Okay... so this is a BIG chapter. BIG things are happening.
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"Do you not like it?" Brennan watched Booth push his dinner around his plate. He'd been relatively quite since they had returned from the hospital and hadn't spoke a word since they sat down for dinner. Although Brennan had never been very perceptive at reading people, she could sense he was upset with her.
"It's fine, Bones," He didn't look at her but he took a small bite.
"You're upset with me," Brennan could think of no possible reason for him to be treating her this way; what could she have possibly done wrong?
"Let it go, Bones," He took another bite.
She glared back at him, "Fine."
"Good."
Brennan began eating rapidly even though she knew it was bad for digestion. She was going to finish eating, clean up the kitchen, and then she was going to find a reason to excuse herself back to her own apartment for the evening. For the first time in weeks, her desires turned back to being alone. And from what she could tell, as had his. It had been fun to fool herself into thinking they could coexist forever with out argument or confrontation like this- but now it was time to come back to reality. She finished her meal and went to the sink to rinse it before loading it in the dishwasher. The next moment all the food she prepared was wrapped and stored in the kitchen; nothing else to do but get out of the apartment.
Booth watched Brennan grab her bag and put on her shoes, "Where are you going?"
"I'm going back to my apartment for the evening. I'll be back later," she said simply; heading for the door.
"Bones, look..."Booth stood up; about to go after her.
"What?" She turned around quickly and snapped back at him. Her stomach tightened slightly... she wished he was about to stop her.
"Nothing. You want to go, you can go."
"I know," she spoke very matter of factly. "If you need me, you can call."
"Bones..." Again his reflex to catch her stepped in.
"What Booth?" She was getting agitated. If he needed her to stay, he should say so, if not he should allow her to be on her way.
"I... I don't want you to call him," It was time for him to confess what he had been thinking all day.
"Call who?" Brennan needed Booth to be a little more specific than that.
"Dr. Kane. I don't want you to call him," Suddenly the weight of what he was saying started to catch up to him; he began to back pedal. "I don't think you should be dating one of my doctors. It would just be weird."
"Booth, it's really none of your business who I date. He's not even your doctor," Brennan had completely forgotten about the doctor, but it was clear to her Booth had been thinking about it all day. "Why does this matter to you?"
"I just don't think it would be a good idea, Bones."
"So I can't purse a romantic interest with someone just because you don't think its a good idea?" that reasoning sounded completely ludicrous to her.
"Why not me?" he put himself out there. Time to take the risk. No looking back, "Why has it never been me? Why have you and I never..."
Brennan stood there; shocked and frozen. Where they finally going there now? "Booth... the FBI... they won't let us work together."
"That's it? That's our only reason?" He began walking towards her; he had no idea what he would do once he finally reached her.
"Booth..." her eyes turned to the floor.
"What happened? It's all I can think about. It wasn't just a dream, Bones. I know it wasn't- being here with you- its proof that it was more than a dream. It feel so right- you have to feel that too," His hand smoothed over her cheek and turned her eyes up to him. "I must have felt this way before. I can't imagine that I didn't. I can't imagine ever not feeling this way about you. So what happened?"
She shook her head happened. True... she really didn't even know the answer. "We work together, Booth. There are lines that we can't cross."
"Who says?"
"You did," She looked at him for the first time; tears forming. "You said that there has to be a line."
Booth suddenly felt sick to his stomach, "Let me take it back, Bones. Please let me take it back."
"No, Booth," She backed away from him. If she continued to let him hold her like that, she knew in another minute she'd never let him let go of her. "You were right," and for all she knew... maybe this wasn't even Booth talking. "I think this is just another thing you're confused about."
"Bren..."
"It's Bones," A tear snuck down her cheek and she quickly whipped it away.
"It's still me. You know it is..." Booth took a deep breath; he prayed he didn't cry infront of her.
"Please don't look so sad," she wanted to reach out and hold him. Tell him all the things she'd been feeling... but no.
"It's okay," It wasn't going to force her or guilt her.
"Would you like me to stay?" She almost regretted asking on the chance he would say no.
"You know you can."
So I guess this was like my "100th episode" AU of Bones.
Made me sad... yes. But at least its out there! And no... there will be no "Maluku" or "Hannah" so stay tuned!
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