- Three weeks later –
Clary got released yesterday and everyone is going to visit her at Luke's house. Everyone except me. It's too painful too even look at her anymore. I did try to visit her again after the first time I went but I ended up not saying anything and leaving after a few minutes.
I thought I was taking an easier route when I decided to walk away and say 'I'm nobody' to her. But apparently it was the hardest. Waking up and knowing that I can never kiss or hold her again is like torture. Looking at her and not seeing love in her eyes, just a blank expression is agony. I need her back in my life but I don't know how. Things were different when we first fell in love, I cannot possibly recreate it.
Sometime before noon I got up and went downstairs to the kitchen. There I picked up an apple and stared at it.
'You need to eat sometime you know'. The voice startled me and I traced it back to Isabelle sitting on the table. 'I know it's hard, but don't kill yourself'
I gave a smirk and carried on staring at my apple. Alec and Isabelle won't leave me alone ever since Clary woke up. I think they have some weird fantasy that I will commit suicide of self destruct if they aren't there.
'Are you ever going to speak?' Isabelle is now sitting crossed legged on the kitchen chair with her elbow resting on the side of the table. I opened my mouth to say something but I closed it quickly after.
'Uhh' groaned Isabelle. 'I know you love her and that it sucks that she doesn't even know you anymore, but grow up!' She pauses for a couple of seconds, not being able to talk to me but to the air to the right of m head. 'You've been like this for like three weeks now and don't you dare think that this just affects you! You are the first in a long line of dominoes. If you fall over, we all fall.' Tears spring to her eyes. This is one of the rare moments where Isabelle's hard shell starts to peel. She quickly composes herself and briskly walks away.
She's right. I can become so narrow minded sometimes that I forget who loves me which usually results in an angry Alec. I've decide that I need to do something to change what she thinks. I need to get her to remember or get her to fall in love again. I won't be the same but I can put up with it. Because I love her.
A/N: What do you think? Next chapter will be from Alec's P.O.V!
