Srry it took awhile... I got lazy... TT

Screaming out the window
Watch me die another day
Hopeless situation
Endless price I'll have to pay

Diary of a madman
Walk the line again today
Entries of confusion
Dear diary, I'm here to stay

Sanity now and beyond me
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words i say
I will always love you
There's no choice

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel whole again

Voices in the darkness
Scream away my mental health
Can I ask a question
To help me save me from myself

Sanity now and beyond me
I will always love you
However long i stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
There's no choice

I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I'm whole again
Whenever ism alone with you
You make me feel like I'm whole again

I will always love you...
There's no choice


A Perfect Circle

Diary of a madman

I looked over the battle field. Naruto had just won by a hair. But what really confused me was where in the heck did Naruto get his boost of chakra! O.O. When Naruto reached the place we were at he started to gloat. " Good job Naruto! but you do know your no match for me right?"

Naruto jumped back and pointed a finger at me " What's that supposed to mean! I could beat you with a hand tied behind my back!"

I crossed my arms "mmmhmm I'd like to see that!" Naruto started to growl. I shrugged my shoulders and went back to leaning on the back of the wall waiting. Next it was Kankuro's match.

" Examiner! I'm giving up!" Kankuro Shouted.

"What! You scaredy cat!" I shouted at him.

" I'm giving up, I don't think I'm ready." He told me as he shrugged.

"You.." I started to mumble... And leaned against the wall, completely oblivious to Temari's fight.

"Still no sign of Sasuke, Hokage-Sama." The ninja whispered into Saratobi's ear.

"If Sasuke doesn't appear before Roka's match is over, he is disalified. I have no choice. It would be too late anyway."

" Uchiha Sasuke? disqualified. Do you know how many feudal lords have come for that match alone. Sure, they would want to see the other Uchiha's but Sasuke is known more throughout as the last survivor." The 'Kaze-kage' (AN/ Sure... That's the Kazekage...XP) Said with mock concern.

" He has until his twin's match is over." The Hokage simply reply ed.

SKIP X3

Gaara and I stared at each other twenty feet away, it seemed like miles. Just as the examiner was going to let us begin The doors Burst open, Sasuke and Kakashi were in the door way. Once Sasuke saw who I was fighting he walked over to me. " I thought I was supposed to fight him."

I shook my head " You weren't here to know that our matches were switched around." After they walked to the balcony, the match began. We stood still for a moment but then I burst forward. punched at him, but as expected the sand protected him. This was getting nowhere I needed to do something!

Baki smirked, he was happy. Roka was finally going to die. Oh, how he hated her. For only one reason, jealousy. She has and always been stronger then himself from the first time she stumbled into Sunakagure. To Baki's luck she always held back on every single thing or person she fought, leading to the abuse he had given her. Roka was another target with her brother Gaara was supposed to kill. He was Pacific told not to let petty emotions get in his way. And Gaara listened more then half of the time.

Roka continued to punch at the sand. Frustrated she quickly pulled out a kunai, resulting in accidentally cutting herself on the palm of her hand. She looked at the pouring crimson, then to Gaara. His eyes were wide and a sickening grin spread across his face. Roka tried to get away as fast as she could but the sand was too fast and surrounded her. This was it she was going to die, when the sand started to crush her she screamed out.

Almost like it never happened she was dropped and the sand went to encircle Gaara. He was holding his head and screaming to himself " I PROMISED!" Over and over again. Just then the sand was like a sphere around him. Dead silence. An explosion at the Kage tower. Roka snapped her head twords the tower, smoke surrounding it. Another sound caught her attention from behind her. It sounded like a thousand birds chirping ant once. Before she could turn to see the origin of the sound, she saw it.

Sasuke had passed her so fast that he was a blur. The sound was coming form the chakra sourounding his hand. His arm has went through the sphere of sand and a perceing scream came from the sand and Sasuke pulled out his hand, smirking. "What the hell did you do?" I gasped.

