A.N: Hi, sorry I am not updating as fast as I used to, but I got the new chapter. I have so much work to do that it is really eating all my extra time and energy which is no excuse to leave you all hanging. Thanks everyone for the support they showed the story so far. I am really thrilled that you all liked it so far. Anyway, hope you like it and enjoy
You watched as the water slowly dropped from the tap down into the tub you were currently sitting in. Your dad promised you ages ago he would fix it, but he never seemed to found the time for it. You couldn't take your eyes from it for some reason. Well, you knew the reason. After what you heard yesterday in school, you were sort of lost in your thoughts for the most part.
Y/F/N tried to get you out of the house, but you just wanted to say home. And since you haven't spoken with Scott since you heard him and Stiles in the hallway, you were pretty much left to yourself. It was just then that you realize how little is your social circle was.
You went under the water. It was getting cold. The world always felt as so at peace. It always felt as if all the trouble were pointless. It felt like that now as well. Pointless. All of it.
You didn't even realize you were under the water for too long until you suddenly saw the face of the creature which attacked you looking down at you. You quickly got out gasping and brushed you face while feverishly looking around. No one was around. You were alone in your bathroom.
You licked your lips trying to calm down. Last night you had a nightmare and couldn't manage to fall asleep again. It must have been everything which happened so far in such a short time that was getting on your nerves.
The water was cold, so you got out and put on your sleeping jersey. When you opened the door you nearly jumped out of your skin as you found someone in your room only to realize it was Scott.
He raised his hands, 'I'm sorry. I called you but you didn't answer…the others called as well.'
He figured you might not want to talk to him so he asked Cora and Lydia to try and call you. He tried to talk with you after what happened in the hallway, but you wouldn't let him explain and didn't leave Y/F/N's side. He tried to give you space, but he had a feeling it wouldn't do for the longer picture. He decided to come but when he saw the cold expression on your face he knew it wasn't a wise choice.
You nodded, 'Well, I'm fine. You can go.'
Scott took a step closer, 'Can we talk? Please.'
You held your ground, 'Did you want to?'
That shut him up.
'Did you want to have sex with me just so I wouldn't be a target?' she asked.
'I would never force you-'
'But did you want to?!' you snapped at him feeling the frustration of all that happened. You didn't care for any excuses you know what you saw and you just wanted to know the true. No bullshit.
'Well?'
'I thought about it, but I would never force you but-'
'Did you think about it when you kissed me? Or touched me? When we were by the lake? Or in your room?'
He was quiet so you shook your head, 'Did you think about it when we were together?'
'Yes,' admitted Scott. Oddly it felt as if the word echoed in the room which was completely silent.
You nodded, 'You should go. Please.'
Scott looked away as you walked to your bed. You started to undo your bed when Scott suddenly grabbed your elbow and spun you around. He put his hands on your cheeks to make you look at him, 'I never wanted to hurt. I would never force you. I thought about it. I thought about how it would get the target off your back. I thought about how it would maybe make you be safe, but it was never about forcing you. I am sorry for not telling you…I want you…I lo-I really like you and want you that's all me. I would never do anything to you if you didn't want it, you have to believe me.'
You watched his brown eyes buried in yours and you knew that he was being as honest as possible.
You opened your mouth to speak but it was hard when he looked so honest it made you want to trust him.
'I just want to protect you,' he spoke before he swallowed, 'But I would never force you.'
You blinked at him speechless. He waited but when you didn't say anything he let you go and stepped away, 'Someone is always around so you don't have to worry about whatever it is that is after you. I…I won't bother you anymore.'
You stayed silence. Your pride took the better of you and you couldn't bring yourself to stop him. Before you knew it he was out of your window, and you quickly rushed to it, but only to close it. You couldn't bring yourself to stop him. You rushed to your bed. You didn't care your hair would be a mess in the morning. You just lied down into your bed and put the blanket over your head. You just wanted to turn the world off for a while.
You wished the world would end for a while at least.
However, the reality wasn't so kind. A nightmare came to haunt you in your dreams. You dreamed you were lying in your bed with the cover over your head so you wouldn't have to face the world you felt someone inside your room. You couldn't see them but you knew they were there watching you waiting for you to fall asleep except that you were asleep which made zero sense. It was a terrifying experience as it seemed every time you were about to fall asleep while you were sleeping that someone took a step closer. Once you were too tired to stay away you felt a hand on your shoulder under the cover before you completely fell asleep you felt the cover being pulled away…
'How come you and Scott aren't talking anymore?' asked Y/F/N in the cafeteria after a few days. She probably got fed up with your gloomy mood, but you still haven't told her what was wrong. You couldn't explain the details and you couldn't just say that Scott wanted to force you into sex because that wasn't it. He wanted to protect you by sleeping with you but at the same time he didn't force you. He never push you all those times it was what you wanted as well. It was the secret part that pissed you off.
