Just a quick note. This drabble includes Lexa's death. So don't read if it still bothers you.


"No!"

Warm arms wrapped around her waist, holding her down against the bed. She felt them. She knew that what she felt in her heart at the moment wasn't really happening. It was just a dream. It just felt so real. A thousand deaths were playing out behind her eyelids. They were mostly her own deaths, those didn't bother her, she would gladly give her life again for the one she loved. Though she couldn't bear the ones that she saw her die. The ones she hated were watching the blonde die before her eyes. It felt like her heart was being torn out of her chest. She gasped for breath, but her mind refused to give her up, to allow her to wake up, to know that they were still together in this life.

"Alicia! Wake up, it's just a dream."

The words filtered through to the front of her mind, but she couldn't pull herself out of the pit of despair she found herself in.

"I don't want the next commander. I want you."

Lexa's heart fell to pieces at Clarke's words. She wanted to reassure the blonde that she would always be with her. That they would be together again soon. Not in death, but in life. Clarke had no idea how many lives they'd shared together. She had no idea how many lives that Lexa looked for her. Protected her. Loved her. She didn't know how many times Lexa had to watch her fall in love with someone else. Grow old. Die young. Be happy. Be sad. So many lives.

"I'm ready, Heda," Titus' words pulled Lexa's attention from Clarke. She gave a slight nod.

"Clarke..."

"I'm here."

"Ai gonplei ste odon."

Clarke shook her head, as though it would stop it from being the truth. "No. No, no, I won't accept that."

"You were right, Clarke. Life should be about more then just surviving."

Lexa could see from Clarke's face that it took her a moment to remember words from months ago. The other girl took a breath, her hands holding onto Lexa's tightly even though she could barely feel them any more.

"In peace, may you leave the shore. In love, may you find the next."

Lexa trained her eyes on Clarke, only glancing to Titus for a quick moment before darting back to Clarke. She didn't know what the words meant. They had special meaning to the blonde though. Lexa watched her through a dark haze as she choked the words out.

"Safe passage on your travels. Until our final journey to the ground."

Blue eyes were the only thing she could see, it would be the last thing she would see in this life.

"May we meet again."

Soft lips pressed against her own. It was the last thing she felt before she died.

Opening her eyes, Alicia found herself staring into blue eyes. The reminder to her dream made her heart ache. She half hoped that Elyza would never remember any of their past lives, to spare her any of the heartache that Alicia felt. But, at the same time, she hoped that she would remember. She wanted to feel loved as she had before. She wanted to love as she had before, as she almost did now.

"I'm sorry."

Alicia frowned. "What for?"

Elyza looked down at her hands. It was strange to see her looking so vulnerable. She wore armour in the shape of sass and sarcasm. Alicia knew that it was something important if she was dropping that armour.

Several minutes passed in silence. Finally, unable to bear it anymore, Alicia curled up beside Elyza, it was still late with plenty of time to sleep. Hopefully without nightmares. "Let's go back to sleep," she said softly, tugging at Elyza's shirt.

Elyza looked down at her. Pain was evident in her blue eyes. She laid down beside Alicia, still staring at her.

"Reshop, Heda."


A/N:

I'm still not 100% sure how I want to present Elyza, so you're just getting random bits of her until I make up my mind.