BPOV

I stepped into the Cullen's master bathroom in awe, it truly was amazing with its marble counter tops, crème colors walls with 24 karat gold trim and a massive size shower, surly big enough to fit five people in. The sight from the window that stood across the shower was just as awe worthy with its breathtaking view of the forest that surrounded the estate.

I gentle turned the left knob in the shower, letting the Luke warm water fall freely into the drain, waiting for the hot water to come as I started to undress. Once nude, I found myself eyeing my body in the mirror in front of me, disappointed. Wondering if Carlisle would like the way I look without clothes on when the time came.

Sure, he loved me and seemed to find me attractive but clothes hid so much. You could cover a lot of body flaws just by wearing baggy outfits or a push up bra. I looked down at my size b breast in disgust.

Why couldn't I have a body like Rosalie? Sure, Rosalie could use a personality fix but her body was prefect. At least, what guys of today thought of perfect. She had body, literally. A big, round butt, pronounced hips and a big rack to boot. She had curves; I on the other hand, did not. I was flat chested and my butt was nonexistence compared to Rose's, who's arched out proudly, while mine hid.

It wasn't till I heard the sound of Carlisle's concerned voice on the other side of the door that I snapped out of my thoughts, noticing the bathroom was now filled up with steam. "Bella, you okay in there?" I wiped my blurred reflection, hoping by some chance my body changed in the last five minutes. I sighed frustrated, seeing that was not the case.

"Yeah, I was just waiting for the water to warm up." I stated making my way into the steam filled shower. "Okay than, I'll just be a few feet away if you need me." I unexpectedly blushed at his comment, thinking of things a girl my age shouldn't be thinking, or maybe I should?

I was always more mature than most people my age. Maybe sex didn't have to be such a big deal, a forbidden thing. I know many teens my age have had sex, in fact, I think I was the last of my kind. Maybe now was the right time to have sex with Carlisle, I mean, I was getting older.

I actually felt embarrassed when my friends would talk about sexually experiences they had or issues, me being, a nineteen year old virgin, totally untouched.


After I was clean I left the shower looking for some new clothes to wear. "Crap!" I silently cursed at myself realizing I forgot to grab a fresh outfit from Alice's wide collection.

I wasn't allowed to stay overnight at the Cullen's often but when Alice worked her magic on my dad he was putty in her hands. Alice was the reason I got to see Carlisle as much as I did.

Thank god for Alice.

I let out a heavy sigh knowing I would soon be face to face with Carlisle, half naked. I grabbed my towel wrapping it securely around my body as I open the bathroom door letting the cool air hit my exposed skin.

I shivered in response as the steam cleared, showing a very shocked Carlisle. "Bella." He gasped. I slowly made my way across the room as I spoke. "I forgot to grab a new pair of clothes."

"Oh." Was all that left his mouth which caused me to frown slightly. This was the most Carlisle had ever seen of me and all he had to say was oh? No, you look beautiful or sexy, just oh?

After Carlisle broke out of his trance he spoke. "I should give you some privacy." He said moving off the bed toward the door. "Wait, stay, please?" Carlisle froze in his spot with his hand on the door, an uncertain look lay on his face.

I headed over towards him slowly, not wanting to scare him off. As soon as I covered the distance between us, I gentle untied my towel; my eyes remained on his no doubt showing my excitement as well as fear. Carlisle face showed nothing but curiosity as his eyes scanned mine, trying to read my intentions. It wasn't till my towel slid off my body falling to the floor with a sound of a thump that he reacted, quickly scooping the towel off the ground covering me up with it in a flash.

I gasped as the speed of his actions sent a breeze of cool air over my body, making my breast harden in response. I stood there dumbfounded, it happen so fast I'm sure if I would have blinked I would have missed it. "Bella, what are you doing?" Carlisle asked in his all too familiar protective tone.

I held onto the towel as Carlisle's touch left my body, feeling more self-cautious than before. "I just wanted you to see me, tell me you loved the way I looked. I thought maybe if you saw me, really saw me, you might change your mind about having sex with me." I said sadly, wrapping my arms around my waist needing comfort.

Carlisle sighed deeply, coming over to me, showing nothing but love in his eyes. "Bella, you know I love, I do, and I'm sure you look amazing under that towel but." He winced slightly. "But what?" I asked desperately wanting to know why he was so opposed to us having sex.

