Chapter 9
I wandered around in the forest, so tired I couldn't manage walking in a straight line and bumped into a tree knocking off some bark, chips fell to the ground. For a second I leaned against it trying to get my bearings and figure where to go from here. My first thought was to away from the house, at the very least so I wasn't in smelling range, while still being close enough to Seth, just in case…although I'm pretty sure if anything was going to happen no distance would stop me from protecting my little brother. I really missed that little twirp.
I eventually walked across my tree. It was the perfect tree – well as perfect as a tree gets. Wow I seriously need sleep, I'm talking about trees…I can be so territorial when I'm a she wolf. Strange how that works. I really should phase back and sleep, but I was just too tired. Circling near the base of the tree my legs gave way and I huddled in a ball and rested my face on my paws, my fur wrapping around me like a comforter as a drifted to sleep.
I was half expecting my usual dream…pitch black and nothing but a cavernous black hole. After Sam left, things haven't really been the same. There was an absence of my usual freaky dreams of flying, desert islands or candy cane houses...I just had nothing – emptiness - sort of fitting really.
Tonight however was different. It was dark, but then the moon came out from behind the cloud riddled sky everything was washed with a white glow. When my eyes went into focus I realised I was standing in the forest alone. The trees towering over me in a ominous way, but the urge to search for something or someone was so strong I wandered deep into the forest. I kept looking, not knowing what I was looking for.
In the distance there was a tall dark figure with his back turned to me. My feet went I slowly walking towards him. I knew he was what I was looking for because that anxiety left me. The closer I went to him the safer I felt, each footstep filling me with warmth. He stood there in the clearing in cut off jeans frayed at the ends and bare foot. The moonlight bounced of his skin, the light draped over his muscles. He truly was beautiful.
I was mesmerized by him. Slowly I walked towards him with my hand outstretched in front of me. He turned around and it was Jacob. The strangest thing was that deep down I always knew it was him I was searching for – Sam didn't cross my mind once. I felt complete and so safe with Jacob.
"Leah"
His voice was like crushed velvet, smooth and perfect. I felt calm and tranquil. I had found my centre and everything was falling into place now.
Everything around me shimmered and the image changed, I was sitting on the porch of a house. I could see the trees on the distance and knew I was back in La Push. It was a sunny day. The air was fresh and warm, the wind blew through the trees and the sound was like the forest was whispering to me.
There was the hint of a musty smell lingering in the air, it felt like it belonged there and it was something familiar, but I couldn't quite tell what it was. It reminded me of the smell of the forest just after it rained and the sun peeked through the canopy formed by the trees, and then warm arms wrapped around my shoulders.
I placed my hand on his muscular arm and looked up to see Jacob looking down at me, his liquid black eyes filled with love. I stared into his eyes and smiled.
"Mummy, mummy Luca pushed me"
"No way Sara's lying"
The sound of kids took me by surprise – I thought I couldn't have kids? I turned away from Jacob to look for them. They came running towards me, the little girl, with long sleek black hair braided fell down to her lower back, ran up to me and jumped onto my lap.
She wrapped her little arms around me and buried her face in the crook of my neck. I held her tight – she was my baby girl. Rested in my arms she felt soft and warm against my chest and smelled like lilies.
Then the little boy, who looked older than her and looked just like Jacob with his scruffy hair and adorable button nose, was now jumping up and down trying to get my attention. I had my hands full with the little girl – with Sara. Luca kept jumping around until Jacob scooped him up and started throwing him into the air. The air was filled with the joyous laughter of children – our children. I was surrounded by love and didn't want this to end.
I felt someone kiss my forehead; the heat meant it was unmistakably Jacob. I looked up and saw that he wasn't there he was still playing with Luca.
"Sweet dreams Leah"
Everything began to get fuzzy…no - I don't want to wake up. The more I tried to hold on the more the image began to disappear like trying to cup water in your hand but have it slowly trickle away. I tried to hang on to all the little things…I didn't want to forget any of it, the way I felt, the way the kids looked, the musky smell that had my heart racing - wait I could still smell that. I sniffed and it was still there when I opened my eyes. I saw the forest but no one there. I sat up and realized I was naked.
Something fell to the ground. I picked it up and found a big black T-shirt, I sniffed it, and it was that same musky smell, it was real.
Well some of it anyway.
A/N: Every story needs a dream sequence and this is one that I just had to share. Hope you enjoyed it and do let me know what you think of it. Any criticisms as to how I can improve are greatly welcomed.