" He's part of the invasion. Kohana is being attacked." Sasuke simply replied. I rushed over and held Gaara in my arms, Crimson gushed from his shoulder. Gaara was shaking uncontrollably and clutched to my shirt. Gaara was in so much pain, he never experienced this type of pain before. " Roka... what the hell? He's the enemy!" I did not reply to Sasuke's comment.

I could feel the blood soaking my shirt, I just held him closer and laid my head onto his head. Suddenly He was pulled from my arms by Temari and Kankuro. " Sorry." Temari whispered and they took off.

I was about to follow them but I was stopped by Baki and Sasuke went after them. " No! You were supposed to die! I'm going to finish the job!" Baki snarled. Roka winced.

Don't fret precious I'm here, step away from the window
Go back to sleep

" You won't do that!" I rushed past him and over the wall. I followed the trail that the others left.


Lay your head down child
I won't let the bogeyman come

I kept running and running. I didn't want to lose them, something didn't feel right.

Counting bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums

I came across the Aburame boy fighting Kankuro. Kankuro almost attacked me with the crow. " Be careful you idiot!" He growled.

" Whose side are you on?" The Aburame boy asked. I did not answer but continued to follow the trail.

Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble

Finally I caught up, I had came right after Sasuke had. I rushed past Sasuke and went to Temari and Gaara. " Is he okay?" I demanded but Temari continued to glare at Sasuke.

Head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Finally she answered " His wound needs to be taken care of-"

Gaara interrupted " Go..."

Pay no mind what other voices say
They don't care about you, like I do, like I do
Safe from pain and truth and choice and other poison devils,
See, they don't give a fuck about you, like I do.

A wave of sand knocked both Temari and me into a tree. I had knocked my head and was in a daze, barely noticing what was happening until Naruto appeared. I snapped out of it, Gaara was already Shukaku's medium. I gasped, Clearly frightened.

Just stay with me, safe and ignorant,
Go back to sleep
Go back to sleep

Lay your head down child
I won't let the bogeyman come
Count the bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble

Head down, go to sleep to the rhythm of the war drums

Shukaku must of heard my gasp because he turned to me and smirked a toothy smirk. " You're Roka? I pursume... A pleasure to meet you!"

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons

I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason

I glared and jumped off of the tree. I landed on his shed, confident to wake Gaara up. I tried to take a step forward, I looked down and I was beeing pulled down by the sand. Not too soon after that, I was completely pulled under.

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices son
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself

I was in a vacant place that was all white, a frightening place. It seemed like I was the only one there. I looked down and noticed that my clothes had changed. I now wore a simple white Kimono. 'What the hell?' I thought. I was even more scared, I shivered.

"Welcome to my world Roka-chan.." A deep voice echoed. " Boring, eh? Well I have lived here for almost 13 years. I need some company, Would you like to stay?"

" No." I answered.

The voice laughed and a body appeared in front of me. He was tall and skinny, but looked strong at the same time, he looked alot like Gaara but older, A pair of oversize incisors peeked out from under his lips. He wore a long black, gold and red mens kimono. The nails on his hands were almost three inches long. He was a ghastly pale and his eyes were yellow. He raised his hand to my face and his nails carefully trailed down my face. " Do you know who I am?" He asked.

" No." I answered again.

He smirked and his hand trailed down to my shoulder, and moved the kimono slightly to reveal the curse mark. His nail traced it as he spoke. " well you should know who I am, how long have you been close to my container?" He paused. Each word was said so richly my ears stung. " I ,Am, Shukaku."

Swaying to the rhythm of the new world order and
Count the bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums

The bogeymen are coming
The bogeymen are coming


I gasped and tried to step back, but my body was frozen. Fear stung through my body as an odd look was in his eyes as well as a blood thirsty smirk revealing how long the incisors really were.

The bogeymen are coming
The bogeymen are coming

His nails dug deep into my shoulders and blood gushed out. Shukaku then bit into my neck while one of his hands pulled down on the kimono to the left shoulder. Shukaku's nail carved something into the shoulder while Roka cried out in pain, and the curse mark glowed. Roka then felt like she was falling and everything went black.


