Powerless, helpless...Weakness is not an option.

{I stumble around, 'till I stumble fall down, into this puddle of my tears laying here on the ground}

I stared at the furious Natsu in the doorway of the caving ranch house. I didn't know what to say right then, so I just blurted out what I had wanted to say in the first place.

"I want in." I whispered. What was that, Lucy Heartfilia? You did just say, "blurt" right? I trembled, and he scowled at me. But instead of keeping the scowl on his face, the scowl fell and he closed his eyes as if he were in pain. I wanted to comfort him, but I knew if I wanted to be a part of this gang, I would have to leave my soft side behind. So I just stood there, awkwardly.

"In what?" He spat at me. I jumped back from from spit, a frightened look on my face. I saw a flash of some emotion cross his face. Pity? Sympathy?

"I-I want," My eyes widened, something behind Natsu caught my eye.

"What are you lookin' at?" He asked and spun around. There he saw Happy smirking with his smile that he uses on girls. To get them to spend the night at his house. I backed up, my hand on my chest, I was trying to run away but couldn't.

I was too scared.

"No!" I shouted. Natsu looked back to me, that mean face back again.

"I-I mean," Natsu slapped me across my cheek, pain following quickly behind. I gasped and cradled my cheek with my hands. I blinked back tears. Tears. Things aren't used in gangs. I stood taller, removing my hand from my face. I'm not scared. I'm not scared. I'm...tough.

"I mean I want to join your gang." I said in a surprisingly clear voice. Am I really doing this? Yes. This is the only way for me to stop being bullied and time to step up for myself.

"You? What-" Natsu burst into laughter, his face turning bright red. I took a deep breath.

"Shut up, Natsu." I spat. My tongue tingled, tasting the new words in my mouth. No, I haven't said 'shut up' before now.

"What did you say to me?" Natsu came up to me shoving me away from the doorway.

"I said to shut up. I don't like people laughing at me." I said slowly. Natsu laughed and looked at me like I had lost my mind.

"You? You are telling me to shut up?" Natsu asked.

"Yeah. You got a problem with that?" I asked. I walked up to him, pressing myself against him then pushing him back.

"Natsu." Happy murmured.

"What?" Natsu shouted at him. Happy smiled at him and motioned for him to come closer.

"Let her in." He whispered. I almost burst with joy. Natsu sighed in exasperation and stared at his feet. Natsu grumbled something, but I couldn't catch what he said.

"Fine." Natsu threw his hands in the air. Happy smiled as Natsu angrily brushed past him and back into his house. I half smiled, staring at the bush in front of his house with a dreamy gaze. Happy snapped his fingers in front of my face and I shot a glare at him.

"You owe me, Heartfilia." Happy murmured. I looked at him like he was stupid. Like how people look at me.

"For what?" I asked. He smiled.

"For getting you in." I spun towards him, wondering what the heck was wrong with him.

"No, Natsu let me in. Not you." I started down the steps only to be stopped by Happy's hand on my shoulder.

"You know that's not true." He said. I brushed his hand off my shoulder and I proceeded down the steps. I heard him snort behind me. Then I felt something hot burn my hand. I shrieked in terror, frantically trying to cool my hand down.

"That's your mark, that signifies you're one of us." Happy stated, holding some metal contraption. I glared at him, holding my hand out.

"That hurts you know." I spat. He smiled at me, and nodded.

"Of course I know." He turned around and lifted his shirt to show the small of his back. I saw a light green tattoo like mine burned there. I look down at my hand, staring at the burned pink tattoo. I turned away, ready to head home. I started walking when I heard him ask for me.

"Heartfilia?" He asked.

"What do you want from me, Happy?" I said as I turned around to face him. When I looked up to see him, but his face was there to meet me. He came in closer, I tensed up in response. Is he going to kiss me?

His body was so close to mine, his hands wrapping around me. My lips trembled as I felt his breath on my mouth. Right before he reached my lips, he turned his head, making me whimper. What is he doing to me?

His hands moved up my arms, goosebumps following his hands.

"I want to..." He didn't finish sentence, but I was almost certain on what he wanted. Almost.

Happy climbed up the tiny staircase, and walked into the door of Natsu's house. I just stood there, staring, still feeling his warm, intoxicating breath.

Okay, I'm cool, I'm cool looking, people are looking at me, I'm getting really scared. I'm pathetic.