'We've just been busy.'
Y/F/N gave you a look before she nodded to herself, 'Well? Okay, what about your this?' You blinked at her, 'Hm?'
'No offence cause I love you and think you're a goddess, but you look like shit and not just today.'
She wasn't lying or sugarcoding it. You really let yourself down since you found out about what Scott was thinking. You have been experiencing trouble sleeping and you couldn't exactly say why just that you woke up more tired than you were when you went to bed. Today you literally felt like someone pulled the life out of you. You weren't sure if it was all the stress from Scott or the creature which was after you, but you started to think that you needed to skip school for today and get some rest.
'What are your plans for today?' you asked brushing the back of your neck.
'I have to stay in the library. This stupid project is killing me. What about you and Scott? Did you get a lot of work done already?'
You wanted to hit yourself over the head. Fucking project. You have barely begun seeing as the first season ended in him getting you off behind the book shelves and then they ended more or less in kissing seasons.
'Nope.'
'Well, it is due soon so you might want to catch up,' she said as she looked down at your food frowning, 'Are you gonna eat that?'
Looking down at your food you found your lunch untouched, 'No, take it. I'm not hungry.'
You stood up and looked around the cafeteria. Just as your eyes found Scott's he quickly looked away caught. You frowned as he must have been watching you this whole time. You sat back down upset leaving Y/F/N confused why were you so grumpy all of the sudden.
You waited for Scott in front of his last period. You've rather been at home sleeping, but it seemed that if you didn't talk to him now you wouldn't bring yourself to speak to him ever again. He looked so hopeful when he walked up to you, he was hoping you would maybe forgive him and you two could talk, but with your next words you got him a cold shower.
'We have to finish the project. Do you have some time today? Now?' you asked and Scott felt as if he got kicked into the chest.
He found himself nodding and motioned for you to lead the way. He wasn't angry at Stiles for babbling it out. He was angry with himself. He fucked up. He knew he couldn't make it right. It was as if he lied. It was as if he went back on his words about not being like any other jerk and actually really forcing you. He fucked up bad. That is just what happens sometimes. You trust, you care, you let people in and they destroy you leaving you scared and broken never to be the person you were once before.
You went to the library. You didn't see Y/F/N anywhere so you went to take an empty table in close to the back and just sat down. You kept your talks all business for the most part until he accidentally cracked you up with a lame joke.
You chuckled and brushed the back of your neck which made him smile a bit. When he noticed you yawned for the fifth time in a row, he put his pen down, 'Hey, maybe we can wrap it up for today. You look kind of tired. I think we covered just about everything. Not much left anyway.'
You looked up at him sort of grateful and nodded. It felt…you admitted it felt a bit good to talk to Scott again. Well, to talk about something else than the two of you. You missed him a lot.
You gathered your things, and he walked you to your car. You thought about protesting, but you knew he wouldn't have it and you were too tired to argue. It made you nostalgic a bit reminding you about the time he walked you to your car after the library or when you took him to your house for a walk. It wasn't that far and you seriously wished you could go back to those times.
'Thanks for meeting me,' he said as he closed the car door on you, 'Even if just for the project.' There was no way you could be a total bitch to those puppy brown eyes.
'I missed you,' you admitted quietly, 'I miss you.'
He looked at you longingly, 'I miss you too. More than you know, Y/N. I'm so sorry. If I could take it all back I would-'
'Not let me hear it?' you joked but Scott shook his head dead serious, 'I would tell you in the beginning what we thought about the virgins theory. I would tell you that it crossed my mind and that I wanted to keep you save above everything else, but that it was all your choice. It's always your choice, Y/N.'
You looked at each other before you started to the car and Scott stepped away letting you drive out but never letting his eyes leave you until you were truly gone.
You drove home in pure silence. You didn't turn on the radio or your phone for any music. For the first time since you heard Scott and Stiles's chat you weren't thinking about the hurt. It was still there. Betrayal never goes away, but it there was something different. When douche hurt you, he made you feel like it was on you. Like you were the one to blame and even though you knew it was ridiculous and he was a narcissistic asshole, there was still a part of you inside your brain that actually believed it. Scott wasn't like that. He took the blame. He apologized and told you that he wasn't upset about being caught. He was upset about hurting you. You still felt disappointed and betrayed, but you also felt that maybe you could forgive him…maybe…
'Y/N,' spoke a voice and once again you felt someone moving closer to you. You felt them so close they were almost breathing down your neck.
'Y/N.' You felt like you were going to be sick to your stomach from their presence.
'Y/N, wake up!'
You opened your eyes started as Scott was hovering over you on the grass, 'What-?'
'Are you okay? Are you hurt?' he asked worried touching your face and looking all over you. Blinking you looked down at yourself and then around only to find your car at the side of the street.
WHAT THE HELL?!
