Chapter 8: The Search Begins

"So this house is 4 bedroom 2 bathroom a finished basement and huge backyard" the realtor said. We have sold our house and we are looking for a house to move into now. We're on our 5th showing...

"What do you think babe?" I asked.

Gabriella is already showing. It's only been a month since we found out. She is 4 and a half months. We go to the doctors again next week. I just can't believe she's showing as much as she is. We have avoided our families since. We don't want to tell them yet until we're settled. I thought we were going to stop at two...and so did Gabriella. But she can't go on birth control because of her diabetes. We use the condoms...but sometimes we forget. Although it is stressful to have just two kids adding another one will add on to that. But Gabriella is happy about the baby. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. I mean another baby...that's just another reason to fear getting caught up with Danny's business.

Nothing has come up from the guy...Gary was right I guess. He was disposable.

"I love it!" she said. I was surprised.

"What?" I said.

"I love it! It has everything! The rooms are close, the basement is big, the backyard is huge, there's no painting or work, it's got a charming feel, it has a great kitchen! I love it! This one!" she said.

"Should I go get papers?" the realtor asked.

"I guess so" I said smiling. I liked the house. It has all wood floors and it's pretty open. I like it.

I could see us in this house. I never thought that we could be going from a small one bedroom apartment that has leaks and you can hear when your next door neighbors are fighting...and making up and now to this house. I see now what Gabriella meant about the homey feeling. This is better.

We got the house and Gabriella was so excited.

"We got it!" She called my mom first. They were talking on the phone until we got home. Her sisters were babysitting.

"Girls?" Gabriella called out.

"Hey guys did you get a house?" Adriana asked.

"Yes we did" I said.

"Hey are you guys staying?" Gabriella asked.

"Yea if it's ok" Adrienne said. Her sisters like to stay over sometimes to get away from all the boys at the house. It's good though because it gives us some time to actually do things.

"Where are the kids?" Gabriella asked.

"Kids? What kids?" Adrienne joked.

Gabriella gave her a look.

"They're upstairs." Adriana said.

"So Adriana how are you and my little brother doing?" I asked.

"We're good..." she said. Gabriella looked at her weird.

"I know that tone...something not right"

"I don't know...it's just...he's too scared of our brothers he doesn't want to go out and do anything!"

I laughed. I used to be that scared too...

"For good reasons! do you guys remember what Carlos did to me the first time I came over!" I said. All of them laughed.

"Wimp" Gabriella said. I rolled my eyes. Carlos was seriously sitting at the table cleaning his gun and had his knofe set out! Try scaring a kid!

That night we ate popcorn and watched movies. The girls fell asleep on the couches by the end of the second movie.

"i'll get them blankets." Gabriella left the room. I was putting the movies away and cleaned up the room when I got a text. When I turned the dvd player off the news was on and I saw his face...

"Tonight the search is still on for this missing man. The last he was heard from was last month and now his family is reaching out to the public to find there loved one" the reporter said. I sat there and stared.

"Troy!" Gabriella brought me back.

"Uh...what?" I said.

She walked over.

"You know him?" she asked.

"Uh..no..." I stumbled.

"Ok...well i'm going up." she said. I sat there still staring at the tv. I thought he said he was disposable! What if they find him! What if they know it was me! I can't go to jail! I can't believe all of this is happening. Why the hell did Danny have to leave all this to me! I know I have to stay tough though and keep a straight face.

Hey guys sorry I haven't uploaded in a few days. Had a whole lot of stuff going on. So just to kind of give you guys a look ahead to things. Obviously Troy is in some trouble! I am going to jump a little. Also I am on this kick right now. I got a new job at a dog rescue and it has seriously been the most heart warming experiences ever in my life. It is just so crazy. I am very passionate about my dogs. I have 3. a pug mix and two blue nose pits. And my boyfriend has one of my oldest pits sons, and two other ones. So we're really pit loving people! Loll. They are my other kids along with my daughter. It's the funniest thing because my pug mix is like mad crazy and my two big muscle head pits are scared to death of him when he goes on his little kicks! Loll they hide behind my legs and run away! It is so cute. So I will incorporate that into my story because you know I just feel like my story has gotten away from reality a little bit but it will be back to reality like I said really soon. But the whole thing with the dogs is that you know how Gabriella rescued the dogs, so shes going to rescue more! Lol. My inspiration for that was not only my new job but also a show on Animal planet Pitbulls and parolees. I am obbsessed with that show! I would love to have my own rescue one day but my daughter comes first and going to get my degree in fashion retail and marketing is a lot more important. Uhm also a lot of you have stuck with my story and I am soo appreciative of that. So if you guys would like to follow me on instagram or facebook go right ahead. My instagram is nicolieolieeee and my facebook is nikki blondielove bills. Like I said feel free. There are no pictures of my daughter because as I said in one of my notes in the last story my daughters father is in jail and not for good things so right now I keep her face off of all my things. And that is just to you know put a face to the writer you know? It's not because I want to stalk any of you or anything like that! Loll! So if you would like to do that than feel free and if not that's cool too! Lol. But please keep reading and again any ideas feel free to say them! =]