was doing anyway. He knew it was selfish to want him at the other end of his computer for as long as he wanted though. John was also bothered that he wasn't upset with him for intentionally getting him off. He wasn't gay. Knowing Sherlock knew what he was doing shouldn't have been so erotic.
It rained the following day, matching John's mood. Sherlock hadn't come back online the night before and he had fallen asleep waiting for him. It wasn't like he had said he was coming back though… and really there was no need for John to wait for him anyway, but still he had and missed Sherlock dearly.
He threw his soaked cardigan on the floor of the dorm, wishing he could just ignore his computer for once but found he really couldn't. John pretended he wasn't thrilled to see Sherlock was online, but he knew he was.
It's freezing here, wish I had a fire. –Captain Hedgehog
No fireplace in your dorm room I take it. –Deducing Otter
Nope, just a simple little room with a bed and a desk, luckily no dorm mate at the moment. –Captain Hedgehog
You have a fireplace? –Captain Hedgehog
I do, but I can't use it. -Deducing Otter
Why's that? -Captain Hedgehog
I would have to ask my sod of a brother and he would of course complain I could just use a blanket. –Deducing Otter
Ah, not that romantic type I take it. –Captain Hedgehog
Is setting a fire to stave off hypothermia romantic? –Deducing Otter
Preventing hypothermia sets the mood, yes. –Captain Hedgehog
I'll keep that in mind –Deducing Otter.
John raised his eyebrow at the message. Was Sherlock implying something or was it in his head?
I thought I was going to die when I was walking back from class. It was awful, I normally like walking. –Captain Hedgehog
I've been inside all day, weather doesn't really affect me all that much these days. –Deducing Otter
Never go for walks? They can be nice, assuming the sky isn't pouring. –Captain Hedgehog
No. –Deducing Otter
Right, you mentioned you don't go out much. –Captain Hedgehog
He recalled the way Sherlock had clamed up when John mentioned his therapist, the small muttering of 'sounds like mine' when he told him how Ella said he need to get out more.
It's funny, you know my dorm address but I have no idea where you are. –Captain Hedgehog
Does it matter? –Deducing Otter
Just curious. I mean, we're friends, friends tend to know those things. But it's alright, you don't need to tell me. –Captain Hedgehog
John was more then a bit disappointed that Sherlock didn't seem to trust him enough to tell him. A small part of him had even hoped they might meet one day, Sherlock had been very open to giving John his phone number after all, though a bit more hesitant when it came to web caming for the first time.
No… it's ok. We are friends. –Deducing Otter
John thought it almost seemed like Sherlock was confirming the fact, which gave him a hint of a smile.
London actually. Opposite side from you. –Deducing Otter
John's smile widened and took up his whole face.
I didn't realize you could be so close, I guess at times you just seemed like the man that lived inside my computer. –Captain Hedgehog.
You know no one could live inside a compute right? –Deducing Otter
You know what I meant, and I wish I had known you're in London sooner. –Captain Hedgehog
Look, I know what you're thinking but I'm afraid it will never happen. –Deducing Otter
You're right, the school cafeteria will never serve cheesecake. –Captain Hedgehog
Very amusing. I meant visiting me. It can't happen. –Deducing Otter
Why not? We're so close. –Captain Hedgehog
It just wont work out. –Deducing Otter
We could meet somewhere else first? Somewhere public if you're concerned about that. –Captain Hedgehog
No, it's not that. Just, please John. Do this for me? Don't push it. Please. –Deducing Otter
Tell me why at least? –Captain Hedgehog
I cant. Can you drop it? –Deducing Otter
Is it your brother? Or do you not want to meet me? –Captain Hedgehog
No, neither. Though I'm sure he would be very annoyed if you did come here. But it's not you John, trust me. –Deducing Otter
You could come here instead. -Captain Hedgehog
Cant. –Deducing Otter
Never? –Captain Hedgehog
Probably never, no. –Deducing Otter
Probably isn't the same as never. –Captain Hedgehog
Then forget I said that and move on. –Deducing Otter
I can't. –Captain Hedgehog.
There was a pause before Sherlock typed anything.
I know you cant. –Deducing Otter
Why did you send me that package? –Captain Hedgehog
You seemed to like it. –Deducing Otter
Why though? –Captain Hedgehog
Does it matter? –Deducing Otter
Yes. Tell me. –Captain Hedgehog
There was an even long pause in messages.
BECAUSE I LIKE YOU. –Deducing Otter
Then I'm going to see you in person. –Captain Hedgehog
John- please- don't, why would you want to see me after that? –Deducing Otter
Because I like you too and refuse to let whatever is holding you back come between us. –Captain Hedgehog
You're being unreasonable. I said you can't. –Deducing Otter
You crinkle your nose when you're mad, I'll bet you're doing it right now. –Captain Hedgehog
I said no. –Deducing Otter
It's cute when you do that. –Captain Hedgehog
You're not gay. –Deducing Otter
I have a very expensive vibrator that might argue that point with you. –Captain Hedgehog
That doesn't mean you like men. –Deducing Otter
No, liking you means I do. Should I bring it when I visit? –Captain Hedgehog
John… -Deducing Otter
I'll take that as a yes. What's the address? –Captain Hedgehog
Teasing me with a sex toy? That seems a bit beneath you. –Deducing Otter
I'm only joking. But please Sherlock. I want to see you. You're amazing and brilliant and completely mad at times but that's why I love you. -Captain Hedgehog
John typed the message out before he realized what he was saying. He hadn't even completely admitted it to himself yet, but there it was.
John, I… I have to tell you something. You might change your mind about me after. –Deducing Otter
Whatever it is, it's ok. Maybe you can tell me in person? –Captain Hedgehog
-Incoming Call-
John clicked the green call button, it would be better to do this face to face.
Sherlock looked beyond distraught, almost like he had just been crying had tried to wipe the tears away before calling him.
"Hey there, calm down, it's ok really."
"No John, It's not ok, nothing is ok." Sherlock's voice was every bit as frantic as he looked.
"Shh, just calm down and breath alright?"
Sherlock took a shuttering breath, "I want to see you, in person, I really do, but it's just not possible."
"There's a nice café down the street from where I live, we could meet up there and I'll get you a cup of tea and a pastry."
"You're not even listening!" Sherlock's nose crinkled a bit, even in a mood John couldn't help but look away. He was otherworldly. How had he not realized his feelings sooner?
Sherlock looked up to scold him further, but couldn't when he saw the John was looking at him, like he was the only other person alive. "John… It's really not."
"It doesn't have to be there, it could be anywhere."
Sherlock looked down at his lap, "No, it can't be anywhere. It has to be here."
"Then I'll come there."
Looking up again, Sherlock seemed like his very life was on the line, "I can't… tomorrow. It has to be tomorrow at 12. Mycroft will be gone by then and…" his voice trailed off a bit.
John smiled, hopeful that Sherlock was finally giving in. "I'll be there, noon, just give me an address."
"895 Doyle Ave."
"I'll be there."
A/N: I live on comments
