Will was alone at home with Arianna, while Paul told him he was going to be out for another hour or so. After the confrontation with Sonny, Paul had become more agitated. Will couldn't understand why. He knew he threw a bone to Sonny as far as his situation had gone, but Sonny was too mad or too hungover to have taken notice. Paul must have guessed it, but Will had reassured him that he said nothing. In his mind Will had his fingers crossed behind his back, hoping Paul believed him.
It still got to Will how much Paul had changed. He didn't understand why Paul started to act so strange. One day he would be fine and the next he would be so abusive and distant. At first, Will was flattered by the attention Paul had lavished on him. Even though Will was still with Sonny then, it felt good to be wanted by someone else other then your husband. Will had surmised that it had done his ego good to be with Paul, but not at the expense of loosing Sonny. He had not calculated that scenario. He always thought that his affair would remain a secret, and sometime in the future after he fixed his marriage and got it to a more sturdy and stronger ground, he would come clean to Sonny.
But, life had other plans for him. He wanted to be with Sonny so bad and yet he was here with Paul. How can a person, in this day and age, when a gay man could marry another man, how could he, Will, be so afraid of Paul and live in such fear? It was preposterous to even think that anyone would believe he lived in such a state of constant fear. He knew, even if he were to tell one person, he would be laughed at and made fun of. Will Horton the son of the very cunning and smart woman like Sami would be in such a position. He knew if his mom was here, she would drag him out of this house, and dare Paul to try and stop her. Even Paul would be no match for Sami Brady!
Will, had been sitting in Ari's room for such a long time, he had not heard Paul come home or that Paul had called out to him a few times till he felt himself being shoved to the ground by Paul who was demanding his attention. Paul had wanted to know who Will was thinking about. Will had made a mistake of mentioning to Paul once that he was thinking of Sonny, and that had caused Paul to go ballistic on him and had punched him so hard, Will had not been able to see thru one eye for a whole week. Will had to make so many excuses to Ari about how he had hurt himself, he had told Ari that he had fallen on one of her toys on the floor. Since that day, Ari had been careful with putting all her toys away and making sure to tell her Daddy to be careful overtime!
Paul was loosing patience when he noticed a small smile on Will's face, little did Paul know the smile was for Ari and her efforts to make sure her daddy would never get hurt because of her. Paul grabbed Will by his collar and bent down to be face to face with Will and sneered asking once again who he was thinking about. Will answered he was thinking about how much Ari had grown up, it was after all a little truthful. Paul seemed to linger close to his face a little longer then needed and when he felt satisfied that Will was not lying, he let go of Will and became lovable and happy as before.
Paul apologized to Will and said that he loved Will so much that loosing him would break him completely. Will just smiled and changed the subject. He knew if he told Paul the truth, he would be hit or even worse show Will who he really belonged to. Paul had not been exactly gentle with sex since the day he left Sonny permanently for him. He was rough and harsh. Those two words were always eating at Will, he remembered the first time he and Sonny made love. It was sweet, gentle and so amazing. He missed Sonny. If there was one lesson he had learned in this past month, it was to never take Sonny for granted again. That is if he ever got Sonny back. The word IF, resounding in his mind, such a small word and yet it held so much for him.
Paul extended his hand to Will as if asking for his hand, and when Will took his hand, Paul pulled Will to his feet and bought their lips together and kissed Will with as much passion as he could muster. Unfortunately for Will, it was anything but. He always felt the kisses to be more aggressive and one sided. Just like when they had sex. Paul took what he wanted from Will and never gave anything in return, except heartache and regret. Paul had changed so much. To this day Will remembers Sonny's gentle ways of making love, of kissing Will till he felt his toes curl, or even just a mere touch of Sonny's would send Will shivers. With Paul, it sent shivers of terror and and anger thru him.
When Paul finished kissing him and then took hold of his hand and led him to 'their' bedroom for some alone time. Will knew what was coming next, so on the way out, he turned to Ari and told her to play by herself as he was going to be busy with something else for a little while. Ari nodded and went back to playing with her barbies as Paul led Will to the bedroom on the other side of the hallway. Once they entered Will began to take off his clothes, he knew what was coming and he knew it would not last a long time if he cooperated, so he just went along with what was happening, Paul was happy to see the initiative Will was taking. To Paul, Will was a willing participant, to Will, he had no choice but to indulge Paul with whatever he wanted so as to keep himself and his family safe, including Sonny. Sonny would always be Will's love, his life and his soulmate...there was not two ways about it.