"Yo, Heartfilia, why are you sitting here?" Gray Fullbuster and Erza Scarlet, A.K.A. Bloody Ice Boy With A Stripping Problem and Queen Fairy Who Has Major Anger Management Problems, were standing over me with the fiercest looks on their faces. I didn't know what to do. So, I did what any normal human being would do in this situation. Look around and point at myself and ask if they were talking about me.

Erza growled and glared at me, Gray just stood there looking bored.

"Well, duh, we're talking to you. Do you have any other friends we should know about? Your imaginary ones?" Erza asked. I shook my head. Gray whispered something to Erza and she burst into laughter. I laughed along with her, to try to get her to see that I'm better than she thinks I am. But all I got was a look of disgust.

"Come on, you little slut." I rose from my normal seat in the table in the back of the courtyard. My school is eco-friendly, so we have an outdoor cafeteria, but everyone knows that the school just couldn't afford a cafeteria.

"You coming?" Gray asked, irritated with me already and we haven't even gotten to the hangout yet.

"Y-yes." I stuttered. Erza snorted.

"Y-yes." She mocked. I blushed and looked away. Suddenly I felt someone hovering over my shoulder, breathing on my neck.

"You want me to cool you down, sweet cheeks?" Gray whispered in my ear, teasing me.

"Uh-uh-I-uh-uh-" I was interrupted by roars of laughter, flustered, I backed away.

"No, no, you ain't gonna leave that easy. Come 'ere!" shouted Natsu.

"N-no!" I shouted. Erza, laughing enough already, turned red in face and fell down because she couldn't breathe. Gray slapped my butt and I jumped, which caused him to laugh. A lot.

"N-no!" Erza mimicked, getting louder by the second. Then she came along.

"Natsu? Natsu?" Lisanna asked innocently. She followed the sound of his voice, his laughter as she wandered the courtyard. She found him, but the state he was in infuriated her.

"NATSU!" She shouted. Lucy spun around, fear adding to her embarrassment. Lisanna stormed up to Lucy, slapping her across the face. Lucy fell to the ground, hitting her head on the table.

"I thought I told you to stay the f*ck away from my boyfriend. You f*cking little bitch slut. You damn whore. You know, I was almost put into Juvenile Detention Hall again because of that stupid stunt you pulled. Thankfully, no one would fess up, so they decided to call off the accusation session because we were wasting the school day. Be glad you have a mother, because she could teach you a few lessons on being a better whore. You bitch." By this point, Lisanna had beaten to Lucy to the ground, and was now clinging on to Natsu.

"I don't." Lucy whispered. Lisanna pounced onto Lucy, putting her ear really close to her mouth.

"I'm sorry, I didn't catch that. You what?" Lucy moved her mouth, with the little strength she had left, to Lisanna's ear.

"I don't have p-parents..." With that Lucy fell unconscious on the grass, blood loss paling her face. Lisanna glanced over Lucy's body, examining the damage, to see if it was worthy enough to get into T&T. Her eyes fell upon the Tattoo on Lucy's hand. Lisanna gasped. She turned to Natsu and screamed at him.

"WHY HER?! WHY NOT ME?! I'M PERFECT! I'm sexy! I'm tough! I'm mean! I'm-I'm-I'm-" She slapped Natsu across the face, startling Natsu. Natsu stared at the cigarette that had fallen out of his mouth.

"Lisanna, you went too far this time." Gray said. Erza didn't look up from the ground, and followed Gray out of the courtyard. Erza stopped beside Lisanna, mumbling,

"You're never going to get in this way." Erza left, leaving behind a distraught Natsu, an amused Happy, a crying Lisanna, and an unconscious Lucy.

I groaned, my head hurt.

"Don't move it will only make it worse." I heard someone say quietly.

"Where am I?" I asked with my eyes closed. I felt something wrapped around my head, and something cold as well. I heard the rain pour down on the windows.

"You're home." He murmured. I squinted my eyes open, gasping, then regretting my actions. I didn't see who was hovering above me, but he had put on an ice pack on my hand and it hurt so much.

"Settle down." He whispered. I fell limp on the bed, easing back on the pillow.

"Who are you?" I asked, I had no idea who I was with, or how I got here. I just want to be alone.

"A friend." I moved my hand a little bit, only for it to be held firmly in place.

"Don't move, I'm fixing your hand. It's irritated from you burns." My head felt numb and I felt like crying. But I didn't. I just fell asleep.

Author's note:

Hey, I'm really bad at this. Updating and stuff. I'm sorry. I tried to make it as long as I could.

Arigatou for reading! ~Review~

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