I Can't Fall Asleep When I Panic

Chapter 8

Nothing and Emptiness is my Heartbreak


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Previously

The lady at the counter didn't even look up at me. "She left about 30 minutes ago," she said smacking her gum.

I turned and looked at the clock. I was such an idiot. I did actually stand in the parking lot for hours. Great Fluffy is never going to let me live this down.

K P.O.V

I was breathing heavily. Shaking my head, "NO! NO! NO! NO! I refuse!" I pressed my nails deep in to my palms, "I will never submit to you." I dared a glance at him. There he stood in all his glory. Silver white hair hanging down loosely around his shoulders. His chin held up proudly and arrogantly. Golden eyes glared into mine.

"Kagome, there is no point in defying me. You. Will. Submit." He said coolly. He stepped towards me. "I will have you, even if you deny me." Another step. "You will scream my name to Hades." He gave a smirk at my gasp. He paused as if to think, and then stepped forward again. His chest was right in front of my face. He moved his hands through the air next to me. Clamping down on my shoulders he pulled me to him. He leaned down and hissed in my ear. "This Sesshoumaru will take you this very night to the moon and beyond."

I tried to step back, but he wouldn't let me. "Sessh.. Sesshoumaru, you're scaring me, please stop." I looked up into his eyes. "Please let me go, I have to shower."

His expression changed into one of confusion. "You have to shower?"

"Hmmm…What?"

I woke to something breathing heavily in my ear. "You have to shower?"

"Hmmm…What?"

"You said you have to shower."

I sleepily opened my eyes and turned to face the familiar voice. When I saw who it was I pushed him in the chest only to find my self on the floor with a thud. He hadn't budged and instead I had pushed my self off the bed. "Hey! That's no fair." He didn't say anything; his eyes stared intently on an area below my face. I followed his gaze down. I was naked. I opened mouth to scream at him, only to find him behind me with a hand clamped on my mouth.

"Shhh…You'll awake everyone up." He slowly took his hand off my mouth and let it fall to my lap. I felt his hand brush my chest and I shivered. It felt good. He intertwined his hand with the sheet and pulled it up around me and covered my nakedness. Goosebumps rose all over my skin. The hair on the back of my neck prickled. The air around became warm. I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. His arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me on to his lap. He leaned forward and nuzzled me behind my ear with his nose. "Hmm…you smell tasty." He nipped me. I turned bright red and my body shivered. He pulled me closer and started to trail kisses down my neck and on to my shoulders. I was frozen. I didn't know if I should push him away or just let him continue. I really wanted him to continue. I hadn't felt this way since my first love, Hojo. Sure we had parted ways after 3 years, but I hadn't felt my heart jump at the touch of lips since. That is until now.

"Do you want me to stop?" he whispered in my ear.

I shivered, "N..n..no." I couldn't turn to look at him. He ran his hands up and down my ribcage. It felt good. His fingers were like feathers caressing my skin. He reached around me and pulled me closer to him. I could feel his lips leaving scorching kisses along my spine. "Hmmm…Sesshoumaru."

"Do you like that?" His hands found their way under the sheet wrapped around my body.

"Yes. I like it very much." I twisted my torso so I could face him. I turned to face deep golden eyes searching for my very soul. He leaned down and I lifted my chin a little meeting him halfway. This kiss was like none other I had ever had. It was demanding, searching, caring, worried, but most of all it was what I wanted. I wanted the need I felt coming from him. I needed him to need me.

Normal P.O.V

Sesshoumaru pulled back from the kiss panting. He had never met so much passion. He wanted Kagome so much. He had never been attracted to someone as much as he was drawn to her. He leaned forward and kissed her once more. He slid he hands under her and easily picked her up and laid her on the bed. He thought she was beautiful with the sheet tangled around her body.

Kagome looked up at him. Her eyes imprinting his image in her mind forever. She smiled at him and he let out a low growl. She moved away from him slightly. Sesshoumaru's eyes followed her every movement. He ran his hands up her thighs. Feeling her shiver he smiles and starts to unravel the sheet. Kagome was completely naked underneath him. His boxers had somehow become unbuttoned among the tussle and something was poking out. Kagome reached to feel it. Sesshoumaru sucked in his breath slightly and quickly parted her legs. He was about to slide himself in when the door flew open.

"GOOD MORNING KAGOME!!!! Breakfast is re…..oh." Inutouga stopped when he saw what was going on. "Excuse me," he turned his back, "breakfast is ready if you would like to come down and eat." With that he left.

Kagome turned bright red and covered herself once more. Sesshoumaru tried to continue what they were doing before being rudely interrupted, but it didn't work. "I can't believe your father just walked in on us. I'm so embarrassed." Kagome said as she got off the bed and started to dress herself.

"It doesn't matter."

She turned around, "Oh, so he's seen you before with someone else? Well let me tell you something Mr. Big shot, I'm not one of your little whores." She quickly went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut.

"That's not what I meant," he put his hand on the door and sighed.

"Just leave alone to shower please." Kagome started the shower and hopped in. She never heard him reply.

K P.O.V.

I closed my eyes and let the warm water soak my skin.

We were walking threw a cafeteria. The lights above were so white. I looked over to see my mom and dad walking with me. It was really quiet. We saw the cafeteria ladies in a group in front of us talking. When we reaching them they started to give us a tour. At the end of the tour they showed us a pin full of hyenas. I asked why they were there and they told me they were there because they were people and they were going to turn us into hyenas too.

Then we started to run. These mechanical hands popped out of the floor and tried to grab us. I was running behind my parents when a hand popped out of the floor in front of me. I dodged it in time and continued to run but then I was surrounded. They caught me.

I screamed and screamed as I watched my parents continue to run. They didn't even look back once. They didn't even try to save me. I was sitting in the chair that would change me now. I looked at the cafeteria ladies and pleaded with them. "No one wants you Kagome. It's the best." I cried at their words.

I had tears pouring out of my eyes when I opened them. I hated that dream. I had it every night for 3 years straight. I was so glad I didn't have it anymore. I was so screwed up in the head after that dream. I was scared to be left alone. Ha. Now look at me. What the fuck am I doing now. I am utterly alone. I laughed at myself. How pathetic I had become. I sat down on the floor and wrapped my arms around my knees. I had become nothing. I kept laughing at myself. I was insane. I was pathetic. What had I become?