Once Will had undressed, Paul slowly took his clothes off as if he was putting on a show for Will and seducing him, Will played along. He knew if he did not, it would not be pretty. So he waited till Paul was completely undressed and turned around and got on his hands and knees and waited for Paul to take him. Paul thought that Will was just being forward and impatient. So he got on the bed behind Will and without any preparation, or any warning, he pushed himself into Will with one thrust. Will cried out in pain. He should have been used to it by now, but as always it was raw and abusive to him to even bother with complaining.
Paul thrusted into Will relentlessly and when he was near, Will's body betrayed his mind and got harder with each push of Paul into his body. Paul reached around Will and started to stroke Will in time with his thrusts, but he came before Will and he came so hard knowing that Will was still hard for him, made him more aroused and gave him more of an explosive orgasm. He could have cared less if Will had finished. As long as he was done, he pulled out of Will and went to the shower, leaving Will to take care of his own hard on. Will had tears in his eyes, as he had never ever faced such cruel love making, or sex as that is what this was called. He stroked himself wanting relief, and came within a few strokes all over himself while thinking of the chocolate brown eyes of his love.
He would never admit that to Paul, he would rather die or be killed before admitting this. He got off the bed, put on some boxers and changed the sheets. By the time he was done, Paul had come out of the shower, and it was Will's turn for the shower. He got his clothes and went in and locked the door without another word to Paul. He found out early on in the relationship to talk less and just do whatever Paul wanted. It took him a while to read Paul's thoughts on what he wanted, but now he could read Paul like a book. He even knew when Paul would be going out, so Will would find excuses to call his mother or ask if he could call his mother when Paul was not around. Paul had yet to give Will complete control of his cell phone. He always checked to see who was calling him or how many out going calls he made.
He wanted to go and visit Gabi and take Sonny with him. He just didn't know how to broach the subject with Paul. Paul knew that it was time again to visit Gabi. He just assumed that he would accompany Will. It was just that this was the only way that Will would get to see Sonny and talk to him. Maybe even apologize to him about his abrupt exit from his life and maybe smooth things over enough that someday Sonny would find it in his heart to forgive him. Anything was possible. Right? At least that is what Will hoped. He knew that Gabi would want to see Sonny, but how was he going to make that possible.
The next few days he tried to get in touch with Gabi at the prison, but she was either working in the prison or it was not the right time to contact inmates. Will had only those times to call as Paul was either sleeping or out doing something or the other. But Will was free to call Gabi. And Paul would not suspect him if he found out that he had talked to Gabi. It was just that he could not talk in front of Paul. So the days went on and finally the day to visit Gabi came and Paul got Arianna ready and saw that Paul was ready as well to go with them. He didn't like this, but he had no choice.
When they arrived at the prison, Gabi was so thrilled to see Will and Ari. She did not like Paul, she could tell there was something a little off about him, even though she could not pinpoint the problem. She knew he was controlling Will and his actions. There was no way that Will would have brought Paul to visit her if it wasn't true. After all she did not know him. And it would have made more sense to come alone if he was not going to come with Sonny. Gabi had always been a little astute, so she purposefully brought up the subject of Sonny and asked if he was ever going to visit her.
Will assured her he would talk to him about visiting him and they then talked about other things like Arianna's visit to Sonny or how she has started to talk in sentences and how she cleans up after herself. Gabi was proud of her daughter, but hearing all these things made her even more prouder. If that was possible. While Gabi and Arianna chatted up together, Gabi kept her eyes on Paul and noticed he had gotten a little distant since she had mentioned Sonny. Now she knew how to push his buttons and she was damn well going to use it. If she had to put up with visits from this man, then she would rather talk to Will about her other wonder BFF, Sonny. She would dare Paul to try and stop it, she was just waiting for it.
When the visit was coming to an end, Gabi hugged Will real tight and then looked him in the eye and spoke.
"Please Will, tell Sonny I miss him so much and that I want to see him again."
"Of course, Gabi. I will tell him. I don't know if he will come or not, but I will tell him."
"Why wouldn't he come? He and I are thick as thieves, we may have had our moments, but deep down he know how much I respect him and I know he feels the same way about me. So just tell him I said so. He will understand. Okay?
Will just nodded and looked at Paul to make sure he was not to upset. The last thing he wanted to do was have Paul lecturing him or anything else in front of his daughter. He may be stuck in this situation, but he was damn well going to make sure that Arianna would not pay the price for it. Even if it meant that he would have to give Arianna away to Sonny to raise. He would find a way to shield his daughter from this insanity!
I am so sorry for posting this chapter this late. I wanted to get some of the facts about spousal abuse correct. I contacted a friend who was in this position. I hope I have lost any fans out there. This is a short chapter, but the next chapter will be up sooner then this one was. Thank you for your patience. Please review, as it is what keeps me going...