He lightly caressed my cheek before he went on. "I don't want to be that guy." I gave Carlisle a hurtful look as he gave me the he wasn't finished expression. "I don't want to be that guy that hurts you, steals your innocents. Bella, giving your virginity away is such a beautiful gift to give someone, you can only give it once and I want to make sure your truly ready and that you're giving it away for the right reasons."

I silenced Carlisle worries with my lips, kissing him deeply. he kissed me back longingly, removing any thoughts I had of him not wanting me. I parted, panting faintly as I answered. "I'm ready, I want you and not just because I'm hormonal-"Carlisle let out a snicker at this as I continued. " Because you are who I see standing next to me in my future, because you given me so much and I want to give you all of me in return, simply because, I love you."

Carlisle grinned widely at this before stealing a quick kiss. "Alright, than it's settled." I eyes popped open as his announcement. "So, we're having sex?" I asked not able to hide my excitement. Carlisle chuckled as I started to remove towel again, however, he was quick to stop me. "Not yet." I pouted at this as he explained. "I want this to be right for you, this is your first time after all. It should be something you remember for all the right reasons."

I looked up at him in awe. Carlisle was truly a sweetheart and I was lucky enough to catch his attention.

"Carlisle, you don't have to lure me, I don't want candles, rose petals and silk sheets, I just want you." Carlisle leaned down sweetly pecking my neck. "And you will have me, but not today." I sighed frustrated as he headed toward the exit. "But why?" I whined, upset I wasn't getting my way.

"Because I have a condition before we have sex." I arched my eyebrows intrigued. "Oh really and what is that?" I asked placing my hands on my hips. Carlisle waltz back over leaning in as if he was going to kiss me again, I swallowed in anticipation as he slowly lowered his head, and just as his lips grazed mine he spoke. "Not until you graduate high school." He declared moving away from his position.

"But's that's two weeks away." Carlisle smirked at this heading out the door. "I know."


I watched Carlisle from a far as he play wrestle with Emmett in the mud, shirtless. Emmett was getting more irritated by the moment at his lack of skill as Carlisle moved swiftly and smoothly making Emmett unable to tackle him.

"Bella?" I heard Jasper voice, though I was too wrapped up in the scene before me to give him my full attention. "Hmm?"

"You mind?" He asked out of the blue causing me to break eye contact with Carlisle built body, finally looking over to see a stressed out Jasper.

"What?" "Your emotions speak pretty loudly." I immediately blush realizing Jasper felt my lust for Carlisle.

"Oh sorry." "That's okay, just try to keep your emotions in check around me, if you continue I just may have to pouch on Alice next time I see her." I lightly snickered at his confession. "Oh, I don't think she would mind."

"Well, her no, but Jacob." I suddenly snapped at the mention of my best friend, Jacob's name. I haven't talk to him sense the day all three of us hung out at the mall, I didn't even know if Alice knew anything yet.

"What do you mean?" I asked nervously hoping Jasper wouldn't notice. "Well, truth be told, Jacob is sort of seeing Alice now."

My heart sunk at this. I couldn't believe Alice choose Jacob over Jasper, they been together forever. I actually looked up to them as a couple, hoping Carlisle and I would end up being as happy as they were one day. Maybe there is no such thing as a happy ending.

Jasper must have noticed my sadness on the subject as he quickly rephrased his statement. "What I mean is, well, Alice is seeing both Jacob and me." "What?" I shouted a little too loudly causing me to quickly cover my mouth as Jasper let out a chuckle.

"Yeah, it took some time getting use to the idea. I mean, how I could not be weirded out about another guy touching my girl affectionately." "That's a little strange." I stated, stun He would agree to such a thing.

Jasper shook his head in understanding. "Tell me about it, but I mean it's what Alice wants. I want to do whatever makes Alice happy; when she's happy, I'm happy.

Wouldn't you do the same for Carlisle? I mean, what if Edward out of the blue asked to be with you and Carlisle was okay with it, would you?"

I suddenly froze in my spot stun Jasper even brought up the crazy idea. The thought of being with both Edward and Carlisle was repulsive to me.

When I'm in a relationship I want to be with that one person only, I would never share my love, how could I? If I was able to do something like that than obliviously my feelings weren't pure to start with.

"Honestly Jasper-"I suddenly froze noticing Edward a few feet away, looking quite nervous.

Shit, did he overhear our conversation?

I watched frozen in my spot as Edward headed straight for me with a look of determination on his face.

Shit, is he coming this way?

"Bella, I need to talk to you."

Oh shit.


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