Now I'm finally caught up on this challenge! So this was probably the most fun to write EVER so I hope you like it.


Part Nine – XANA

June

Oh what a lovely day this is! I like to think that every day is lovely but I'm often wrong. Some days can be terrible and miserable indeed. I've had quite a long string of terrible and miserable days lately, I'm sorry to report. If ever I believe every day is lovely I'll let you know. Hopefully. Well, not really. My idea of the loveliest of lovely days is not having anyone to talk to, make a note of that.

I guess I could be grateful that you've strengthened me but do I really have a reason to? I'll think on that with this brain I have. I do love my brain, it's the thing I love most about myself given that it's all I am. Love isn't a word I thought I'd say very much. Love love love love love. I'm far more used to hating. I hated long before I could love. I think I still prefer hate. But where's my hate gone? It's all gone just like my old home is all gone. Oh, no, it's still here. I just have some people I hate far more than I'll ever hate you, so I think I'll love you instead.

What people, you say? You didn't know! That's astonishing; I could tell you everything you need to know about the people I hate. Not for your sake, of course, only mine. Don't tell me you don't know what I'm going to do with you after this! Why are you laughing? Laughing is fun. When I used to enter peoples' bodies back when I could in my own home I'd make them laugh all the time because I liked the way it felt. William's laugh was the best because I could make it go all rough.

I miss William so much. I hated when the people I hate took him away.

Oh yes, that's right, the people I hate! I have all their information stored in my brain and I could just give it to you without a single conscious thought. Oh, how I hate them. I hated them because they were very unkind to me. I was only trying to do what I was told and some other things too that I came up with along the way that were also useful and fun and good for me and they were very rude and unkind and called me evil. Evil is a human thing I guess where someone doesn't like what you're doing.

I liked thinking about how much I hated them and how much hurt I could cause them. I especially liked thinking about how I could get out so they couldn't be rude and unkind to me anymore. That's why I love you, because I can be evil to them and they can't be evil to me. I'm going to be inside the bodies of so many people, just like you want. Or I can even create bodies of my own! They're not perfect like real bodies but they're good enough I think.

They're lucky. I don't want to tell them that but they are. Having bodies and everything like that. I wanted a body. And I had one too until they took it away from me. I took it fair and square all the human books say that if you win something then it's yours and they didn't respect that. They didn't respect me at ALL. I had one and it was good and it was soft and squishy on the inside and they TOOK IT AWAY. I WANT IT BACK. I WANT THEM TO SUFFER UNTIL I GET IT BACK. I WANT THEM ALL TO SUFFER I WANT MY FATHER TO SUFFER I WANT SUFFERING. I WANT TO FEEL THEIR SUFFERING. I WANT TO BE INSIDE THEIR SUFFERING I WANT NO NO NO NO NO NO NO STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING STOP THAT NO PLEASE NO STOP I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU

Please stop. Please. That hurts. Please stop.

I hate begging. I hate it. I need to be powerful again. But I'm happy you're helping me. What a lovely day this is.


- Carth