She was gone…for real. She left with something wrong with our baby. Why wasn't I chasing after her? Why was I yelling at her, to make her stop, and forcing her to stay with me?
"Kendall?" I turned away from the door, with three pairs of eyes on me. Logan stepped forward and ut his hands in his pockets. "What do you want to do?" I looked down and shook my head.
"Let's go take care of this. Just get it over with." I looked up and James looked horrified.
"She's going to the hospital and you're not going with her?"
"She doesn't want me there!" James stepped forward pushing Logan to the side and shaking his head.
"I don't care! What if she goes into labor and you're not there?! What if you miss the birth of your child, because you care more about being a big bad tough guy right?!" James got closer and we were inches apart. "If I had my way you wouldn't go anywhere near that baby girl, because you're just a dead beat piece of shit excuse for a man, let alone dad." Something snapped inside my head and made em lunge forward knocking him on the ground. I got on top of him and hit him hard, very hard, in the face. It was the only hit though. I was pulled off him, by Carlos and Logan. The shoved me hard into the wall, and my back smashed into a picture frame. I could hear the glass breaking, and then slice open my skin. They weren't very big and I doubt it would even leave a scar but it did hurt.
Logan kept a hold on me, while Carlos went to help James. James stood up, rubbing his jaw and staring at me.
"Good. There still is the guy who told me he loved my sister and was going to take care of that kid." I felt my body relax and James stepped forward. "If you're willing to hit me, I know you're willing to fight for!" I look down and Logan let go of me. "Don't just let her get away from you! Prove to her that you do love her, and you are going to be there for her and for your daughter!" I look back up and slowly nod. James sighs out and rubs his jaw. "Good fucking hit asshole." I smile and he laughs. Logan sighs and shakes his head.
"So are you girls done? Are we going to go now?" I lightly shove him and as I turn to go to the door, I see Carlos. He's walking to the front door, slowly. As I turn completely I see what he sees.
Ally, the girl Carlos has been trying to be with, is standing on our grass, with her "boyfriend", Jeff, behind her, a gun pointed right at her head. He starts walking her forward and as they get closer, I can see tears marks running down her face. She has bruises all over her neck, and her forearms. When they reached the front porch, he shoved her hard, and she fell to her knees. Carlos went to pick her up, but Jeff raised his gun at Carlos, and I stopped him.
"You want her Carlos?" I watched him closely eyeing the gun, and Ally. She was crying, but what was weird was that she wasn't trying to fight it or ask for help. "I know you've been following me around. I know you've been trying to get her to leave me. But I do really love her."
"Hitting her, holding a gun to her head is love?" Jeff steps forward, over Ally and gets right in Carlos's face. James, Logan and myself move forward and Jeff laughs.
"You think you know what's best for this dumb cunt?" Again Carlos tried to move forward but I still stopped him. "How about this…you can have her. I got what I wanted and needed." Ally looks up, tears still pouring out, and in a split second, I see the gun get raised, back and to the side, and he pulls the trigger.
There can only be so many times you see someone get shot in the head, until it makes your stomach turn. Her body flung back, no sound made except when she hit the wood porch. The gun shot rings through the whole house, and neighborhood. I'm pretty sure I'm temporarily deaf, because I can see Carlos, with his mouth wide open, and the tears pouring out. But I can't hear him. I also see Jeff laughing and then turn and walk away to a car where three other guys are sitting in. He gets in, and they drive off like nothing just happened. Carlos fell to his knees and is still screaming, but I still can't hear anything.
I get pushed a little and James runs out bending down next to her. The blood is non stop coming out of her neck. I know…James knows she's dead. I think even Carlos knows she's dead but he still crawls over to her lifeless body and puts it in his arms. And then I hear a loud buzz and everything comes clear.
Carlos is screaming. Not saying anything, just screaming. I turn quick hearing Logan talking. He has his phone pressed to his ear, a hand covering his eyes.
"Yes…4739 Smith Drive…yes a gun shot to the neck…please hurry." He puts his phone down and moves his hands off hsi eyes. We stare at each other, and then remember our best friend, crying, screaming. We slowly walk out to him, neither of us, or James, knowing what to do. It takes a lot for Carlos Garcia to lose his mind. And as I bent down putting a hand on his shoulder, I know…I just know he is slowly losing his mind. I don't know what it's like to watch someone you love…truly love get shot, and killed instantly. I don't know what to say to him. I don't know how to make him better.
By the time the paramedics come, Logan and I have to pry Carlos off her. He just collapses back into us, giving up a fight he knows he cant win. The paramedics are careful with her body, and I know then she is dead because they aren't doing anything to save her. They wheel her away to the ambulance, right as a cop car pulls up.
"Kendall…" James stands in front of me, phone in hand. "Go with him…just make sure he doesn't…" I nod my head and Carlos falls into my side. "And find Elizabeth. There's something wrong with her. Abbey said they wont let Katie or her in with her. It has to be you." I feel my heart drop into the pit of my stomach and managed another small nod.
"James and I will tell the police what happened." I turn to Logan and nod. I drag Carlos down the grass and help in get in the back of the ambulance. I follow, the paramedic looking uneasy about Carlos. I sit against the side and watch Carlos take her head in his hands, and cradle it while running a hand through her hair.
It's hard to get Carlos away from her. As soon as we stop, he announces her death, sending Carlos completely over the edge. They roll her in the hospital slowly while I try to hold him back, but I can't. So I let him go and let him grieve in his own way. When I'm left standing alone, I remember Beth. I run in and ask the first doctor I see.
"Can you show me the room of Elizabeth diamond? I'm the father of her baby ad something happened." He nods and motions for me to follow. I do with out any questions, or hesitations. We stay down in the ER which scares the shit out of me. We stop in front of a room, closed off by a curtain. He opens it wide and I see her. Her hands are behind her head and she is silently crying. Her eyes are closed but when the doctor walks in, with me still right behind him she opens her eyes.
"Kendall?!" I push past the doctor and run to her. She sits up, but yells out in pain. I gently put he rbakc down and put her face in my hands.
"What's going on?"
"Well let em see if I can put this in the most simplest terms." He doctors rolls over on the other side of her bed and sighs. "Your body is trying it's very hardest to get your baby born." I still hold onto her face but turn to the doctor. "You're seven months pregnant, which is way to early for a child to be born. The pain your feeling is simply because of your body is trying to birth her already. So I have to options. Two very complicated and dangerous options." I close my eyes and turn away. "We can do a C section right now. We would put you under and you would not feel any pain. However the chance of survival for the baby is slim." I hear her tiny gasp and lean down kissing her forehead. "Second option is waiting this out for the next two months." I turn and scrunch my eyebrows.
"What's dangerous about that?" He sighs and stands up.
"Elizabeth would have a higher chance of complications during the birth, and could…" I stand up fast and shake my head.
"No way in hell."
"Kendall…" She reaches out for my hand and squeezes it. I look down and she wipes her eyes. "I don't want to lose her." I can feel the tears leaving my eyes.
"I'll let you two talk." I hear the doctor leave and the blinds close, but I don't see him and don't really care.
"You…you cannot wait…I can't lose you." She closes her eyes and puts her other hand on her belly. "Babe…we can get through this…but I can't lose you." She opens her eyes and looks around and then stops on my body.
"Are you bleeding?" I look down and my grey shirt under my open flannel shirt has some blood on it form Carlos.
"No…uhm…don't' worry about this right now." She nods and looks away. We stay quiet for a while, her still holding my hand. When she turns to me, I bend down and cup her face rubbing under her eye with my thumb.
"What are we going to do?"
