A week had passed and the festivities were almost in full swing. Natasha agreed to have T'Challa inform the Wakadan community that he has heirs. It guaranteed the safety and permanent home for her children including herself. But not only do Wakanda know but because now T'Challas royalty surpassed the British everyone would be tuning in and the whole world will know. The twins were helped into their royal clothing while Natasha sat down and watch how happy they looked.

They were matching with T'Challa purple and black. His mother, sister all looked lovely. Cameron looked dashing just like his father and Lilianna looked so beautiful when she spun around. One of the workers began to do her hair she began screaming and pulling away running to Natasha in tears. "Hey, it's okay." Kissing her cheeks calming her down. "you want mommy to do your hair?"

"Yes. I like it better." Her little whimpers went away as Natasha began to do her hair.

"It needs to be in a traditional hairstyle." Shuri voiced out.

"Words of wisdom if she wants a hairstyle it will stay longer on her head. A hairstyle she doesn't want gets ruined in five minutes or in front of your people as she displays her dislike in your culture."

"Natasha..." Ramonda used her stern queen voice.

"I only agreed to keep my children safe and alive but I'm the mother." Finishing off Lilly's hair she gave her a peck on the lips and Cameron demands to get his hair done next.

"Our ways..." Raymonda was cut off before she can finish.

" I don't give a damn about your ways." Everyone turned to look at her as to what she had said. "Take it any way you want but I don't care. Your focus has nothing to do with my focus. You want the world to know your son is a father. Great, I just want my children to live a happy life and not have to look behind their shoulder." The room was quite as they saw the tears that are running down from her eyes. This is the second time he has seen her cry. "all you think about is your fucking culture and all I can think about is every one that is after them will know exactly where they are and I'm so post to put my trust in you all over this. It's driving me insane."

Taking the kids out the room T'Challa held his hand out to his mother to stop her from speaking. Surely he hasn't informed his mother of the situation. "Suri can you update mother on what has happened I will deal with Natasha." walking out the room he found her in the garden sitting as she watched the kids be pushed on the swing by the Dora Milaje. He sighed and sat down beside her. "Natasha you shouldn't have done that but I understand." taking her hand in his, "This is our family. Our home." Kissing the back of her hand. "I know this scares you but you and our children have all of Wakanda on your side. I ask that you trust Wakanda. Trust our family and have faith and trust in me." He never saw Natasha like this before no one has.

"I can't fail them." She begins to cry as he feels like he had been stabbed in the chest. "I'm scared, I should never have been pregnant but I was, I gave birth to two beautiful kids that didn't ask me to be their mother. I look at them and they are everything that I am not. It's my fault that they're in danger. I don't deserve to be their mother. I'm a monster." Hearing the words coming out of her mouth shocked him. "Monsters don't get to give birth to beautiful children, monsters don't get to have someone who is unable to take care of themselves and depend on you for everything. A monster that couldn't understand why someone, anyone would love someone like me."

His heart felt like it was breaking even more. Everything she is saying he couldn't believe.

"I was going to abort them." T'challa's eyes widened in shock at her truth. "my mind was so set I was going to get rid of them because there was no way I could be a mother. I believed I was doing them a favor. I did things as a Russian spy, I did things as an Avenger and so many things between those two I gained enemies. I believed they would just suffer. My name was called and I was ready. I signed the papers and I closed my eyes waiting for the doctor. The next thing I know he enters in and I couldn't do it. I wasn't scared. when I was waiting I pictured them I imagined what they would look like. I pictured them so perfect I wanted to see them. I wanted to see the faces they would make, how would they laugh, how would they cry. Maybe a monster could change. I should have told you the truth that day. I should have told you I was pregnant. I should have told you my doubts, my fears, I should have believed you but I didn't because I couldn't understand why. I just...I just...I just felt so replaceable and in my mind, I knew I felt replaceable. I'm always replaceable and I don't want them to know what it feels like. It's so hard and it scares me. Everything is wrong because of me and they're in danger because of me and it's all my fault."

Pulling her to sit on his lap she curled herself into a ball as he held her. It hurt him to know that this is how she feels. Wiping her tears away he makes her look at him and kisses her for what felt like forever and pulls away as their eyes are locked. "I wish you can see what I see when I look at you with Lilly and Cam. You are a natural. I won't force you but I will be here no matter what I am doing and no matter where I am. I am here." Holding her hand in his. I love you Natasha, every time I think I have found you out your full of surprises. "you are not a monster. When our children become older and know what their mother has done for them you will see in their eyes how lucky they are to have you as their mother."