You weren't on the side of the street. Your car was literally on the payment.
'You fell asleep behind the wheel,' said Scott seeing the panic behind your eyes. You gasped and undid your seatbelt while Scott helped you out of the car supporting you, 'It's okay. You're fine. You must have slowed down. You didn't hurt anyone or damaged the car. It's fine,' he repeated as you checked the front of the car for any damaged.
You put your hand on Scott's chest for extra support and comfort as you tried to go over the shock, 'God.'
'It's fine. You must have been just so tired. How about I drive you home? Okay?' he asked.
You found nodded looking at him, 'I-thank you. Did you follow me?'
'No, I just saw you. You weren't heading home. I think,' he admitted and you looked around again only to realize he was right. This was in no way the direction to your house. You looked at him too shaken to say a word in the moment and just hugged him hiding into his embrace to calm down a bit. He instantly pulled you closer and locked you inside his arms breathing you in. He could clearly smell how terrified you were, but there was also something else. Something he usually caught from Stiles when he got extra anxious. Once you calmed down a bit Scott got you into the car leaving his bike to pick it up later and drove you home.
'Is everything okay? Did you have a nightmare?' he asked looking at you from the corner of his eyes.
'Not last night, but…since we got in a fight I have been having trouble sleeping. I think I'm never fully asleep and I'm super tired during the day,' you explained before looking out of the window, 'Thanks for…well everything.'
He nodded, 'Don't mention it. Maybe you could stay at home? Catch a few hours of sleep? It wouldn't hurt.'
You nodded as well and pressed your head against the glass window, 'You said fight.'
'Huh?' you asked without raising your head from the glass, 'You said fight so does that mean that we still have a chance?'
You thought about it before you spoke, 'I don't know.'
As far as Scott was concerned if it wasn't a decline he still have a chance to make things right with you, 'I don't want to lose you. I know I made a mistake, and I know it was worse than anything I could have done after all those times I told you how I would never pressure you into anything. I want to make this right with you, Y/N.'
Scott looked over at you after a long moment of silence has passed only to find you asleep. He drove you home and put a blanket over you just watched you sleep until he sensed your father coming to the car. He pulled down the window. Your father gave you a very upset look before he looked at Scott, 'What's going on?'
'She was just too tired. I didn't want to wake her up. I figured I could leave her here for a few more minutes then wake her up to go to bed,' explained Scott.
Your father looked worried before he looked at Scott, 'Did something happen? Did you guys have a fight? Cause she has started to sleepwalk.'
Scott frowned a bit, 'Sleepwalk?'
'Yeah, in the night. I went to check up on her and then I heard her walk around, but when I came to the room she was asleep standing by the window. I got her back to the bed a few times this week.'
Scott felt truly terrified by the new revelation, 'Did she ever sleepwalk before?' he asked and looked at you.
'Yeah, when she was younger her childhood friend died in a fire. She started to sleepwalk for a while, but then it was fine until now. Did something happen? Is she under a lot of stress?' he asked and Scott nodded, 'Yeah, a little bit. I guess I just made her upset. I didn't mean to hurt her but I did.'
The older man watched him for a while before he nodded, 'Well, we usually don't mean to hurt the people we care about. Are you sorry?'
'More than you can possibly imagine,' said the boy honestly.
'Good, you should also know that if she is this upset about it. You have to mean a lot to her. She wasn't sleepwalking when she broke up with that prick she was dating before.'
Scott blinked, 'So you know he wasn't a nice guy?'
'Scott, dads always know when their daughter is dating a jerk and when not. You're not a jerk. Bring her in before it's dark, okay?'
Scott nodded feeling a bit proud that your dad approved of him even if he knew he hurt you. You stirred a bit in your sleep and Scott leaned closer to stroke you cheek. He let you sleep for an half an hour in the car before he walked around the front and got you out of the seat.
'What are you doing?' you asked still partly sleep.
'Taking you to sleep in a proper bed, alright?' he carried you to the house and to your room where he lied you down and put a blanket over you. He was tucking you in when you spoke, 'I don't want to lose you either…I want to be with you.'
He smiled at you before he leaned down and kissed you on the forehead tenderly hoping that it would make you feel all that he felt for you. Hoping you would feel how much he loved you.
He couldn't help a smile on his face as he walked down the stairs of your house. He had to tell Stiles who acted like he killed you with how many times he apologized and begged Scott for forgiveness. He reached to his pocket with a smile only to find the phone gone.
Scott blinked. He couldn't tell if he left it in the car or inside your room. He went to try the car first since he would probably hear if the phone fell down on your wooden floor.
He went outside to the car just as he heard someone open a window. He casually looked up only to find you standing in front of an open window. He smiled feeling hopeful that you wanted to tell him something before he would leave when suddenly he saw you sat down on your window frame and then in a second jump out of your window…