Keep your head down, go to sleep, to the rhythm of a war drums

Gaara had been waken by Naruto and was now lying on the ground. Roka had landed near him shortly after. He was staring at her. Blood was pouring from her neck and shoulders, It didn't look like she was breathing. 'No, she can't be... Please wake up..' Gaara thought to himself as he continued to look at her. He willed his weak body to at least crawl over to her. Gaara laid his head over her heart. Nothing.

Stay with me
Safe and ignorant
Just stay with me
Hold you and protect you from the other ones
The evil ones
Don't love you son,
Go back to sleep

(counting Bodies like sheep by A perfect Circle)

Gaara placed a hand onto her hand and whispered " Please, Don't be." Gaara almost cried. It was his fault she was dead. His. His fault. Everything was his fault. Here was another time when he wished he would just die. The world didn't need him. Roka was starting to become cold.

To his surprise Roka's brother jumped/fell from the trees above and made his way over here slowly. He placed a hand on her neck to check for a pulse. When there was no luck he swore. " Not again." He mumbled, It looked like he was going to cry as he pondered in his memories.

Suddenly, the curse mark glowed and Roka shot up. Eyes pupiless and red, Incisors long and the curse mark growing across her body. The two gaped at her. But the new form only lasted for a few more seconds before she slouched over eyes closed. But this time breathing.

Roka was intensive care for the next day or two. She wasn't able even to attend the Hokage's funeral, but she did watch it from her window.

( I Know stuff happens but I'm going to skip it...)

Once Roka was released from the hospital she walked to her little apartment. She pondered on what happened that day. She had told no one what had happened in her few minuets of death. Her hand was over the thing Shukaku carved into her shoulder, She hadn't been able to read it. When she neared her apartment she noticed that something was following her. Roka quickly turned around to find a little grey dog, Who barked happily and jumped into Roka's arms. " Awww... Do you have a home?" She asked the pooch.

The dog looked at her as if she understood Roka. 'No, I don't. But would you be kind enough to take a little puppy in?'

Roka jumped back surprised " DID YOU JUST TALK?"

The dog looked at her like she was stupid. 'No you idiot. I communicated to you with thoughts. I have a name. It is Yoko, Don't forget it.'

Roka gulped and nodded. " Ok..." Later Roka had befriended the strange dog.

There was a knock on the door and Roka opened it. Sakura stood in the door way. " Hi! Roka... Um.. Would.. you like to come to a sleepover with Ino, Tenten, me and Hinata... You can get to know them better too!"

I Smiled " Yeah... Sure i was getting lonely anyway, Hang on a sec... Let me grab some stuff"

Later on I arrived at Sakura's place with Yoko trailing behind me. Everyone else was already there. " OMG! Roka-chan! Lemme do your hair!" Ino jumped up and pulled Roka to sit on a pillow And Ino started to happily brush her hair while Yoko played with Hinata. " You have sooo many split ends! I'm gonna cut them off for you" And Ino pulled out a pair of scissors and the chopping begin. " Here, look. Now this makes you look cute!" Ino Held a mirror in front of Roka's face and her hair was shorter. It went a little past Her chin but didn't go to her shoulders and it was in layers.

" Now I look even more like Sasuke! If I put on my headband the way I always do I'll look bald!" Roka thought to herself. " Thank you Ino-chan! You did a good job."

"Hey! let's talk about boys we like!" Sakura chirped, and we all sat in a circle.

" I LIKE SASUKE!" Ino and Sakura said unison, They glared at each other and then it was Tenten's turn.

"Ummm... I...I..I like Nenji..." She mumbled and blushed.

It took a while for Hinata to gain the courage to say it, and when she did she was a ruby red. " Na-naruto-kun..."

Then it was my turn. I blushed and twiddled my thumbs for a moment. " I aaah... He's in another country. Subaku no Gaara." It was quiet and everyone switched to another topic.

"what a surprise! I never knew.." A familiar voice sounded.

"Who?" I asked.

"Oh, you know who..." The carving on my shoulder burned...

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Sigh... I need to think about what's gonna happen with Itachi right now...